The Roads We Choose

It has been longer than a fortnight, but it has probably been worth it because I was still in a state of half shock half wonderment and I can still feel the weight like a giant burden of responsibility strapped on my back, I don't think physically my 6'1' 155 stature could hold this immense weight, spiritually am trudging my feet but am glad I made it today . I feel like shouting, I feel like dancing without music playing, I feel like running fast without feeling the wind rush by me, I just feel like speaking to you in 10 languages at once and have you understand me without me translating! Good Heavens I feel good! I hope you don't think I've gone "coo coo".

2 months as we sat down in the game room, Sarah Magrady was watching some of those shows that I really never watched, I was on the laptop scripting lyrics to a song I wanted to go record later the next day. She then asked me a question that I took time to think about before I answered her back, but at the moment she thought that I had ignored her. The question was; "What do you think am really good at"? The reason why I froze in context was because I didn't want to bluntly say what came up to my mind first! "Humanitarian". Then I thought of the list of things that I knew she would pursue that were right at hand "A great Writer" an Author, now remember at this time I was in thought but my response didn't come too soon and she thought I simply ignored her to avoid the "procrastination" conversation that we had had a couple days before.... Ohhh snap it was going to be a war of words, well she flipped through the channels and checked her DVR for recorded shows including "All My Children" , Big Love, then she decided to watch "Daddy's Girls" by Rev Run, see I never watched Run's house but I always watched the ending close" where Rev simply leaves words of wisdom before the show ends... "That is my favorite part of the show" I would skip the rest of the stuff ...but that part I could rewind just to tap into that zone. Now back to the argument that was about to erupt, I simply said "I think you are a humanitarian and a great writer" explore those potentials and you will surely find out that that is the truth about what you are really good at! Remember she wasn't talking before I answered her she was flipping through channels grumbling to her self about how I was ignoring her and how I cared less, SHE STOPPED! And said ''are you serious"? And i emphasized ..."YOU SHOULD FINISH WRITING YOUR BOOK" more so start a project that gives you the ability to help people because that is who you are, you can't hide that fact and you can't run away from the truths about you. wow...did I save a on coming argument with speaking my heart...phew..."am not good at arguments" I simply try to use one phrase or sentence and let you decide if am right or you are wrong!

The road you choose in this twisted journey of life could have lots of toils and snares, but at the end of it all we do not really choose these destinies ourselves there is a guideline, from God we receive so many gifts and chances to redeem and explore every possibility, without the physical there will be mental intellect, without mental there will be spiritual, without spiritual there will be emotional intellect, it keeps going on and on.. what am saying is "In this life the road you choose is yours to decide whether to walk on it or it will walk you.."

Yours Truly Blaq

Through The Trying Times

Today I would like to take a moment to appreciate love as the greatest gift of all, but yet Life trickles through the forces of nature at the cost of God's will. I can't express how hard the past couple months have been but I hold on to the remaining threads of hope to see brighter days a head, it takes faith, patience and believing to keep everyone strong. You could travel the world to escape current pain but without the Almighty, family and friends to walk the world with you all is left is just "You". Some of the most amazing things I learned from Sarah were simply accepting that the power of co-ordinating and networking is a basic incentive to succeeding in today's dynamic world. I usually never speak until i'm spoken to and that takes patience, the silent warrior in me that wins the battle with golden silence.. I will slowly but surely learn to open up.

As the year winds down, tis be the season that brings together families, friends and people from all walks of life to rejoice in a tremendous form of sharing and giving. I don't know what you are going to give but I know for a fact that Sarah was planning to give only to the kids this year,

to Heather's baby Ashleigh, Dianne's kids Adriana, Tony, Chris, Tim's Kids,Felix's kids, Coco's kids, Jason's kids, phew I could go on and on the list is huge , Sarah did not only give during holidays she gave throughout the entire year, to friends, family and strangers like me.. I will give you a perfect example that shocked me! She watched the movie "7 Pounds" and it touched her so much that she bought a bunch of 7 pounds DVDs and gave them out to "whoever" ...did you catch it..? I said "WHOEVER" she met. If you haven't watched this movie I suggest you do! I know you are going to ask yourself "hmmm I wonder if he watched it"? Yes I DID! It's one of those movies that leaves you perplexed in wonderment asking .."Am I capable of sacrificing my life so that another person lives?" Even bodyguards duck when shots go off! or rather wear bullet proof to take one"

Through these trying times I would like to thank all friends of Sarah Magrady one and all, readers of her blog and all those that have been a revolving force filled with love , joy and harmony with Sarah's Family to help them get through their loss and hardship.

In memory of Sarah, a children's Fund in her names is a project being looked into, anyone who has a perspective and fundamentals of procedures to this project to lift off please email in your suggestions through her face book account. Search your face book for Sarah Magrady.

I wish you the best in all you do, let your endeavors and efforts reach their destinations with God Speed. Have a blessed week! Check out the next blog in a Fortnight.

"Tewali Munsi muno Mulongofu Neera Tewaliba" No one in this world is Perfect and there will be Never Be Anyone"

Yours truly Blaq

On Friday Nov-13-2009 Sarah Anne Magrady was drafting a note via blackberry in form of an email reaching out through "Ellen" to have an important message delivered to "Rev Run" Joseph Simmons wishing him a happy Birthday for Saturday Nov-14th-2009 with more to it if you take time to read it. we don't know whether she actually sent it before she went to sleep because after we discovered it, it wasn't saved or sent yet..! It was the first thing that popped up on the blackberry screen while Ms Heather and I were asked by Ms Lynn "Sarah's Mother" to find her Doctor's phone number. The Truth Hurts, Sarah Anne Magrady Passed away Early Morning Nov-14-2009. Heather saved the drafted message and I sent it to its destination the "Diamond Empowerment Fund" D.E.F whose mission is of supporting education initiatives that develop and empower thos most disadvantaged in Afric an nations where diamonds are a natural resource, the organization will look to fund projects that have proven success inproviding African youth with high-quality educational experiences, including skill-building and vocational training initiatives. This is what Sarah Magrady was about, these are the type of projects that inspired her, giving , reaching out, providing to those in need, I could go on and on telling you what humanitarian she was in all her endeavors.

Dear Family and Friends, guests and readers from all walks of life here below are theLast of Sarah Anne Magrady's words . She hadn't written a blog for Friday Nov-13-2009. Therefore This note was it.

"I want you to pass this message to Joseph simmons rev. Very Important!"

Hi helen! Would you please pass this message on to Tell him tomorrow Happy Birthday! The best gift I could give him is to get a page on Facebook and same with Justine. They will see stories and be able to see things, network and socialize from a laptop! It can be informative, a hand reaching out and inspiring! If he doesn't have one, then I on Disability will use the money given to me, for my christmas gift make a sacrifice and buy him one. I remember the story from when I was a little girl in a catholic school about in the Bible were there was a rich person giving money, yet a poor person giving almost everything. I remember how The Lord said it is those who were wealthy and give a lot vs. Those who were poor and gave almost everything that the poor were more humble and gave praise. The Lord was so pleased with the poor but the rich man gave a little and gave the pennies. It is time for them to see what wonderful people are out there and he can set up things there and links as well. Facebook to me is wonderful and i think he and justine will see how big and wonderful people are. I please ask you to him for this Pass it on! Thank you, good luck an I hope you get your moment to shine!

Sarah Magrady.

            "Negyebuva negyebudda Kunsi ne Kunsi, Kuntandikwa nekunkomerero "OBULAMU BWEBUGAGA"  
The above proverb in my language states that ;
          "From wherever time comes from to wherever it goes From nation to nation or world to world,  from Begining  to the End  "HEALTH IS WEALTH"
                          Yours Truly Blaq Fuego

Noveber12,2009 "Good Afternoon This Is Your Wake Up Call!"

Good Afternoon! I hope everyones day is going well! Yes I thought I would Chime in and do a little wake up call! I do my best to help my friend who is a single mother, take in people who need help, always reach out to those who need help, but frankly it is time for you and all of us to come together and start doing more! I mentioned Family Focus as as a charity that helps families. Perfect because it starts at home. Then we go into schools and the community. So were do we start? That is when we put our heads together and figure it out. I know too many people that have a lot to offer and can help put something together. It is a matter of putting a plan together another organization. I am calling upon people to help me. Russell, I think it is time. Ryan of course, same with Candace, Tiger, and everyone else who has the power to lead. You all have it, Tiger you have the Tiger Woods Foundation that helps children. Lets blow it up out of the water. Because if I could put together a children's Foundation it would be very similar! Rev I call upon you. Your son Russell put you in check! Ha Ha! I was watching of course one of my favorite all American families Run's House on MTV2 Marathon and Russell was going to kick you off the board Rush Philanthropy until you contributed more. You know what I would do for a seat on a major foundation board like Rush Philanthropy. You ended up buying some more air miles and then they donated more air miles. Russell said that was a good start. However, your son said what about selling your Phantom Bently! You looked at him like he was crazy. A car is a depreciating asset, and I honestly myself would do it in a heartbeat. I love Honda! Get a nice SUV or Accord! There nice ride smooth or a nice BMW. It's a car! A toy it is that dispensable! We are talking about making a difference in this world. From the birth of child and then into man and a lady that will lead in this next Generation.

I often post articles on my facebook site from Russell and others. There is so much out there we are so unaware of. But things do need to change and we cannot sit anymore. A 1 year old child was killed in a drive by shooting. A gang rape, along with children found living in filth. The children fighting angry hurting kids, bulling at school! There is so much anger. We must step in. It first comes in with answering the phone when someone is need. Opening a door for someone, being the first to say hello, presenting a good role model to the children around you. Who are you when you wake up in the morning and go to bed at night. When you look in the mirror to brush your teeth, shave or do your hair. Who are you!!!! It is a wake up call, I have learned on my 28 years here on Earth, life is short and we do need to make it count. We all have our crosses to bare, however having a purpose helped me fight for my life and come through. It helped me get through the hard times. There is never a waste of time. Plant seeds in a child's mind. Help that friend or relative that needs you. Don't turn your head anymore. I know you have your problems, we all do. I know all too well, that could be your child, niece, grandaughter, daughter, cousin that was killed in a drive by. Tragedy surrounds us everyday.

No more laugh, be kind and so and so! It is what are you going to do today? Hey are you in? E-mail me, write on my wall, share ideas, thoughts. That is why I did this blog. It is now open for anyone to make comments. I changed up my profile a bit and we are moving forward. I tell you what my cousin died tragically along with other loved ones. But I tell you one thing he will not be forgotten either. Tom Dodson will be remembered and I will make sure of that. I will make sure that I do my best everyday and I will continue to bring people together, be that bridge and work towards making this world a better place. I watched America come together cry, and yearn for change. So lets get working! Keep going, enjoy your day, put your happy face on along with that football in your hand or in my case my koosh ball that helps me think of ideas and lets get together to the drawing board! Believe and now it is time to lead!

Love,

Sarah

Noveber12,2009 "Good Night for Me!"

Good Morning! Yes it is Good Night for me! It was a wonderful day with my favorite little person. Her curiosity and intelligence blow me away! She looked so cute! We got some cute waves! We hit the Dupage Children's Museum and she loved it! She didn't want to leave! It was a wonderful thing. Then we hit Target. Yes the Christmas shopping has started already. I have to say I don't think I am going out this year on Black Friday! I know hard for me to say, but I just don't have yet to get in the groove! I got off to a good start and we're doing really well. Well I am more excited in remembering that the Birth of Chirst and remembering the sacrifices he made for all of us. For me it is the kids! Decorating, watching Christmas movies, cookies and things like that. Last year was just nuts. I am still not over it.

Well it feels great to see a smile on a child's face we had a great time and even brought home touchable bubbles. Very fun! Well I hope everyone remembers that it is not all in gifts, and is also in giving time, and being creative. Put a little love into what you do. That really makes it special. Well I am off to get some sleep then a lot of appointments. I hope everyone has a great day! Find that passion, that gives you that energy, that feel good feeling! Laugh, enjoy and believe because God and Jesus is with us all. If there is anything going on just shout out and speak from your heart! Have Faith!

Love,

Sarah

"Beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and best." R Turnbull

november 10, 2009 "Holidays are on there way"

Good Morning! Yes the holidays are on the way! Thanksgiving, which to me is the shopping marathon. I am not a Thanksgiving person. Christmas. Well Christmas, I am so burnt from last Christmas, I can barely walk past wrapping paper with out growling! It was so crazy, here there and everywhere. My niece and nephew on my Dad's side were in Texas and they got there stuff on Easter literally! I was so sick of wrapping, I couldn't handle it. This year I cut it to just kids. Just family kids. No adults. I also do my mom's shopping so I have that as well. It just gets too nuts. We lose the value of Christmas and the value of Christ being born. I would much rather everyone decorate the tree, then watch Christmas movies, things like that. Bake cookies. It is all this work for one day, and we all run around and I just refuse this year. I am to burnt. I think it would be fun to pick a name and make a present, or do a white elephant. Wrap something you own that is funny or a joke! I think that would be great! Think about it, it is just that crazy. Maybe volunteering somewhere for an organization, stepping outside the box.

Well it is Tuesday and the day is moving slow, I must get up and get moving, thank the Lord for Diet Coke! I am addicted! I was doing so good then I started again. Like a can a day, instead of a can a month. Details. Well I hope everyone gets a chance to reflect and enjoy. I think we become accustomed to always doing things a certain way and I think if we cut back it would be less stressful and more enjoyable. Think how many times we think simpler is better! Things we can be thinking about as the holidays approach and everyone is talking. Well I hope everyone has a great day, enjoy, love and be kind!

Love,

Sarah

"I expect to pass through this life once. If, therefore, there can show or any good thing I can do to any fellow being, Let me do it now, for I shall not return this way again." William Penn

November 9, 2009 Good Morning "A New Day"

Good Morning! Well the Lord was good! Here we are another day and another opportunity. I have been up burning the midnight oil. Some stories need to be heard. I was taught the meaning of life at a very young age and for that is a blessing. I heard that right now Dallas on the Rocks is auctioning off a date with Russell Simmons, to sit at the VIP table. I think you have to be quick, time is running out! It all goes to the Diamond Empowerment Fund. Again a great organization Another organization is Rushphilanthropic.org. Which I caught some re-run's of Run's House and one was when Russell threatened to kick Rev off the Board!! I love it! When Russell brings Rev into his office! See Russell wouldn't want me as his date because I would be talking about another organization that needs to be established that people, everyday people can contribute to. It is the little money that can add up. You don't necessarily need people to donate thousands, we can make a difference with just everyday people pitching in. See he already has to listen to me send him messages, he wouldn't want me to bid on that ticket! LOL!

Speaking of Charity work Ryan Mack had posted help 1000 homeless children have a Christmas this year by donating a toys to youth that he has worked with through Living in the Village Economic Empowerment Group-Together We Can Endure. On my Facebook page there is the information. For further information please feel free to contact me. sarahmagrady@comcast.net. Great Cause Ryan! Nothing extravagant. Just simple toys! My family has eliminated all gift giving for adults this year and just buying for the kids. I love that idea. They are the only one's I like buying for. It relieves a lot of stress. I am so burnt from last Christmas, It was so much fun, but it was a lot of work. If you keep it simple and for the kids it makes it so much easier. Well another week is here I hope we remember how blessed we are. We all have are issues, our own crosses to burn, but living a life of selfishness will only lead us into an empty black hole. I encourage people to be understanding, forgiving and admit to there own faults as well. We all have them, I hope everyone finds some peace today. It is again a new day full of positive energy. We are our own authors. We write our own story. Have a great day, turn up the music, smile, do something kind and love!

Love,

Sarah