Friday July 31, 2009 Good Morning, Happy Friday!

Good Morning and Happy Friday! Well here we go! Rise and Shine! The weekend is here! I have my days and night confused. Well I am so excited, I will be entering the workforce again. I think how much we take for granted. For me to be able to enjoy things, be with friends and be able to work and accomplish something is truly amazing. I of course am excited about going to work. Remember when we work, we should always honor the people we work with. I feel the need to do my best, especially with family owned businesses. Don't take your job for granted, because other people count on you, you are helping others provide for there families as well. I am so blessed. I know for a fact that God is Good and God is Great. I found the Lord, and I will never forget the day I felt the holy spirit within me. I was brought up catholic, and it was my good friends, my other family that I went to church with that I started to see the light. I went from a catholic church to a baptist church. I now pray all day all the time. Thank you to everyone who has supported me and been a positive influence in my life. I am stepping out on my own. I try to go with my gut, go with what is good, and what is positive in my life. Lord I ask that you bless all those in need an provide them with the wisdom and strength to do good things. Life is about good people helping other good people. We all make mistakes, we can't expect perfection in this imperfect world. I am an unconditional person, I hope that everyone has the chance to experience unconditional love. It is the road to happiness. Hate and anger only leads to bitterness and despair.

Well I am trying to catch up on some sleep. I may have to doze a little before I hit the pool. The water is the fountain of youth. Every time I get to swim, I feel like a whole new person. We live in such a large world, all with different outlooks and values. I accept all. There is no right or wrong. People make mistakes, life is difficult at times, but if we love unconditionally and look for the positive out of negative situations, we may just find ourselves more content and happy. We are in control of our own destiny. I have had friends lately tell me how unhappy they are. I ask them what kind of life do they want. The truth is if your unhappy, you have to figure out what makes you happy and go for it. Same goes for relationships. That has a been a big topic lately. People can be two good people but just not meant to be. There is no reason for anyone to live in misery. Don't think of getting out of relationships as a failure, but as a step into a new life for yourself. You only get one chance at this life. Make it count. Well I am going to leave you now, enjoy something today, turn up the music! I have my classic playing now, James blunt, You're beautiful! Have a great weekend!

Love,

Sarah

"Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness." Oprah

"Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend that makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of time with them." unknown

"Recall as often as you wish; A happy memory never wears out." Libby Fudim

Wednesday July 29, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Happy Birthday to my Aunt Beth. I don't know what to say other than thank you to the support of all my friends. Yesterday I had the privilege of meeting other great people. Everyday is an adventure, you never know what is going to happen. You can set out to do something and life sends you a curve ball. What ever it is you just catch it and run. You can't look at it as a negative or a failure. It is just another opportunity. We must all grow and with that, take risks, and allow ourselves to accept opportunities when they come. We choose our lives. Even if we get off the path, there is always another day, and a blank slate. Yes the Lord has blessed me. I am extremely thankful.

People I have noticed lately say "you, no way." Yes way. Everyone has there quarks and certain things. Well here is some little unknown trivia about me. Some of my confessions! I LOVE ice cream, I am phobic of blue ink pens, I now love Walmart children's clothes (that was a hard confession for me), I like the taste of peppermint in my mouth when I tan. Here are more, I am addicted to the Jon and Kate plus 8 story just because of my experiences and I now buy tabloids (ewww that hurt)! I love fruit snacks but only the generic jewel kind. I like mostly all organic food, I just feel better. I don't like pizza unless it is spinach or mushroom usually. I can't put my face totally in the water when I swim because I almost drowned as a child in a wave pool. Boy this enough trivia and confessions for one day. People think I am perfect or that I live this perfect life and that really is not the case. We are all human, make mistakes, my biggest is to forgive myself. I am always very accepting of others and their mistakes, but very hard on myself. I am learning to give myself a break as well now. God is Great and God is Good. For that let us go upon our day and try to do something kind. Kindness goes a long way. Hate will just leave you empty and unsatisfied. Everyone have a great day and don't forget to turn up the music!

Love,

Sarah

"There is a sign of God on every leaf that nobody else sees in the garden." Thomas Merton

"One great, strong, unselfish soul in every community could actually redeem the world." Elbert Hubbard

"When you're traveling, you are what you are, right there and then. People Don't have your past to hold against you. No yesterdays on the road." William Least-Heat Moon

Tuesday July 28, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Yesterday's Good Afternoon marked my 100th post on the blog! The great thing about life is we don't have to be the person we were yesterday. Today is a blank slate. We all have our flaws, our moments and our own temperaments. That's what makes life so enjoyable. I will never stop doing what I do. I am the author of this blog and I will continue to write whatever inspires me. I never mean any harm. All I want is to inspire, love and enjoy life. I know God is Great and God does exist. For I thank him for another day. I thank my mom and my dad for their unconditional love. Yes I know their sacrifices, and all they do for me. Today I am listening to Tim McGraw's Live Like Your dying. "He said I was in my early forties with a lot of life before me and a moment stopped me on a dime. I spent most of the next days looking at the x-rays talking about the options and talking about sweet time. I asked when it sank in, this might be the real in, how does it hit when you get that news, what did you do. I WENT SKYDIVING, I WENT ROCKY MOUNTAIN CLIMBING. I WENT 2.7 SECONDS ON a BULL Named BLUE MAN CHEW. I LOVED DEEPER and I SPOKE SWEETER And I GAVE FORGIVENESS I'D BEEN DENYING and HE SAID SOMEDAY I HOPE YOU GET THE CHANCE TO LIVE LIKE YOU ARE DYING." Tim McGraw Live Like Your Dying.

Well I am so lucky to have faced the obstacles I have. It has made me the person I am today. I know what life is about. I don't have to be dying to know what life is really all about. I know what happiness is. It has taught me not to settle. It has given me the motivation to move forward. I remember having that plastic surgery and everyone being so proud. That plastic surgery nearly killed me. After losing 135 pounds I then got sick and gained 165. I have lost 70 pounds of it, however I learned it's not about the weight, it is about being healthy and enjoying life. People still concentrate on my weight, not realizing that are bigger issues at hand. I remember laying in bed wishing I could attend family functions. That I could do things. Yes I still have bad days, on those days I pray, and rest. However, I embrace the good days and live to the fullest. Everyone and I mean Everyone says " I bet you regret having that plastic surgery." I say Never!!! I would not be the person I am today. My life has been filled with wonderful people who have helped me and shaped the person I am. It isn't about being thin, it is about being healthy and happy. If you don't have your health, you have nothing. Imagine you have nothing and have to depend on someone else. Laying in bed wondering how I am going to get my medicine. It has put a fear into me. I am so lucky and so thankful for all the things that has happened in my life. I know what life is about. I know how precious it is. I live for today. I let the holy spirit guide me. I know what it is like to enjoy a sunrise and to enjoy a great laugh with a friend. I know everyday is a blessing that God has given me. I need to do my best to enjoy it and work hard at what I want. Many do not know what goes on in my daily life. Let me tell you, it is filled to the max. If I can't get out of bed, I pray to the max. If I can, I live to the max. One thing never changes, I love always to the max.

Now the biggest thing that I can't wait for is Good For Glam! Yes Kate an old friend from high school is this up and coming fashion designer. She has teamed up with Kristin Goede who makes jewelry Objects d'envy. This beautiful Jewelry! I met her and she is the most down to Earth person ever. I melted when I saw her jewelry, and I am not a jewelry person. Then I met Kate. The other most down to earth woman ever. She is a promoter for Objects d'envy among other things. Together they are throwing a fashion show fundraiser for the Boys and Girls Club of Chicago. It will be a fun night filled with cocktails and mingling, raffles, shopping. Not just for women, men will be attending as well. For more specifics go to www.goodglamgala.com for more information. You can also check out my facebook page! Well the day is slipping away and I must hit the water, for that is my stress relief. It is truly the fountain of youth! Everyone have a great day, enjoy something and turn up the radio!

Love,

Sarah

" I have never been a millionaire. But I have enjoyed a great meal, a crackling fire, a glorious sunset, a walk with a friend, a hug from a child, a cup of soup, a kiss behind the Ear. There are plenty of life's tiny delights for all of us." Jack Anthony

"I have enjoyed life a lot more by saying yes than saying no." Richard Branson

"My great concern is not whether God is on our side, my great concern is to be on God's side." Abraham Lincoln

Monday July 27, 2009 Good Afternoon!

Good Afternoon! Well it has been a tough morning for me. I had to come to terms with the fact people are going to support me or not support me. For those that don't like what I say, do not have to read my blog. For these are my feelings. My mother and I have gone through it all, but we are very close and bonded. I will continue to be who I am. It is the e-mails that I receive that tell me how much I inspire them, or how I connect with them, that makes me go. These are my thoughts and my outlook on life. Some may not agree with how open I am, well I am sorry, again this is who I am. There is no worries of me getting hurt I have God by my side. I make mistakes at least 12 a day because I am human. It is okay for all of us to make mistakes. None of us are perfect. That is why I love writing this blog. It is true, not fantasy. It is me not another author.

I now know where I stand. I know who supports me and will stand by me no matter what. Both my mom and my dad came by my side today, together. They encourage me and support me and my writing. I refuse to back down. There is so much going on in my life not one person knows everything except for them. There is no such things really as "mistakes" if you go out on a limb. From every negative experience as long as you take something positive from it you have succeeded. Well I fell this morning, wishing certain people supported me more, but I brushed my knees off and moved on. Everyone says "well I hope this works out for you." Well guess what if it doesn't than I move on and take what I learned and apply it to the next. Life is an opportunity, I would rather try something and it not work out than not to try at all. Everyone has their own outlook on life, but at the end of the day I answer only to one person and that is God. I express negative issues on things only to show that those things can help create a better and more fulfilling self. For I have prayed and feel at much more ease now. I hope everyone's day has gone well! High five Ron, thanks for all the support! You can do anything you want as long as you have the drive. Fill your life with positive people who will help you and support you. Have a great evening!

Love,

Sarah

Monday JUly 27, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! The Lord has blessed me with another day. I want to take time to thank my family who has been there through my battles. Aunt Jen, Aunt Maureen, Krystin, thank you so much for your words of encouragement. You have no idea how much that means to me. I have come to realize in order to be successful in life you must surround yourself with positive people. Thank you again Uncle Ciff for all you have done. I know times are hard and they will be. I need everyone's support as I go off on my own to live my life. I will always be here for my mother, I will probably see her more often. There is nothing I wouldn't do for her. However, the time has come for me to move on with my life. I must put me first in order to take care of anyone else. I have been honest with myself and will continue to be. I hope my family can support me mentally through this time. I need positive encouragement and someone to lean on when in need. I love you all.

I am 28 1/2 and it is time. I have always put everyone before me. This is part of the new Sarah. I have overcome many obstacles, to know that there are many more yet to come. I just pray that my family will come together and help me through this. I know my brother is in Oklahoma and I am here. I must move on, I cannot tread water. My mom will miss me, but all she wants is for me to be happy. This is best for all involved. So I ask for everyone's prayers. That I may move on successfully and that the Lord himself will bless me along the way. "Oh Lord I ask that you guide me along this new journey an watch over my mother while I am gone. Let everyone come together to unite an not fight over certain things." It was ironic I was laying on the Medrano's couch and the news was on, it said that President Obama use to pray every night now he prays all day. So do I. In the car, in my room, on the phone with friends. I pray when ever the Lord moves me. I am writing this part so you understand. This prayer just came to me."Dear Lord I know family is everything, and in order for me to support my family I must move on and pursue a healthy career. Thank you dear Lord, in Jesus' name we pray." Amen!

All I can do is pray, work and recognize the holy spirit is within me. It is a great gift that not all have, or nurture. I am coming into my own. I have no idea when the move will take place, I say probably October before the cold winter begins. Well I hope everyone had a great day, for we will keep Aida and the family in our prayers to help them get through this difficult time. We pray for Laura to get through her difficult time with losing her mother as well. For she is in Florida going through her mother's things. I pray for my Grandmother's health, that she will make it to see me grow and to watch us Grandchildren get married and have our own family. Time is precious and this life on Earth we only have once to live. I hope everyone is able to support my decision. Thank you to all. Everyone have a great day and turn up the music and let it take you away!

Love,

Sarah

Praise and Love

"He is the core of the heart of love, and He, beyond labouring seas, our ultimate shore." Edith Sitwell

"I saw the Lord with the eye of the Heart. I said: "who are you." He answered: "You."

Al Hallaj

"A lot of dreams don't come true in life. If you can make somebody's dream come true, you should." Jameer Nelson

Sunday July 26, 2009 Good Night!

Good Night! I just again want to thank the Lord for all he has given me. I now know he is real and here with us today. This week has been crazy but extraordinary. I met with a new friend that is so angelic I felt so secure and relaxed. There are good people in this world, despite all the skepticism. I understand people don't want me getting my hopes up or being disappointed. I jump around a little because I refuse to settle for less than what I want. I am moving forward and unfortunately I have to say goodbye to some. It has been good times but now it is my time to pursue my dreams. I embrace all of you that are helping me right now. God has sent his angels and they rest above me now. I am a believer in good people helping good people. That's what it is all about. When you find a true friend a sort of calmness and ease enters your body. I never knew such a wonderful person existed. I have now hit the books and doing what is right for me. Relationships I am not even going there. Life is about being happy if your not happy than you need to make changes. right now I am happy. A little stressed but happy. My friends are my family. My weight is coming off I am trying my best. I am starting to feel better. All I need are good people and some support. That's it. I challenge you all to find and make that happiness for yourself. Don't continue down a road of misery. Time is precious and not to be wasted.

I hope everyone had a great weekend. I hit the books and then last night went to dinner and then saw the movie The Hangover with my friends! Funniest movie I have ever seen. Yes that was twice. Thank You Becky and Felix. The Medrano's have opened there heart and home to me always. reminding me what and who I am. Laura I miss you, I can't wait until you are back! I now can say I deserve a good life. I am forever grateful. I have yet to journal any outrageous spending, because I pull in the parking lot and then leave. Much improvement. If someone asked me what do I want I would say " I want to be loved unconditionally. I want people to love each other. I want bliss! I want togetherness, and I want to known as someone that does matter. That I matter for whom I am not for what I can bring them." It was a wake up call and time to move on and out. Yes mom is going to struggle and already said it is time for Kevin to move back home. Hardly doubt that one. All I want is to be able to have my own space and be able to support myself and make a difference in this world. I wish I could bring my family together but I can't do it myself. Others are going to have to be willing to do it.

Well I leave you tonight, thinking about being grateful for what you have. Think of what it is that will make you happy and go for it. If your not happy than quit. Try something else. Especially in relationships. I would much rather be alone then in an unhappy stressful relationship. Think about the little time or any time that you can sacrifice to make a difference in someone's life. Don't put off the game night or the phone call. Do it now. Pray for what is good, pray for others. I pray all day now and it is quite scary. Many good things are happening. So enjoy your evening, I must sleep. I need that morning swim. If the good Lord lets us we shall meet again in the morning! Good Night to all!

Love,

Sarah

Friday July 24, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! First I want to say how thankful I am for what I have. For the soul the Lord has blessed me with. I am thankful for all the bad things that have happened in my life, for I WOULD NOT be the person I am today. I no longer need faith, I know the Lord exists! Yesterday I couldn't even write, I was left speechless. I met up with a new friend for lunch to find that she has even a bigger heart than I. No one has been able to help me like she. The Lord put us in each other's life for a reason. She is so wonderful, I cannot even explain what joy she has brought me. I cried for the first time in my life because I was so so happy. It was the first I ever cried tears of joy. I have gotten here through hard work, random acts of kindness and just being a good person. God has brought me here. I BELIEVE, I BELIEVE!!! PRAY! NOT for selfish things but for the good of man. The only person who has done such wonderful things for me is Dr. Larry Wilkin and Dr. Kyle Bonesteel. For they have saved my life, literally and then Dr. Wilkin took over all my medical care because he did not trust anyone else with me. I invite those who are great and positive to come along with me. For those who have knocked me down, kicked me; For those who have left me behind, not stood up for me; For those who have used me and have been fake, I know who you are. All I have to say to you is I will pray for you. You need the Lord in your life. I am left short today on time. I will be working a lot on things so Good Mornings maybe less, but it is time to put me first for the greater good for everyone. I deserve to enjoy life just as I give enjoyment to everyone else. I now need to relax and do soul searching. My light at the end of the tunnel has arrived! Thank You Kate! Thank You Cara, Jenaca, and of course my farm friend/Salon owner friend Katie! You all have given me the confidence and the drive to pursue my dreams. Thank You Salon Two Nine, I turned a lot of heads yesterday! Every one have a great day, do something good, something great and random. You will sleep easier!

Love,

Sarah

"I believe that many souls are deluded at this point by trying to fly before God has given them wings." St. Teresa of Avila

"God and nature do nothing uselessly." Aristotle

"We cannot love God unless we love each other." Dorothy Day

Wednesday July 22, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! God is great and God is good! I believe, I believe! The lord has blessed me so much that everything in my life has now become so erie that it is scary. I totally believe that things happen for a reason. Positive will come out of a negative if you pray and you truly believe. Yes I believe in Karma. I am speechless today. Last night I stayed home from the John Legend concert and thank the Lord I did. I am being called to do some more good work. People are put in each other's lives for a reason. Why I don't know. Today I am going to continue to be thankful and today I am tired. I was up last night writing. Then this morning I read Rev Run's Word of wisdom. I love the T.V. show, when they brought the baby home, I so wanted to be their Nanny! LOL! Anyways, he wrote about what I was writing about last night. What I was going to use for today's good morning. I had to leave, early, then I was at an old stopping ground of mine, Premier Heating and Air and Benjamin Franklin Plumbing. I sometimes read them now because every time I read them it is extremely close if not exactly what I am going through. You can't tell me dozens, and dozens of times that is a coincidence. Well no problem Rev, I am not worrying about relationships today! Thank you Lord for all you have done and please guide those who need your help and those who need help don't forget: Psalm 1:2 "If your tree of life is planted in Christ he will give you what you need to live abundantly today." With that being said I don't think there is any other quote that could top that today. I hope everyone has a great day, love and give, oh and make sure to enjoy something today as well!

Love,

Sarah

Tuesday July 21, 2009 Good Night Thanks to McGrath Honda!

Good Night! Well all in thanks to McGrath Honda! I know I said I was going to finish my adventure story today, but I woke and had to run. It has been a CRAZY day. Everyone knows my good heart and I must take time to be thankful for what I have and to thank McGrath Honda for there very kind service. I woke up on Friday went to the gym, swam, came home, then went to leave and my car didn't start. Now, I had Grandma Aida's wake that day on the Northside of Chicago. So Jo Jo jumped it and I got it to McGrath. Thank You sooooo much to the service manager Mark! He is so kind and always working right along with the guys. Of course Tim Delord your my guy! You go out of your way all the time, I really appreciate it. I got my loaner car and off I went. I made it to the wake, funeral and then the day trip. Again thank you all! GoMcgrath.com!!! That is so cool!

Yes, Sunday I headed out to see my family's old farm that is in Amboy/Walton. I found it was able to make sense of a lot pictures. I had so much help thank you to Pete and Jim, you are so kind and very helpful. I really enjoy being out there, it was fun and to get away from the city and the craziness of life. I remembered my grandmother telling me that the government bought some of the land and used it to hide ammo during WWII. She told me they made concrete igloo's and then covered with grass, so that they couldn't be seen from the air. Well guess what I found, you got it the igloo's and the whole history. Yes The Green River Ordinance Plant. What a fun day. I really enjoyed it. I went down the brick road I remembered as a kid, of course, in the park were the family reunion was. What a blast! On my way home I was listening to good music then I went past Chicago skydiving. I stopped and saw people and I watched. I thought wow, they weren't dying and having broken bones, so then I said, Oh Yeah! Were going skydiving!!! Yes we are!!!! I listened to Tim McGraw Live Like Your Dying all the way home. I will leave it at that. We are planning for September if anyone wants to join us!!!! Well it is getting late and I just remembered I have all the Ravina stuff in my car that I didn't take out and I have to pick up my new favorite little smart bundle of joy, Ashleigh at 8:00 a.m.! Well good night, I hope everyone had a great day, thanks to all and to all a good night!

Love,

Sarah

Monday July 20, 2009, Good Morning! THE NEW SARAH!

Good Morning! Well first off I would like to acknowledge that I truly believe the Lord and the holy spirit is alive within me. There is way, too many things are happening to be just be "coincidental." This past week was so rough for me. Seeing a family loose someone they love and seeing there tight bond. The bond that was once within my family but is now broken. Why is it broken? Tragedy and death, among other things. All my life all I wanted was a great family and in the past 14 it has been lost. I want nothing greater to bring my family together to be united and have a family built on unconditional love. Love of understanding and truth. So I have been so confused, watching and seeing what my friends Blaq and Jo Jo have gone through in Uganda, and now in the U.S. I have always wanted to make a difference, make an impact on this world, unite and bring good. For example, after I saw Barack Obama on Oprah and read his book I became so connected with him as a person. When I saw him win the nomination I cried. I wrote an e-mail good morning which I no longer have. Which if anyone has, please it would be the biggest gift to me ever! The day he was elected I was unable to vote. The biggest day of my life, but I had to help someone in need, downtown and was unable to vote. It was an emergency. I cried, that was one of the biggest moments of my life taken from me. I said what do I say when my niece and nephews, possibly children ask what was it like to vote that day. Well I will simply say I was doing a good deed to a friend in need. That night I wanted to be downtown in the park, but was too tired. I sat in bed watched and cried. I wasn't feeling well so that was the best place for me. I admire his way that he inspires people. It is true, he made it through the finish line, it is possible. Look at Oprah and how inspiring she is. I admire Oprah SO much not for her fame or wealth, but for her values and her ability to do good. Same thing she said about President Obama, I admire him because he is great. Well I admire her because she is great.

Well the lord came to me. I had planned on spending yesterday watching the sunrise and the sunset on the lake and reflect. I packed up everything. I planned to leave about three and slept packed up the car, and then when I was ready to leave I put the rest of the stuff on the front seat and went to go around to the driver side and it locked. It was later in the morning, I already missed the sunrise. So I went in called the lock guy, Dave Block, great man! He said yes he could get it. I would like to thank Cliff a neighbor for stopping by and trying to help, he was doing a random act of kindness and will be rewarded. Dave looked like another spiritual man I know Ned Norquist. Hard working, particular sense of humor that an old soul can enjoy. First thing he said was that if this happened to him this early in the day he would have gone back to bed! LOL! The old Sarah would have, but since my life changing experiences, this is just an everyday occurrence, but this would change my outlook on life. He got my door unlocked and I was so thrilled. I shared jokes and had a wonderful experience. Seeing him and his life of simplicity reminded me of Ned and also of my Grandparents, whom I remember being happy with as a child. Simplicity. Well I grabbed the photo albums I did for my family and I thought to myself, why not go to my family. The McCoy side of the family. Back to my roots that I am so proud of. I have always wanted to, yes today that's it. I couldn't see the sunrise in the East but I will see it set in the west. So I grabbed the address of the farm that was just sold a little over a year ago and photo albums. Told mom I would be back later. I had an Epiphany! Little did I know what I was going to find upon this journey.

I believe we are very out of touch with ourselves. I just got a book, I can't wait to read! Dealing with how America is in such economic hardship. We live so beyond our means. My grandparents never did. So I, who love to shop, and spend money on the things that are just frivolous, decided to be more mindful. So gifts this year, other than relating to random acts of kindness, weddings, showers, or business, I am making all gifts. That's right starting today I am NOT buying any gifts for one year. The gifts I have will come from my home, maybe white elephant, maybe something new stashed away that I found. Something made from me, coming from the heart. What is it going to hurt, one year, one person. I am also going to keep a journal of what I was going to buy, and for what and how much. I am going to see how much it adds up to at the end of the year.

In order to move forward we must be honest with ourselves. I love my family, I love togetherness, and I am going to do my best to bring my friends and loved ones together. Lets do it together, Game night my house! Watch a t.v. series! Hey everyone bring a dish! This way I will be able to save and do more things I would love to do, because people know I am very generous, they think too generous. So lets see, I bet it will be a great year! I bet it will be fun! Lets all live and enjoy life together. Make the time to see people, to love people. We may never have that chance again. Tomorrow I will tell you about my wonderful adventure out west and what I found! It was amazing and life changing! I hope everyone has a great day, I am sorry but it is now 10:30 and I need to hit the gym and the water of eternal youth! Swimming, I went and did a little swimming on Friday and I felt so good! I need this today! Yes the new and improved Sarah!

Love,

Sarah

(all quotes today are coming from a book Open Your Mind, Open Your Life, A Little Book of Eastern Wisdom.)

"Let go of anger-it is an acid that burns away the delicate layers of happiness."

"Live in a way that leaves no regrets."

"Looking for lasting happiness outside yourself is meaningless. It is like expecting to become fit by watching other people exercise."

Sunday July 19th, 2009 Good Morning, Sunday A Day of Family and Worship!

Good Morning, Happy Sunday. A day of family and worship. I first want to say that I am very blessed and thankful for all I have. "When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me speaking words of wisdom. Let it be. In My hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me. Let it be." Singer Brook White- Let it be from American Idol. This was a very rough week but through the power of God and love, we pulled through, together. The Services for Grandma Aida were nothing less than first class. By that, I don't mean money spent, I mean the love and togetherness that was present. It was the most honorable wake I had ever seen, and the most touching and loving service. The love was true and there was so much respect for her. The slide show and music was beautiful. From start to finish, including the James Bond funeral procession, it was so well done. You would have thought that a large public figure was being laid to rest. But what made it so first class was, it was an ordinary woman with an extraordinary heart loved by many. They fought for her, they stood up for her, and that is honorable and that is first class! You don't see that much anymore.

Funerals are so difficult for me, I cannot stand to see anyone suffer. To watch people I care about cry and suffer, and I could not sooth there pain broke my heart. I can't help it, it is who I am. The problem is I give and give. I sacrifice and I LOVE doing it. However, I can only help so many. So now after reflecting, I know that I really need to make sure I work harder, and put in more effort, even if it takes away from some things, because that will allow me to be able to help more. That makes me content, making people smile, loving, and helping.

Well today I am going to head downtown just myself and reflect and enjoy the sunrise over the lake. One of my favorite pleasures is watching the sunrise and set among water. I will walk, be by the beach, do what ever inspires me to do. I need to do this and regroup so I can continue to move forward. So I am on my way back, not to the old Sarah, but the new and improved Sarah. The Sarah that has had the great honor of suffering and has hurdles in the way. With out them I wouldn't be the person I am today, nor the wonderful people God has put in my life. I picture the person I want to be, capture it, then go for it. When I stumble, I stand back up and brush off my knees.

Let me say it again. We only live once, and we can't say "oh I will do it in my next life." We have to do it now. We all make mistakes, have flaws, said things out of anger. But, do we want to live like that, with that. I think that is what makes people interesting. It makes life interesting. We all have a common goal, happiness. True happiness! If you can do something good for someone than why not? Why not be the first person to say hello. I believe that will help us along the path to true happiness. I don't settle anymore for anything less than what I want. So people can be real and good, or they can take a bow. I love the song "If I were a boy" by Beyonce. It just stirs up a certain emotion with me. I have witnessed many of those relationships. But now I just laugh, now I refer to the book, "Measure of a Man." Well I must go now, Cheers! To a new day an improved perspective, and to continuous change. IF the good lord lets us we meet again tomorrow morning. Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

July 16, 2009 Mourning Aida Otero

Mourning! Unfortunately it is not a good one. I am sorry I was unable to return everyone's calls and e-mails yesterday, for I had my friend's daughter Ashleigh, which brought me so much joy through this emotional time. The arrangements for Aida Otero will be the wake at Mont Clair Lucania Funeral Home, 6901 W. Belmont, Chicago, IL 60634. The Funeral will be held on Saturday Mass will be at St. Celestine Church, 3020 N. 76th Ct. Elmwood Park, IL at 60707 at 10:00 am. I do know that this tragic sudden death has taken a toll on the Otero family considering there are 7 Sisters. All who are very close. I have never seen such a loyal and close family, so this loss is nothing short of devastating. I do know the family is together grieving and making arrangements.

I new Aida Otero just as Grandma. It is no secret that I am very close to Aida Velazquez. I have said many times Aida and Laura are often my rock. It kills me to watch anyone I care for suffer. I have a huge heart and I just can't turn it off. I have come to know the family and they are the closest and tight nit family ever. They are GOOD PEOPLE! Now we move forward, but how. Day by day, laugh by laugh, smile by smile, and tear by tear. I loved grandma to death. She was always happy and she smiled wide every time she saw me. There is a song by Allison Kraus and it says "The smile on your face lets me know you need me." When we bowled I brought treats for birthdays. Grandma would smile and come get her cake. Then she would say I need one to take home for my grand-daughter. Then I would see her eat it. We would look at each other and smile, I would wink at her. I gave her another to take home " for her grand-daughter." Those are great memories. I recently had a day packed with activities and things I had to do, I said hell with it Cubs Vs. Sox Picnic, and Yvette & Jonathan Birthday, I will be there. It was meant to be, because I would be even more upset now. I got to see her have fun, enjoy herself. She said " you see baby" Eat, Eat! I am glad I remembered my Camera. Those are the good times. I speak this everyday. Enjoy and spend time with people you care about, you never know what will happen. Life is to short for hate, greed, and grudges. Remember to tell people how much you love them and what they TRULY mean to you and enjoy.

I know this has been devastating to all the family and they are busy mourning and making preparations. All that matters is that the family is hurting and our job as friends is to just support them, in prayer and in what ever way see fit. Grandma like I said before, I know you are in heaven shining bright looking down among us. It is very hard to bury someone so close. Days will be hard, but by being there when called upon is one way for us all to help. All we can do is support. Out of all tragedy there comes something positive. It may change us as a person, make us stronger, or see life in a different perspective.

I would be lying if I said this hasn't torn me up inside. It has brought out many emotions. My history of losing my family that once was very close, and is now scattered and dead. Many of my friends are my family. "Friends are the family we make along the way." (Right Laura) I am angry that a life that had so much meaning, who gave birth to, again, 7 strong women is now gone. It is upsetting that there are so many people out there with blinders on living empty lives. Can't they see, it is about being happy, deep down in your gut. Life isn't a popularity contest. Do what is good, make a difference. This is it folks, we will never have another shot at life, so lets get it straight now. We make mistakes, we don't always make the best choices but does your life have meaning. Everyday is a blank slate, a new beginning. I hope that we can all take something positive away from this. I have told Aida and Sandy, I would give all the money in the world to have a family like theirs. People always ass/u/me that things are greener on the other side of the fence, in many situations, but that's not always the case.

To the Otero family my prayers and love is with you of course, today and always. Well with that being said, lets move on with our day, turn up the music, because it does heal. Enjoy life and the day you never know so get rid of the grudges, tell people how much you care and love. Try doing something kind for someone else, again, it may brighten there day and make your day a lot better. Have a great day! R.I.P. Grandma Aida.

Love,

Sarah

"Compassion and gratitude come down from God, and when they are exchanged in a glance, God is present at the point where the eyes of those who give and those who receive meet." Simone Weil

"I affirm that God does suffer as he participates in the ongoing life of the society being. His sharing in the world's suffering is the supreme instance of knowing, accepting, and transforming in love the suffering which arises in the world. I am affirming the divine sensitivity. Without it, I can make no sense of the being of God." Alfred North Whitehead

"Cruelty and selfishness

is some people's way of life.

Reality and reason

is other people's way of life.

Love and understanding

is a few people's way of life.

Sharing and giving

is my way of life." Sarah Magrady (August 15th 1998)

Wednesday July 15, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! While for some it is a great morning and for others they are still in morning. The Otero/Velazquez family had a great lost. Aida's Mother passed away this morning. Most know, everyone watch for the arrangements or contact someone and they will pass it on. We keep all of you in our prayers. She loved to live! She was happy and enjoyed life, and that's what it was all about. She will never be forgotten.

So much is going on right now, with Good for Glam and getting my things done, I am so excited! It is time to move forward! Fashion Forward here we go! Everyone going form my group let me know ASAP I have 5 Tickets and it is August 7th! A night of fun, fashion, and in Pilsen! I am already eying a couple things, yes I know slap my hands now! Let me know if your interested and I will make sure to get you the direct website as well tomorrow. Right now I am going back to sleep, because, I have Ashleigh today. Ashleigh takes a nap, I take a nap. Rain, Rain go away I wanted to go to the pool today! Everyone have a great day, like I said don't forget enjoy your time with loved ones and smile.

Love,

Sarah

"I hear babies cry, and I watch them grow, they'll learn much more than I'll ever know. And I think to myself , "What a wonderful World." Weiss And Thiele

" Recall as often as you wish; A happy memory never wears out." Libby Fudim

"With every rising of the sun, think of your life as just begun." Unkown

Tuesday July 14th, 2009

Good Morning! Well It looks like a gloomy day unfortunately. I wish it was all good news but unfortunately it isn't. The Otero/Velazquez family was hit with a tragedy when my dear friend Aida's mother was injured critically in a car accident. She is still fighting but she needs all the prayers she can get. I tell her if she pulls through I will have those cute cup cakes for her! We all need to come together to support and pray for the family now. I feel such an attachment. I feel like part of the family, Aida guarded me, took me in and we have such a tight bond. Through that bond I have gotten to know the whole family and it is not longer confusing. Wonder people, very close family and I would give all the money in the world to be a part of there family. These are hard times. I feel there pain. It is in Gods hands. We will continue to pray. As I pray I tell Grandma to keep fighting and for the Lord to watch out for her, and if she comes through there will be her favorite special cupcakes waiting for her.

While I was at the hospital I got a text from a friend saying she was in a car accident a couple weeks ago and had suffered from a fractured skull, and was unable to work. I was so upset I never received a call. Amanda, (the good 0ne) I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY!!! I don't know how else to say it. I may have said things, we may have said things but people make mistakes. Things are things. Nothing can replace a person. I wish someone had notified me sooner. Same goes for Jenny, No matter what words are said or what is done we have to come to terms with it. People come first. I never want to hear about this weeks later. Everyone makes mistakes, I make 12 a day. There comes a time when it's too late. You never want that time to come. Never alienate those who truly love you. One of the most valuable lessons was when I got sick and was stripped of my material possessions and could barely get out of bed. Let me tell you how many friends I had then. None. It is a life lesson that changed my life forever. Those who have never experienced that consider yourself lucky but never turn your head to a friend in need.

Well We pray that the Lord guides all of us and, as we know he is always in our presence. Try to put yourself in someone else's shoes today. Think what it would be like to be the one suffering. It is a very humbling experience. God Bless! Smile and try to enjoy something.

Love,

Sarah

"Life isn't about what happens to us; it's about how we perceive what happens to us." book Open Your Mind and Your Heart

"Enlightenment, or true happiness, is not a transcendental state. It is a condition of broad wisdom, boundless energy and good fortune, where in we each shape our own destiny, find fulfillment in daily activities and come to understand our ultimate purpose in life." Josei

Toda

"Treasures of wealth are good. Treasures of health are better. Treasures of the heart are best." Unknown

Monday July 13, 2009 Special Event

Good Morning! Yes there is a special event going on! On August 7, at 7:30pm in Pilsen there will be cocktails, a fashion show and followed by a little shopping. It is Good For Glam! You can contact me for tickets and I can direct you, the tickets go straight to help the Boys and Girls club of Chicago. Kate Boggiano will be one of the designers along with objects d'Envy, yes the creator of those beautiful earrings I cannot stop wearing. It is a fun night for a good cause. I have already purchased 5 tickets so please lets all get together, and have a terrific time. Doing my favorite things shopping and giving to a great cause! Everyone have a great day and let me know, there is plenty of notice!

Love,

Sarah

Monday July 13,2009

Good Morning! I am looking for the sunrise as we speak! People look as illness as weakness, I look at it as a challenge. Look at everyone who criticized Michael Jackson, yet it all made sense, the color change, why the children may not be biologically his, why he died of cardiovascular disease. Although the medications that were not to leave operating rooms is questionable. They may have found all those medications but doesn't mean that he took them all at the same time. DLE Discoid Lupus Erythematosus later develops into Systemic Lupus Erthematosus. I hope that people are now more aware of the effects of this horrendous disease. It is painful and unseen by the naked eye. We often come to judge. I am very public about things because I want people to be educated and learn, however there are drawbacks. I remember the day when my friend called me and at the time I had been misdiagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, and said, Sarah hows the MS. I felt so saddened and labeled. I felt as though I was no longer a person but a disease. People have to understand that Lupus effects individuals very differently. People with Lupus can live happy productive lives, others have more complications. I hope that all who read this are educated enough to do some extra research. Photosensitive is a huge issue, the sun! It triggers fevers, pain and other issues. That is how we came across mine. You can go into remission. I hope that people learn not to ass/u/me things right off the bat. He obviously did not want people to know and was a very private person. Unfortunately, I wish he would have come forth for more exposure and knowledge on the subject. Many successful people deal with illness but are scared to come forth due to people's ignorance. Something to think about, if you hear something, the best way to educate yourself is look it up.

I hope through this tragedy that people can come together and start doing more research and giving to more to the Lupus Foundation. I see people give abundantly to the Cancer Society or to other society's but there are other illnesses that need to be addressed as well. I am lucky because I am educated and I am strong. I eat well, I have an amazing medical team and don't nearly have the severity of Lupus that others have. I have my days, but at least I am here. I have spent many years in question and suffering but it has just made me a better person. My medications are limited, my energy needs to be used sparely at times, but I have no doubt I will live a happy fulfilling life. There is no shame in being sick, it is not my fault, it is no ones fault. It is time for people to come together and be grateful and help others.

I pray we get the sun today that I will see the sun rise. I had a dream last night. It was a dream that all my family was together, eating together at our old home. I woke up this morning as though I was in my old room thinking I slept through dinner and everyone was putting away the dishes. I realized no, this is my new life, the life of just a few. Tragedy hit my family like a tornado, My Aunt's fiance killed himself, my grandfather died in a cabin that was my family friends for years in his sleep the night before he was to come home with my uncle. My uncle died of liver disease, my Aunt whom I was close to died of Cancer, my Step-father died of Waldenstroms macroglobulinemia (a very rare disease), my grandmother died of a heart attack, my cousin died in a motorcycle accident. Yes so there was no family dinner to wake up too. I see now trying to peek out, the sun of course. I have my music playing James blunt shes beautiful.

I say this not to be gloomy but to realize what it is I want out of life. I am no different than any one else. I have hopes and dreams. To walk across the beach with someone I love with my shoes in my hand, to go sailing. To someday have a summer house. To try something new that I never thought I would. To go on a family vacation. To be there when my niece and nephew experience the ocean. To build sand castles with them. As Will Smith said in Seven Pounds "to live life abundantly." One lesson out of everything is we shouldn't take life for granted and enjoy each day to the best of our ability, every sunrise and every sunset. Everyone have a great day and make sure to enjoy something today! Enjoy the music, because it makes everything just feel great!

Love,

Sarah

"Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of time with them." Unkown

"I have enjoyed life a lot more by saying yes than saying no." Richard Branson

"You will do foolish things, but do them with Enthusiasm." Colette

Sunday July 12, 2009 Goodnight

Goodnight! Yes as I reflect back on the week saddened that I was unable to function at a high level I know this week I must make up for it. I spent a week sick and fighting but look forward to healthy and productive days. Those who think that they will never get ill or immune to any disease are just kidding themselves. We live in a world surrounded by disease and it is hard for many of us to accept. We want to call the shots, we want to be in control, but unfortunately it is not in our hands. I apologize to all those who have to deal with my irritability and sadness. One does not know until they have walked in their shoes. We can all say this or that, but they don't know. As good people we can help support those we care about and be a helping hand. The most upsetting thing I think for me is that I wake up from a bad dream and no one is there to hold me. No one has ever been there when times are tough. It is not pleasant to be around people during hard times but it shows our true character. Those who flee and do not respond are those who truly don't care. That's how we can tell our true friends.

I was unable to make it to Painkiller Hotels performance but heard it was great! I unfortunately was under the weather. Well I come to you tonight as thoughts go through my mind. There is nothing worse than wasted time. We must make sure that we spend our time constructively doing what it is we want to do. I am looking forward to future events. Tomorrow I will post them. It has been quite an adventure but tomorrow is a new day and a blank slate. What are we going to do with it. I hope everyone had a great day, I heard the Cubs won!!! Go Cubs. Well everyone have a great evening and if the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning!

Love,

Sarah

Friday July 10, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning, almost afternoon! Well I went to bed at 8:00pm and woke up at 11:00 am. Yikes! I just haven't been feeling very well, and have had a hard time sleeping. Well my body is trying to play catch-up. I know many of my friends know I am not scared to speak of my illness. I spent 5 years of my life living as a mystery diagnosis patient. Never knowing what was wrong. I believe in speaking openly about it, because how else would people know. I have fibromyalgia, which is actually a sleep disorder that results in my body not going into the final stage of sleep. I was mis-diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I have undergone at least 20 MRI's, tested for everything from HIV, TB, Liver diseases, RA, Neuro-Sarcodosis, West Nile, Lyme Disease, Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis all coming back negative. However it has to be one of 7 diseases due to findings in my spinal fluid. Said the head of Neuro-Infectious disease at Mayo Clinic were I have drove myself 4 times. Right now I respond to the treatment of Lupus and on Monday I go to another specialist. So I am diagnosed with Lupus, due to the butterfly rash, photosensitivity, fever, and other symptoms. I have weird labs. Weird markers show positive. After falling ill, I gained 165 right away, which I was on my feet working and I could barely eat. Since I have lost almost half the weight but not all. I speak of this because a disease does not define who you are. You can still be successful live a full life. I just believe people need to be more informed, if not ho we would they learn. Doctors told me I was eating too much. I lived in screaming kind of pain and walked around like a zombie.

If it wasn't for me working for Dr. Brenart who taught me that not all Dr.'s are not created equal, who knows were I would be. I said to him one day in frustration, "I don't understand calories in and calories out!" "He said "ah yes but that is under normal physiology, you don't have normal physiology." Thank you doctor Brenart. You are more than an eye doctor, father, grandfather, employer, friend! You too are a healer and have been blessed with a brilliant mind. Dr. Brenart is an optometrist I use to work for in Yorkville. If it wasn't for his favorite assistant and technician who too, is brilliant, Heather I don't know were I would be. Heather is the one that got me into Dr. Wilkin's office. Heather is now one of my good friends. Thank you Dr. Brenart. When I was sick, I refused to give up, however was too sick sometimes to work. I later found out, he put a another assistant on staff to work the desk to shadow my schedule. What a wonderful and beautiful man. His daughter Dr. Nicole Zangler, wiped my tears from eyes many times. I will never forget the time my insurance wouldn't cover my medicine and I was upset. She sat me down and asked me what was wrong and I told her, she hugged me and wiped my tears, and said to go downstairs and tell the girl I needed a check for over $400 for my medicine. I would re-pay it when I sent in the claim and the insurance sent me the check and no worries. These are the people that inspire me to be the best I can be. I believe in giving them the acknowledgement they deserve. Good people helping good people. It gives me the drive to get better, get my weight off so I show them and smile. I know I spend a lot of time speaking of people, but I like to give credit were credit is due. So many times I have done things for people and they don't appreciate. I want people to know how much I appreciate them, and that they have made an impact on my life! Thank you to all.

Well lets forget the rain today and move forward. Lets read a book, gather together, bring out a board game. Everyone love and live! Have a great day and a great weekend and turn up the music, move the coffee table and dance!

Love,

Sarah

"The biggest room in the world is the room for improvement." Japanese Proverb

"It is easy to shield our bodies against poisoned arrows from without the difficult to shield out our minds against poisoned darts within."Shakyamnni

"Humans cannot create matter. We can however, create value. Creating value is in fact our very humanity. When we praise people for their strength of character, were actually acknowledging their ability to create value." Tsnnesaburo Makignchi

Thursday July 9, 2009 Good Afternoon

Good Afternoon! Well sorry but it has been a crazy morning! I wasn't feeling the greatest. I went and saw my doctor, Dr. Larry Wilkin. Please I am in search for another wonderful open minded, humble and brilliant doctor like himself. They are seriously lacking now days. No matter how sick I am, I leave his presence more educated, and a better person. That is a true healer. He has it all. I envy that he gets to practice medicine, something I would love to do, but couldn't ever do, because of my ongoing health issues. When I say that if I didn't have the plastic surgery I wouldn't be the same person I am today, I meant it. Knowing him alone has changed my life forever. I would love Dr. Naveed Elahi, a Chiropractor with Health First to go back to medical school because he has the patience and the talent as well. So I officially am on a hunt for another doctor out there, however, never the same, but someone of the same temperament and qualities.

In every negative situation there is a positive. I feel blessed at least I can see that, many cannot. I caught myself from falling and I am becoming the person I want to be. I stand for something and feel good about it. I am not selling myself short, I am in a position were I now invest in myself. I will not sell my soul to the devil, or work for someone or something I don't believe in. I believe in living selflessly. It is just who I am. I am so giving, people at first use to think I would buy friendships! Lol, then they realized no it is just Sarah. She would do that for a stranger on a street. Thank you to my true friends who believe in me, who motivate me, who comfort me. Thank you Doc, you have saved my life in so many ways. You will be rewarded in heaven for all you do. I know you are just like me and your work is your reward. There will be more to follow someday! How many times I was stuck. How many people are stuck, now. Think to yourselves, there is a way out, it just takes time. Position yourselves to get there. Live the dream as they say.

Well the sun cannot make up its mind today, although I wish it would say yes to every day!!!

I hope everyone has made there plans for this weekend, thank you for the responses for attendance for Painkiller Hotel group! Everyone have a great day, I am listening to Rosie Thomas, she is great! God Bless! Safe travels Laura, and all the guys!

Love,

Sarah

"Where self exists God is not. Where God exists there is no self." The Granth, Sikh spiritual healing

"When the student is ready the teacher will appear." Buddhist Proverb

" He who knows others is wise; he who knows himself is enlightened." Lao Tzn

Good Morning Wednesday July 8, 2009

Good Morning! Well I seem to get most of my energy at night! LOL! I keep wanting to do things at night. Last night I hit Borders, oh boy! I have at least 30 books still left to read! However, I picked up some great new cook books and smoothie books. I realized I need a juicer! Then Blaq and myself went to Whole Foods! I feel myself sigh in relief, finally good food in my house! LOL! It is opposite now, hard to loose weight in the summer with all the food around! I need to make sure I am healthy. I haven't been feeling well and I usually do a lot better when I do eat better. We are all getting ready to hit the gym.

I can't wait to hit the water. The best motivating song for me is If I Were a Boy by Beyonce! We had a conversation this weekend regarding America and Americans. The difference in maturity level in men at a certain age vs. woman. There is certain men, one in particular that stands out. He has a great heart and soul, I loved, and his head just isn't all there. It will get there, but when is it too late. It is an interesting world we live in. Well I am off and it feels great! If I were a boy! LOL! I hope everyone has a great day and enjoys something that they love. Especially music, everyone enjoys music, turn it up! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it." William Arthur Ward

"The seat of knowledge is in the head of wisdom, in the heart." William Hazlitt

"When one door closes another opens. But often we look so long, so regretfully upon the closed door, that we fail to see the one that has opened for us." Helen Keller

July 7, 2009 Good Afternoon

Good Afternoon! Sorry, I was sick last night and realized my niece was coming this morning, she is a hoot! I got an e-mail from a friend yesterday, saying that there was another tragedy. A tragedy that happened on July 5th, actually 2. People all need time alone to grow, but there is nothing like people coming together. Don't wait for a tragedy to bring you together, do something now that brings who you love and care about together. It is a big world out there, but we are all connected some how. I believe many have great hearts and souls, but sometimes their mind just isn't clear.

While we are here, we need to decide who we are and what kind of life we want. If we want a good life we have to do good. In America we have an overwhelming number of people who look at material possessions as the key. Material possessions are just things. I like nice things, but I refuse to let them make me the person I am. They are not needs, they are just wants. We have a huge issue in this country, a moral issue. America lacks the value of education. Look we idolize people like Brittany Spears, Lindsey Lohan, Movie Stars, Rock Stars. Outlandish behavior and ignore those who do good and help society. We now have begun with President Obama and Oprah. There are many Philanthropist out there, many who are making a difference to look up to, but Brittany gets the press. Like in the book The World is Flat, Thomas Freidman said that the problem with America is that when Bill Gates goes out East he is welcomed with people screaming and yelling like he is Brittany Spears. The Problem with America is we treat Britney Spears like she is Brittany Spears.

I believe in good people helping good people. Speaking of which, good friends of mine, Painkiller Hotel is going to be playing Downtown Alive, in Aurora this Friday from 7- 8:15 All Ages!! I know many of the younger ones that have not been able to attend and see them will finally be able to do so! For more information just click on Adam in the corner, LOL! So come down and check them out! Chicago meet Aurora, you can take the train! It drops you off right at Walter Payton's Round House! Anyone interested contact me! Good People they are with great souls and GREAT MUSIC! With that being said I hope everyone is making plans for this weekend and getting together with people! Everyone have a great day, God Bless and don't forget to enjoy the music!

Love,

Sarah

"The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live." Erbert Hubbard

"Happiness resides not in possessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul." Democritus

"Happiness is were we it, but rarely where we seek it." J. Petit Senn

Monday July 6, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Almost Good Afternoon! I have to say this was the best holiday weekend I have ever had. Surrounded by good people, it was great! Well I had the best night yesterday again. Surrounded by wonderful people. I love nothing than good conversations, dovetailing interests, and good people helping good people. It was a great time! I felt secure and loved. I felt at such ease like I was at home. The best thing ever for me is feeling safe. There are good people in this world, I think everyone is looking at the bad instead of the good. I think a majority of people have a good, heart and soul but there mind is somewhere else or been altered. We continue to learn each day, realize many people have flaws but admit we have our own as well. I felt like I was home!

Thank You to my friend Laura who invited me to her family's 4th celebration, again a very fun loving family and it was great! Laura you are a true friend and I love you to pieces! What a blast! I hate the 4th we use to celebrate it, but I don't anymore. Thank you and your family for the invitation, I am so happy I accepted. Such good people! It turned out to be a great 4th! They really know how to do the 4th. Again such great people! Thank You Sophie, I know it takes a lot of time and energy to pull something so great and big off every year!

As we come leave to move on to our day remember that we may have it bad, but there are others out there that have it worse. If good people come together good things can happen. Well it is Monday a new day, a new week. It is a blank slate. We don''t have to be the person we were yesterday, try doing something random, something kind. Trust me, you will benefit much more than the other person. The wonderful feeling of being able to give is so true and great. Everyone have a great day, turn up the music and enjoy! Here are some more quotes to get our week off to a great start! Again thank you to all who made this the best weekend of my life!

Love,

Sarah

"Here I am, where I ought to be." Louise Edrich

"The greatest gift you will ever receive is the gift of loving and believing in yourself. Guard this gift with your life. It is the only thing that will ever truly be yours." Tiffany Loren Rowe

"Do what you love to do, and do it so well that those who come to see you do it will bring others to watch you do it again and again and again." Mark Victor Hansen

July 5, 2009 In Loving Memory of Ruth Dodson

Good Afternoon! I hope everyone is enjoying this weather with the people they love! Today I dedicate this blog to my grandmother Ruth Dodson, who was a powerful woman, who spoke her mind and was extremely outgoing. Today, 4 years ago my house phone rang, I answered, it was my grandmother, she was screeching, screaming! I gave my mom the phone and called 911 with my cell phone! We raced out of the house drove over and met the ambulance. I left my car running and my door open and ran into the house and there she was conscience but not able to respond. The paramedics got her on the floor, I told her we loved her, everyone loved her, it was going to be ok. She was pronounced dead at Provena Mercy Center. My mother and I now live in her house. My mother still has a hard time coping with the loss of my step-father who passed away 7 years ago to a rare cancer of the blood. She depends on me for a lot of support, but I depend on her as well for things too.

My grandmother taught who people were. My grandparents were caregivers to me throughout my life. I met so many people when I was with my grandparents, I probably know the most about my family's genealogy. I was a very curious child and always asked questions and she loved to answer them. She was very strong willed. She taught me that blue collar workers, were hard working people, not blue collar workers. Those are the ones that deserve the most respect. She loved to cook, bake, entertain! She would bake for the neighbors and bring things to total strangers homes. She knew everyone! My mother stays to herself, so I think that trait may skip a generation! LOL! Everyone knows that is me. She always got good deals when shopping, but never splurged. I get great deals and splurge way too much. We all have our flaws. Hey at least I am honest. The tong lashings I received for that one!

I in 14 years, have been through 7 tragic deaths in my family. It has been 7 years that my stepfather has been gone. All of which have made me who I am today. Ironic I win the mystery pot when I score in the 70's and my favorite movie that I believe that defines the ultimate redemption is 7 pounds. It teaches that giving back can bring joy and mend a heart. To me what better than to give to someone or help someone in need. That is just me and what makes me happy. Well I have those 7 angels above working overtime with me. My family has been dismantled, and torn apart. The family that was once a very social and loving family that was always together has grown and moved apart. Maybe that's why I enjoy everyone coming together. My dream is to bring people together. To see the smiles, to laugh, love and enjoy life. I watched my grandparents do that, people constantly in the house and that is the house I want to be in.

Well I think with all the tragedy, all the hurt, you hit rock bottom. Once your there the only way is up. Yes I have experienced a lot for someone my age, for that I am lucky. I now have an appreciation for life and for people. Many have not come to realize this yet. Those are the years that go wasted. I now can take the negative situation and make a positive out of it. Life moves on each day. There is no reason for hate. We all make mistakes, we all have flaws. Just be honest to yourself. Do what is right for you and you will do good that will allow you to good for others. People tend to forget that.

I know who I am, I am good, I am love, and I am happy. Have a great day, I am on my way again to spend a wonderful day with a wonderful family, who loves to give as well. Lord thank you, and to Grandma, thank you for watching out for me and teaching me, I love you and you are missed by many! God Bless and have a great day! Enjoy each other! If the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

July 4, 2009 Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July! I spent yesterday, where, none other than Pilsen!! No fashion party's though, we were at the heart of Pilsen. Yesterday was Felix's surprise party and it was great fun. I was happy that Blaq made new friends. The whole way home he kept saying what great and real people the Medrano's are. Felix's father, Big Felix is his new best friend. LOL! The Food was outside on the sidewalk anyone passing by, come on up! If your hungry what would you like. Yes that is our style. Blaq being from Uganda and being raised there, saw how wonderful that is. You don't see that much here anymore in our selfish society. Those who give are often frowned upon or go unnoticed. People came together laughed enjoyed, and laughed even more! That's what it is all about. Happy Birthday Fee! I hope everyone had a good time, my Patron and I were very happy. LOL!

Now comes the serious part. Who are we and what do we stand for. We have choices in life and although they are tough we have to make them. We have to be honest with ourselves and true to ourselves. We determine our own happiness and cannot live on what everyone else thinks. Some say we do, but do we really? We know what makes us happy deep down in our stomach. There is no such thing as coincidences the lord puts people in our lives for a reason. We all have flaws and make mistakes, but I guess I am so unconditional it is hard for me not to love or accept. Only when harm is being done. That I struggle with. I pray that God gives me the strength to get through those times. Speaking of which he sent one of his angels, Laura, my good friend who introduced me to Pilsen, to me today. She and I have grown close and she has taken me under her wing. I get to go be with her family today. How wonderful! I can't wait! I am blessed!

I leave you all now to go move on and enjoy the day. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and I thank him greatly for the people he has put in my life! Thank You all! God Bless America! Have a safe and fun holiday!

Love,

Sarah

Friday July 3,2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Rise and Shine! Happy Birthday Fee!!!!!! I have to say you are one of my best and closest friends. We will be friends forever because you know way too much! LOL! I don't know were I would be without you. This will be a great year ahead! Lots of fun to be had. We have had great times and will continue to have great times! Some of my best times were with the Medrano's. Straight up, right next to the Velaquez's. They are in my life forever! Fee I love you and the family unconditionally, and of course Coco and the kids. You guys mean a lot to me. You have taken care of me, guarded me and that means so much. The night you and Coco took care of me is priceless. You too, brought me into your family, Thank You Medranos. Well Here starts a long weekend for many! Cheers!

I hope everyone can kick back, enjoy one another and have a good times. Times maybe rough, but this weekend is a time for fun and enjoyment. We work, stress and take no time for ourselves. We need to take time whether it is on our boat, in our back yard or a picnic or in a lake house.

My Grandmother use to say she would make dinner and my grandfather would come home and he would be in a bad mood so pots and all, she would say "kids get your shoes on were going to have a picnic" and they would go to a forest preserve or down by the river and eat. I think I carry many of her Sporadic traits. My grandfather couldn't handle a mess, so she would move furniture and paint one wall at a time. I remember those days. Him mowing the lawn, my uncles and aunts stopping by and he would have a drink everyday. Jim Beam!!! In between mowing the lawn. I prefer bottled water but hey, it was grandpa. He was so cheery and bubbly. He use to tease me all the time and called me Sam I am. He smoked a pipe that still sits on his desk in my house. Whenever I want to smell him or remember him I go to that pipe and can still smell him. Back in the day they use to give a free dilly bar in a bag of dilly bars at Dairy Queen. I remember my grandmother was gone and my grandfather would say "you know how to eat a dilly bar, you don't stop until you get the free one." Those are the times I cherish. I remember the stomach I had. I remember falling asleep in the booth when my grandparents and I went to dinner. I remember playing cards with my grandmother.

Fun times surround us each day it is up to us to embrace them. Again not all require money. Picnic, park, slip and slide home run derby, game night, everyone bring a dish! That is why I think everyone loves the forth. It's funny when you start talking about times and you say remember the time when we were drinking and we did........ LOL!! That kills me right there. So relax have fun, be safe, please don't drive if you drink too much. Becareful with those sparklers! Inside joke. Have a great day and a fun weekend!!!!

Love,

Sarah

"What is life for? It is for you." Abraham Maslow

"Always be ready to have the time of your life." Unkown

"The work will wait while you show the child the rainbow, but the rainbow won't wait while you finish the work." Pat Clafford

Thursday July 2,2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Rise and Shine! Here we go one more day closer to the weekend. I was so excited yesterday when a friend called me and said she saw the earrings that I was wearing were in Parents or Parenting magazine! It was so cool. I got on that one right away and Kristin sent me a copy of the ad on facebook! I was so excited. If you check out my face book you will see them. Kristin makes objects d'envy which is a very classy line of jewelry used with crystals. Amazing! It was just a little fun idea. Well it is cloudy but I do have my window open so that is a plus crazy weather were having. One more day and we are almost there!

I hope everyone is making plans for the weekend! It is going to be a fun time! Nothing like the 4th! I feel sort of guilty, I thought people knew were I was coming from and they didn't. That is the worse thing for me, to be unable to communicate with people. I hate for people to misinterpret what I am saying. I know we all have had those days. While I have work piling up for me to do, I still find myself just exhausted, which reminds me, I am going to see doc today. Can't wait! Every time I go in there I wait for him to move his magic wand, LOL! However I leave feeling better than when I stepped in, which is a lot better than most doctors. Well no real words of inspiration at this moment lets all keep moving and see were it leads us. Remember many are going through hard times but things will get better, I know it is hard for us to see this. I look at were I was and were I am and anything is possible in life. I hope everyone has a great day and enjoys something today!

Love,

Sarah

"Necessity is the mother of taking chances." Mark Twain

"When things come to the worse, they generally mend." Susanna Moodie

"Difficulties, opposition, criticism-these are meant to be overcome, and there is a special joy in facing them and coming out on top. It is only when there is nothing but praise that life loses its charm and I begin to wonder what I should do about it." Vijaya Lakshmi Pandit

Wednesday July 1, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! Rise and Shine! Here we go another day. Well I am trying to get my sleep schedule back so I can get up early. Lately my days and nights are confused. It is a tough world out there with greed and constant media. I have avoided the news because of the Michael Jackson situation. Everywhere you go there he was. He himself was controversial but his music was loved my many. I wish we could take all that energy and focus it upon doing good things for others. I do believe the Obama campaign is trying, we are in a weakened economy and it will take time.

I watch people and families falling apart. It is time to go back to the main values, health and the best interest of the ones we love. The problems is we depend on technology so much. My Internet went down for an hour and I nearly lost it. We now have cable and I have cable channels because of the shows. i pods, not just one but two or three. Shoes, Clothes, Jewelry which lately has been my weakness. People are stressed out to the point there lives are miserable. If you have your health you are in good shape. You have to go back to the basics and say what do I need, my health, my car, a roof over my head. The other things will come in line. I have a book to dovetail. I saw a movie trailer for the Time Traveler's Wife which is a movie coming out. It is based on a novel. It doesn't come out until August 14 so you have plenty of time to read the novel, which was great!

Well another way I think we can do good things is by supporting private business owners by, shopping and doing business with private business owners. I do my best to shop and go to places that are privately owned. Unfortunately it sometimes is there only income. I support local bands that play and locally private owned bars as well. It is hard considering you get most you need at Target or Walmart. But it is the little things we can do to help each other. Again good people supporting good people. Our dreams still can be attained we just have to be a little more patient. Well I hope everyone has a great day! I am off to the taste with 4 kids to see Ne-Yo, pray for me! I am just as excited though! Plus they are great kids. Have a great day and enjoy something!

Love,

Sarah

"Happiness resides not in possessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul." Democritus

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it." William Arthur ward

"When one door closes another opens but often we look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us." Helen Keller