The Roads We Choose

It has been longer than a fortnight, but it has probably been worth it because I was still in a state of half shock half wonderment and I can still feel the weight like a giant burden of responsibility strapped on my back, I don't think physically my 6'1' 155 stature could hold this immense weight, spiritually am trudging my feet but am glad I made it today . I feel like shouting, I feel like dancing without music playing, I feel like running fast without feeling the wind rush by me, I just feel like speaking to you in 10 languages at once and have you understand me without me translating! Good Heavens I feel good! I hope you don't think I've gone "coo coo".

2 months as we sat down in the game room, Sarah Magrady was watching some of those shows that I really never watched, I was on the laptop scripting lyrics to a song I wanted to go record later the next day. She then asked me a question that I took time to think about before I answered her back, but at the moment she thought that I had ignored her. The question was; "What do you think am really good at"? The reason why I froze in context was because I didn't want to bluntly say what came up to my mind first! "Humanitarian". Then I thought of the list of things that I knew she would pursue that were right at hand "A great Writer" an Author, now remember at this time I was in thought but my response didn't come too soon and she thought I simply ignored her to avoid the "procrastination" conversation that we had had a couple days before.... Ohhh snap it was going to be a war of words, well she flipped through the channels and checked her DVR for recorded shows including "All My Children" , Big Love, then she decided to watch "Daddy's Girls" by Rev Run, see I never watched Run's house but I always watched the ending close" where Rev simply leaves words of wisdom before the show ends... "That is my favorite part of the show" I would skip the rest of the stuff ...but that part I could rewind just to tap into that zone. Now back to the argument that was about to erupt, I simply said "I think you are a humanitarian and a great writer" explore those potentials and you will surely find out that that is the truth about what you are really good at! Remember she wasn't talking before I answered her she was flipping through channels grumbling to her self about how I was ignoring her and how I cared less, SHE STOPPED! And said ''are you serious"? And i emphasized ..."YOU SHOULD FINISH WRITING YOUR BOOK" more so start a project that gives you the ability to help people because that is who you are, you can't hide that fact and you can't run away from the truths about you. wow...did I save a on coming argument with speaking my heart...phew..."am not good at arguments" I simply try to use one phrase or sentence and let you decide if am right or you are wrong!

The road you choose in this twisted journey of life could have lots of toils and snares, but at the end of it all we do not really choose these destinies ourselves there is a guideline, from God we receive so many gifts and chances to redeem and explore every possibility, without the physical there will be mental intellect, without mental there will be spiritual, without spiritual there will be emotional intellect, it keeps going on and on.. what am saying is "In this life the road you choose is yours to decide whether to walk on it or it will walk you.."

Yours Truly Blaq

Through The Trying Times

Today I would like to take a moment to appreciate love as the greatest gift of all, but yet Life trickles through the forces of nature at the cost of God's will. I can't express how hard the past couple months have been but I hold on to the remaining threads of hope to see brighter days a head, it takes faith, patience and believing to keep everyone strong. You could travel the world to escape current pain but without the Almighty, family and friends to walk the world with you all is left is just "You". Some of the most amazing things I learned from Sarah were simply accepting that the power of co-ordinating and networking is a basic incentive to succeeding in today's dynamic world. I usually never speak until i'm spoken to and that takes patience, the silent warrior in me that wins the battle with golden silence.. I will slowly but surely learn to open up.

As the year winds down, tis be the season that brings together families, friends and people from all walks of life to rejoice in a tremendous form of sharing and giving. I don't know what you are going to give but I know for a fact that Sarah was planning to give only to the kids this year,

to Heather's baby Ashleigh, Dianne's kids Adriana, Tony, Chris, Tim's Kids,Felix's kids, Coco's kids, Jason's kids, phew I could go on and on the list is huge , Sarah did not only give during holidays she gave throughout the entire year, to friends, family and strangers like me.. I will give you a perfect example that shocked me! She watched the movie "7 Pounds" and it touched her so much that she bought a bunch of 7 pounds DVDs and gave them out to "whoever" ...did you catch it..? I said "WHOEVER" she met. If you haven't watched this movie I suggest you do! I know you are going to ask yourself "hmmm I wonder if he watched it"? Yes I DID! It's one of those movies that leaves you perplexed in wonderment asking .."Am I capable of sacrificing my life so that another person lives?" Even bodyguards duck when shots go off! or rather wear bullet proof to take one"

Through these trying times I would like to thank all friends of Sarah Magrady one and all, readers of her blog and all those that have been a revolving force filled with love , joy and harmony with Sarah's Family to help them get through their loss and hardship.

In memory of Sarah, a children's Fund in her names is a project being looked into, anyone who has a perspective and fundamentals of procedures to this project to lift off please email in your suggestions through her face book account. Search your face book for Sarah Magrady.

I wish you the best in all you do, let your endeavors and efforts reach their destinations with God Speed. Have a blessed week! Check out the next blog in a Fortnight.

"Tewali Munsi muno Mulongofu Neera Tewaliba" No one in this world is Perfect and there will be Never Be Anyone"

Yours truly Blaq

On Friday Nov-13-2009 Sarah Anne Magrady was drafting a note via blackberry in form of an email reaching out through "Ellen" to have an important message delivered to "Rev Run" Joseph Simmons wishing him a happy Birthday for Saturday Nov-14th-2009 with more to it if you take time to read it. we don't know whether she actually sent it before she went to sleep because after we discovered it, it wasn't saved or sent yet..! It was the first thing that popped up on the blackberry screen while Ms Heather and I were asked by Ms Lynn "Sarah's Mother" to find her Doctor's phone number. The Truth Hurts, Sarah Anne Magrady Passed away Early Morning Nov-14-2009. Heather saved the drafted message and I sent it to its destination the "Diamond Empowerment Fund" D.E.F whose mission is of supporting education initiatives that develop and empower thos most disadvantaged in Afric an nations where diamonds are a natural resource, the organization will look to fund projects that have proven success inproviding African youth with high-quality educational experiences, including skill-building and vocational training initiatives. This is what Sarah Magrady was about, these are the type of projects that inspired her, giving , reaching out, providing to those in need, I could go on and on telling you what humanitarian she was in all her endeavors.

Dear Family and Friends, guests and readers from all walks of life here below are theLast of Sarah Anne Magrady's words . She hadn't written a blog for Friday Nov-13-2009. Therefore This note was it.

"I want you to pass this message to Joseph simmons rev. Very Important!"

Hi helen! Would you please pass this message on to Tell him tomorrow Happy Birthday! The best gift I could give him is to get a page on Facebook and same with Justine. They will see stories and be able to see things, network and socialize from a laptop! It can be informative, a hand reaching out and inspiring! If he doesn't have one, then I on Disability will use the money given to me, for my christmas gift make a sacrifice and buy him one. I remember the story from when I was a little girl in a catholic school about in the Bible were there was a rich person giving money, yet a poor person giving almost everything. I remember how The Lord said it is those who were wealthy and give a lot vs. Those who were poor and gave almost everything that the poor were more humble and gave praise. The Lord was so pleased with the poor but the rich man gave a little and gave the pennies. It is time for them to see what wonderful people are out there and he can set up things there and links as well. Facebook to me is wonderful and i think he and justine will see how big and wonderful people are. I please ask you to him for this Pass it on! Thank you, good luck an I hope you get your moment to shine!

Sarah Magrady.

            "Negyebuva negyebudda Kunsi ne Kunsi, Kuntandikwa nekunkomerero "OBULAMU BWEBUGAGA"  
The above proverb in my language states that ;
          "From wherever time comes from to wherever it goes From nation to nation or world to world,  from Begining  to the End  "HEALTH IS WEALTH"
                          Yours Truly Blaq Fuego

Noveber12,2009 "Good Afternoon This Is Your Wake Up Call!"

Good Afternoon! I hope everyones day is going well! Yes I thought I would Chime in and do a little wake up call! I do my best to help my friend who is a single mother, take in people who need help, always reach out to those who need help, but frankly it is time for you and all of us to come together and start doing more! I mentioned Family Focus as as a charity that helps families. Perfect because it starts at home. Then we go into schools and the community. So were do we start? That is when we put our heads together and figure it out. I know too many people that have a lot to offer and can help put something together. It is a matter of putting a plan together another organization. I am calling upon people to help me. Russell, I think it is time. Ryan of course, same with Candace, Tiger, and everyone else who has the power to lead. You all have it, Tiger you have the Tiger Woods Foundation that helps children. Lets blow it up out of the water. Because if I could put together a children's Foundation it would be very similar! Rev I call upon you. Your son Russell put you in check! Ha Ha! I was watching of course one of my favorite all American families Run's House on MTV2 Marathon and Russell was going to kick you off the board Rush Philanthropy until you contributed more. You know what I would do for a seat on a major foundation board like Rush Philanthropy. You ended up buying some more air miles and then they donated more air miles. Russell said that was a good start. However, your son said what about selling your Phantom Bently! You looked at him like he was crazy. A car is a depreciating asset, and I honestly myself would do it in a heartbeat. I love Honda! Get a nice SUV or Accord! There nice ride smooth or a nice BMW. It's a car! A toy it is that dispensable! We are talking about making a difference in this world. From the birth of child and then into man and a lady that will lead in this next Generation.

I often post articles on my facebook site from Russell and others. There is so much out there we are so unaware of. But things do need to change and we cannot sit anymore. A 1 year old child was killed in a drive by shooting. A gang rape, along with children found living in filth. The children fighting angry hurting kids, bulling at school! There is so much anger. We must step in. It first comes in with answering the phone when someone is need. Opening a door for someone, being the first to say hello, presenting a good role model to the children around you. Who are you when you wake up in the morning and go to bed at night. When you look in the mirror to brush your teeth, shave or do your hair. Who are you!!!! It is a wake up call, I have learned on my 28 years here on Earth, life is short and we do need to make it count. We all have our crosses to bare, however having a purpose helped me fight for my life and come through. It helped me get through the hard times. There is never a waste of time. Plant seeds in a child's mind. Help that friend or relative that needs you. Don't turn your head anymore. I know you have your problems, we all do. I know all too well, that could be your child, niece, grandaughter, daughter, cousin that was killed in a drive by. Tragedy surrounds us everyday.

No more laugh, be kind and so and so! It is what are you going to do today? Hey are you in? E-mail me, write on my wall, share ideas, thoughts. That is why I did this blog. It is now open for anyone to make comments. I changed up my profile a bit and we are moving forward. I tell you what my cousin died tragically along with other loved ones. But I tell you one thing he will not be forgotten either. Tom Dodson will be remembered and I will make sure of that. I will make sure that I do my best everyday and I will continue to bring people together, be that bridge and work towards making this world a better place. I watched America come together cry, and yearn for change. So lets get working! Keep going, enjoy your day, put your happy face on along with that football in your hand or in my case my koosh ball that helps me think of ideas and lets get together to the drawing board! Believe and now it is time to lead!

Love,

Sarah

Noveber12,2009 "Good Night for Me!"

Good Morning! Yes it is Good Night for me! It was a wonderful day with my favorite little person. Her curiosity and intelligence blow me away! She looked so cute! We got some cute waves! We hit the Dupage Children's Museum and she loved it! She didn't want to leave! It was a wonderful thing. Then we hit Target. Yes the Christmas shopping has started already. I have to say I don't think I am going out this year on Black Friday! I know hard for me to say, but I just don't have yet to get in the groove! I got off to a good start and we're doing really well. Well I am more excited in remembering that the Birth of Chirst and remembering the sacrifices he made for all of us. For me it is the kids! Decorating, watching Christmas movies, cookies and things like that. Last year was just nuts. I am still not over it.

Well it feels great to see a smile on a child's face we had a great time and even brought home touchable bubbles. Very fun! Well I hope everyone remembers that it is not all in gifts, and is also in giving time, and being creative. Put a little love into what you do. That really makes it special. Well I am off to get some sleep then a lot of appointments. I hope everyone has a great day! Find that passion, that gives you that energy, that feel good feeling! Laugh, enjoy and believe because God and Jesus is with us all. If there is anything going on just shout out and speak from your heart! Have Faith!

Love,

Sarah

"Beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and best." R Turnbull

november 10, 2009 "Holidays are on there way"

Good Morning! Yes the holidays are on the way! Thanksgiving, which to me is the shopping marathon. I am not a Thanksgiving person. Christmas. Well Christmas, I am so burnt from last Christmas, I can barely walk past wrapping paper with out growling! It was so crazy, here there and everywhere. My niece and nephew on my Dad's side were in Texas and they got there stuff on Easter literally! I was so sick of wrapping, I couldn't handle it. This year I cut it to just kids. Just family kids. No adults. I also do my mom's shopping so I have that as well. It just gets too nuts. We lose the value of Christmas and the value of Christ being born. I would much rather everyone decorate the tree, then watch Christmas movies, things like that. Bake cookies. It is all this work for one day, and we all run around and I just refuse this year. I am to burnt. I think it would be fun to pick a name and make a present, or do a white elephant. Wrap something you own that is funny or a joke! I think that would be great! Think about it, it is just that crazy. Maybe volunteering somewhere for an organization, stepping outside the box.

Well it is Tuesday and the day is moving slow, I must get up and get moving, thank the Lord for Diet Coke! I am addicted! I was doing so good then I started again. Like a can a day, instead of a can a month. Details. Well I hope everyone gets a chance to reflect and enjoy. I think we become accustomed to always doing things a certain way and I think if we cut back it would be less stressful and more enjoyable. Think how many times we think simpler is better! Things we can be thinking about as the holidays approach and everyone is talking. Well I hope everyone has a great day, enjoy, love and be kind!

Love,

Sarah

"I expect to pass through this life once. If, therefore, there can show or any good thing I can do to any fellow being, Let me do it now, for I shall not return this way again." William Penn

November 9, 2009 Good Morning "A New Day"

Good Morning! Well the Lord was good! Here we are another day and another opportunity. I have been up burning the midnight oil. Some stories need to be heard. I was taught the meaning of life at a very young age and for that is a blessing. I heard that right now Dallas on the Rocks is auctioning off a date with Russell Simmons, to sit at the VIP table. I think you have to be quick, time is running out! It all goes to the Diamond Empowerment Fund. Again a great organization Another organization is Rushphilanthropic.org. Which I caught some re-run's of Run's House and one was when Russell threatened to kick Rev off the Board!! I love it! When Russell brings Rev into his office! See Russell wouldn't want me as his date because I would be talking about another organization that needs to be established that people, everyday people can contribute to. It is the little money that can add up. You don't necessarily need people to donate thousands, we can make a difference with just everyday people pitching in. See he already has to listen to me send him messages, he wouldn't want me to bid on that ticket! LOL!

Speaking of Charity work Ryan Mack had posted help 1000 homeless children have a Christmas this year by donating a toys to youth that he has worked with through Living in the Village Economic Empowerment Group-Together We Can Endure. On my Facebook page there is the information. For further information please feel free to contact me. sarahmagrady@comcast.net. Great Cause Ryan! Nothing extravagant. Just simple toys! My family has eliminated all gift giving for adults this year and just buying for the kids. I love that idea. They are the only one's I like buying for. It relieves a lot of stress. I am so burnt from last Christmas, It was so much fun, but it was a lot of work. If you keep it simple and for the kids it makes it so much easier. Well another week is here I hope we remember how blessed we are. We all have are issues, our own crosses to burn, but living a life of selfishness will only lead us into an empty black hole. I encourage people to be understanding, forgiving and admit to there own faults as well. We all have them, I hope everyone finds some peace today. It is again a new day full of positive energy. We are our own authors. We write our own story. Have a great day, turn up the music, smile, do something kind and love!

Love,

Sarah

Noveber 8, 2009 "Friendships are under constant tests"

Good Night! Well it has been a long day, along with a very long week. I put "friendships are under constant tests" because that is the story of the past week. While I have been sick, it has been rough. I am only one person but I try to do the best I can. I am great friend, I listen, I am generous and I would do anything for you. However, you can't have a friendship by yourself. When you have had a hard time and your friend says "Catch ya later" in some sort of way, are they really your friend? Some friends mistake anger for disappointment. They may not know why I want to do something. Well don't laugh and say sure, and then I have a bad week and say sorry I already did it. I have been taken advantage of before, I have been used just for people's own benefits. They may not notice it, but when I bring it to your attention, don't tell me that I make you feel like shit. Because If I mention it to you, then it has gone beyond making me feel like shit. If you don't care what you have done to that person, that friend, then you are not that person's friend. If all you care about is yourself and your feelings, than don't lie to yourself, you were never friends.

It was a rough week, I had some that stood by me, some that have helped me. Being sick and just the everyday life issue's are rough for us all. I try my best to help all in need. To be the best daughter, best friend, the best person I can. I may not always succeed, but at least I try. I make mistakes just like everyone else, for that I am sorry. I try to tell people my feelings and people get angered. When it is the truth. Well like I always say, tomorrow is another day, a blank slate, we don't have to be the people we were today. Everyday is a new adventure and you never know what your going to wake up too. I refuse to fight with people. I refuse to be stepped on. I say how I feel, because I want a happy life. I hope everyone has a great evening, enjoy each other, hold on to those who are real, those that make us happy and tomorrow if the Good Lord lets us, we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

Noveber 8,2009 "I'm Back!"

Good Morning! I'm back! No Swine Flu for me! LOL! It was a rough week but I am doing much better. I was down for the count. So much I have missed out on, so much I must catch up on. My Asthma is acting up we will see if I can make it to the gym. However, if I don't go first thing sometimes, I tend not to go. Life is moving fast and there is no time to fall behind.

It is hard when you don't have support from your friends. People you thought were your friends that really seem not to be. I look back and regret things and really I realize it is all just a learning experience. There are days we dream of starting over in a new place with new people. Except my mother and father who I love dearly. You go out of your way to help people for what? To be a good person, a person that serves God. I do my best to give, love, and live his word. Do I make mistakes yep at least 12 a day. No one is perfect, yet we seek perfection. I feel as though everyone has to bring everyone down instead of working together as a team. I don't know how to hate, but when people turn against you and no one sticks up for you, it makes you look at things in a whole new light. I am learning more and more to be careful and to pull away and detach from others. That like Russell says is one step in being successful. So I hope everyone had a great weekend, It was beautiful outside. Enjoy, be happy, smile and let the music heal!

Love,

Sarah

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word a listening ear, an honest accomplishment or the smallest act of caring of all which have the potential to turn a life around." Leo Buscaglia

November 4,2009 "Distracted"

Good Morning! I hope everyone has been doing well! I checked my facebook and it seemed like everyone is doing great. I thought I would get in early since I have my favorite little person today. Sorry I have been distracted this week and haven't had a chance to get to my "Good Mornings." My mom and I were having a conversation and she said something about certain family members not liking me being so open, and that's why they don't speak to me or are short with me. Well I am an open person. I believe by being open that is how we learn. If we didn't share ideas, memories, things that happen how would we learn. Let tell you how much that hurt. You want nothing more than you're family's support. It is what it is. This for me brings me joy and helps me keep track of what's going on in my crazy life. I know Christmas is coming and I will be posting some charities, however there are many organizations out there like toys for tots and other things as well. I know Ryan Mack has put something together and I will share that with you as well.

Well again I hope all is well, it is a busy week with the Walter Payton foundation fundraiser and other things going on, I will be in and out. I you all have a great day make sure to do something kind and something random!

Love,

Sarah

"I live for those who love me, for those who know me true." George Linnaeus Banks

October 30, 2009 "Taking a Deeper Look"

Good Morning! Wow what a week! This week I took a deeper look at my life and seeing what direction I am heading. Although we can plan it is up to the Lord where I end up. However, trying to make decisions on certain things at times were difficult I got through it. We had a wonderful motivational video, thanks Beth, that touched everyone. A father's love for his son and a heartwarming story that lead to tears. It was amazing. I had my 'If you could choose a career for me," which I found enlightening.

Yesterday I posted a music video by Martina McBride called God's Will. It is sad no doubt. I cried to that video for years and then I found the true meaning of that video. Children teach us things everyday. The Lord puts people in our lives for a reason. You take the negative or take the positive. She was a woman just like me, been "Wounded, Jaded, Loved and Hated until she found God's Will. He lived selflessly and new God and loved. Something any parent would want. He changed her life. While sad, things happen in life and we learn from them, we can cry or take something away from that experience.

I believe in God and I believe in the power of prayer. It has changed my life. There is no doubt about that. Some understand it and some don't and that's ok. I am still learning everyday like the rest of us, making mistakes like the rest of us, and I am no saint. I try to do my best everyday to help those in need and live selflessly. I just hope that I do leave that mark on the world. I am going to leave with a scripture I found. "...I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power....to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ...." Ephesians 3:17.18 With that being said I hope everyone has a safe weekend, do something kind and of course something random. I just published " Life Is A Cup Of Coffee on Facebook. Very Inspirational! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 29th, 2009 "A Better Day Is Coming"

Good Morning! Yes for those on the west coast it is still night but here in midwest it is almost 1am. It has been a long day. I had my favorite little person today wasn't feeling well and neither was I. So we watched movies slept and went to the store. Not the most productive or what was planned. She is asleep now on her 2nd sleep over and has to get up for preschool in the morning. I realized I am more and more like Kate Gosselin. I sat there and went through what she was going to were, matched everything to a "T" and then pulled out the gallon size hair bows and her black Mary Janes.

I had a couple of things I really needed to do that I didn't get to do so it set me back. I give it up to all the single mothers out there. I am exhausted. I am waiting on the last load of laundry and I knew I wouldn't have time in the morning to write because I have to get up and get Ashleigh ready and off to the gym I go. From there on it is everything I didn't get to today. I can only imagine the stress of working single mothers. So in hope I pray that tomorrow I have the energy to attack all the tasks that need to be done and come home with a smile on my face and a sense of accomplishment. I think that is the main things people really need to feel fulfilled other than having the Lord in there life, is a sense of purpose and accomplishment. With out those we become lost. Well I leave you all to have a great day, remember to take time out for you and enjoy the little things in life and cherish the moments!

Love,

Sarah

Painkiller Hotel Oh Yeah!

Yes another good morning, there is so much going on to write about now, it is hard to put things into one blog! Painkiller Hotel is a group that is a rock/alternative/pop group, at least that is how I would characterize it. They will be playing at Bally Doyal this Friday Night, come in costume 28 W New York St. in Aurora. It starts at 9 pm! If you wear a costume you get entered in a drawing for a free autographed guitar from PKH! 21+ and it's a free event. I am going and want everyone to come and join me. If you are in chicago take the train and I will pick you up! Fun Times to be had. (Oh yeah and it is on the same street as the Casino!)

The other great news as of today you can purchase Painkiller Hotel CD's through out the Chicagoland area at Best buy and at some select Borders! I highly suggest getting one. Great music and great people. Lets all go out and have some fun! Eat, Drink and be Merry! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 27, 2009 "My Confessions"

Good Morning! Happy Birthday Laura!! You think I would let that one pass! A wonderful woman who deserves all God's blessings! Much love to you my friend. Enjoy your day! May I say yesterday was the best day for me on Facebook! Thank You Beth for sharing that wonderfully inspiring video. It made my day. I posted a profile question what occupation would you see me best at. The responses were very eye opening. We are our worst critics. I got mostly Journalist/writer, one CEO, couple Nurses, Event Planner working with senior citizens and children because of my patience and being able to communicate well. Another Event Planner something in fashion (I like that one.) Then came the one from my friend who happens to be my old boss, Heather she said "you have so much to give. I would say your occupation would have to be something with children. You watch Ashleigh for me 1 x a week and you are amazing at it. You have plenty of guidance with her, I couldn't ask for anything more. You are a wonderful person and it shows in everything you do. No matter what occupation or were you end up I know you would bring something to it that opens so many peoples' eyes." Wow thank you Heather I am flattered and I love the fact you trust me with your daughter. Your a great mom as well!

Truth is for those who don't know by now, I had plastic surgery after losing a lot of weight and got sick. With my health still fragile, meaning, I need to stay at a steady pace which is hard for me, because I like the fast pace and I want to do everything, I am now looking at getting back into work. I do what I can for people when I can. I am very generous and giving. I would love to write like this everyday and get paid. I love to inspire people, write, interact with people and I love children.

The one occupation that I hide from and my confession is that I have always wanted to be is a wife and a mother. I took myself off all my medications for two full weeks, it was hard, but having a good supporting husband I could do it. I would love to write and I am writing as well. But, to see that people actually read what I write was wonderful. Actually right now my dream job is to write and work along side of my friend Kate Boggiano. or Aka Kate Coxworth. I love fashion now because of her and Kristen and could write on the side. Yes I love the fashion industry, or I would love to be a part-time Nanny. I love children. It's not being a doctor or a lawyer but it is who I am. I have a good work ethic and I love to build things and watch them be accomplished as well. If you don't have facebook, I urge you to get one. If you don't want your name to be known, go under another name. It is a great networking tool. We share ideas, dovetail things, meet people all over the world. To me that is great. One thing is for sure I want to leave this world knowing I made a difference in someone's life and I left a stamp on the world! I urge everyone who is out of work, or even disabled, volunteer help someone, it gives you such purpose. I have to say by helping people and a wonderful medical team, it has gotten me to were I am today. Do I still have bad days yes, but I really don't mention them. I remember looking at wall paper thinking it was going to be the last thing I was going to see before I die. So in comparison, I am blessed! Have a great day! Enjoy, and do something wonderful and random!

Love,

Sarah

"I CAN do all things through Him that strengthens me." Philippians 4:13 ( for those who watched the video, that is what was said at the end, nothing like being inspired.)

October 26, 2009 "Teamwork"

Good Morning! Teamwork, is foundation of many successful things such as, businesses, households, sport's teams and many other projects. I have a cube that sets next to me that reads "Teamwork is the ability to work together toward a common vision. The ability to direct individual accomplishment toward organizational objectives. It is the fuel that allows common people to attain uncommon results." If we take a second and reflect on that, we realize how true that is.

Foundations I would like to again recognize are D.E.F. (Diamond Empowerment Foundation) which is "a non-profit international organization with the mission to raise money to support education initiatives that develop and empower economically disadvantaged people in African nations where diamonds are a natural resource." Right now they are getting ready for a big event, Dallas on the Rocks, which you can find more about if you go to www.diamondempowerment.org. It will also lead you to the green bracelet which you can purchase which is another way to help as well. I thought at first they were really expensive. They are a $125 plus shipping and handling, but make good gifts and go towards a great cause.

A new foundation that I found which I am quite impressed with is the Tiger Woods foundation.

The foundation is geared towards helping children and being that helping hand. There goal is "achieving goals and reaching dreams in there nationwide character development program." They have a Tiger Woods learning center, they also offer grants and scholarships. It is truly an amazing foundation. If I could put a foundation together honestly, this is the foundation I would put together. I always made a promise in my life not to turn my head to a child in need. That is exactly what he is doing. Excellent job! You can go to www.tigerwoodsfoundation.org for more details, I urge everyone to do so! Very impressive!

Well I hope everyone has a great day! Smile, love and be kind. Again try something random! I have spoke about getting involved in something, whether it is helping a neighbor or an organization or even a friend in need. We are such a selfish society and we really do have so much to give, even if we don't think we do. All those that are unemployed, go volunteer. Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"And so, my fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country." John F. Kennedy (Those words and his legacy still live on today.)

October 23, 2009 "Sorting out your friends"

Good Evening! There comes a time when it is time to sort out your friends. A friendship takes two people meeting both ways. The phone works both ways. We all live busy lives, and some weeks are crazy, but we know who are real and true. I know I am so kind hearted, I have been taken advantage of many times. However it is time to cut the cord. I deserve good friends that appreciate me and who want to be around me. Those who don't , I am not going to bat for. It is a new conclusion I have come to, that I think in turn it will make me a happier person. I encourage everyone to do the same, really evaluate your friends. We all know friends are the family we make along the way! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 22,2009 "Encore"

Yes the encore! Music Does Heal! Some may not quite understand why I chose to put up music lyrics this week but it dawned on me. Music is so powerful. The melody, the words. Everyone likes music! Whether it is instrumental, R & B, Hip-Hop, Jazz, Pop, Country, blue grass, they all have a statement. I saw a friend wearing a shirt that says music heals! It's interesting because people will be like oh that's country I don't listen to that, without even knowing what it is about.

Music does heal! It makes us dance, laugh, and make great memories, the things that really matter. We all have a favorite song, or a song that brings back those memories. It comforts us when were sad, relaxes us when were tense. It is an art. I am eclectic, I enjoy feeling. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in the rhythm or the melody we don't actually listen to the words. Words are powerful. People make assumptions not even knowing. I don't know much about the music industry other than I have a musical genius that is my friend. Blaq Fuego singer/songwriter.

These past 5 years have been quite a journey. The past year even more so. I figured out who I am. What I like, what I want. Who cares what people think of you, or trying to live up to being number one! Because at the end of the day all that matters is that your happy. I believe in love. Lust is a truly powerful thing, but once your grounded within your self you will know when you find love. Love has nothing to do with material objects, money or looks. It's how that person makes you feel. I say I know I am in love when all I care about is a shack food and water and the man that I love.

I watch our society struggle on materialism, seriously just melting down. So busy trying to keep up appearances. I am the first to say I love nice things. However, they are just things, you have to be willing to drop those things at any moment and not base your life around that. Huge problem. We need to come together, reach out to one another, because truly we have so much in common. Be true to yourself. Be honest to yourself. Music is another way of helping cope with that. I did some editing on my profile with my blog. I believe in doing good for others. I believe in good people helping other good people. One day I felt the holy spirit within me, it has never left. I find calmness and understanding when I read the bible or even from reading Buddhist prayers. We fight about religion and race when all that matters is humanity. Stop pointing fingers, and stop being afraid of other religions because most of them add up to the same thing, doing good for others and humanity. Things can happen, we can make them happen, if we try hard enough. Just like it took a couple dollars here and there for Barack's campaign fund, it takes just a couple minutes or an hour to make a difference in our society. It proves by that last passage it can work, it will take time, but it will come!

Well more to chat about tomorrow, I hope everyone had a great day, feel free to leave comments, you no longer have to be a user to leave a comment. Good Night! If the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

October 22, 2009 "The Grand Finally!"

Here is the last set of three music pieces I put together. I did this for a reason. I find them empowering and motivating. I saved the best for last! I will publish an Encore blog explain the deep meaning of why I chose to do this. To some this makes sense, to others they could careless. I hope by reading my encore, people will go back and read the past weeks. We started with Lust and heartbreak and leave with Love and Empowerment !

If your out there, we can take an ordinary day and make it worth while, yes we can!

"If you hear this message wherever you stand. Calling every woman, calling every man, we're the generation that can't afford to wait the future started yesterday, we are already late. We be looking for a song to sing, search for a melody, search for someone to lead. We be looking for the world to change if you feel the same go on and say it, if your out there sing along with me....John Legend, If Your Out There

"If I had one wish I wouldn't ask for Monday, I wouldn't ask for fame. I wouldn't ask for the power to make this world to change. If I could have that one thing that one thing that I would chose, would be one more ordinary day with you...." Nick Lachey, Ordinary Day

" Yes we can, Yes we can, to opportunity to and prosperity, heal this nation and repair this world. Yes we can! Yes we Can, we know the battle ahead will be long always remember that no matter what obstacles are standing in our way nothing could stand in the middle of millions of voices calling for change, we want change, we want change we want change,.........There has never been anything false about hope.... Podcast during President Obama's election, found under Alice Klimkloski, Will I Am rings a bell with me as well! There was a video on utube.

So we started out thinking of ourselves wrapped up in unhealthy relationships, in which a majority of us have this day and age. Instead of waiting on the world to change, we asked if anyone was out there come join us. Lust is a difficult temptation. How do you define love? My friend said today, what is that you look for in a guy, I said personality and intellect. I define love as if you got rid of all material objects and forgot about what other people think and that person makes you so happy you want to laugh and spend everyday with them and look forward to seeing them, then you have found love. It's a little more complex. Then we end it with a podcast I had from U-Tube video advertising for then Barack Obama. Millions of voices can make a difference, however, like he said it is going to be a long journey, don't forget that. Change doesn't happen overnight. Music is an art. Some love the melody, and judge by Genre without knowing what the words are! I hope that got my message across. I will be publishing more about that in my Encore!

October 22, 2009 "The Light comes on"

The light begins to come in as I go through the next three songs that I find extremely inspiring. You most likely will be seeing two more blogs today as I attach this whole crazy process together. It is hard to communicate music without the lyrics, I understand, but there is a reason for my madness.

I had a voice in my head that left my page unwritten until I decided to live like I was dying!

"The war has come to pace and we lost everything we had and don't even understand who I am anymore. But the voice in my head is calling me back, is calling me back....Painkiller Hotel, Voice In My Head

"Staring at the blank page before you, open up the dirty window let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find reaching, for something in the distance so close you can almost taste it, release your inhibitions feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you only you can let no one else, no one else can speak the words on your list put yourself in words unspoken, live your life with with your arms wide open....Natasha Bedingfield, Unwritten

"He said I was in my early 40's with a lot of life before me and a moment came and stopped me on a dime. I spent most of the next days looking at the x-rays talking about the options and talking about sweet time. I asked him when it sank in this may be the real in hows it hit you when you get that kind of news, man, what you do, he said, I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain Climbing, I went 2.7 seconds on a bull and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying and someday I hope you get the chance to live like your dying!" Tim McGraw Live Like your dying

All these songs are songs I love and cherish! I have a very eclectic taste. It wasn't long ago I was so sick I thought I was going to die, confined to a bed and very limited. Imagine being a high functioning person and unable to do things. People that know my story, about the weight loss, the plastic surgery and then the weight gain, and my health struggles often say "I bet you wish you never had that plastic surgery." I say "no, that surgery saved my life." I wouldn't be the person that I am today. I have struggles but I know what life is about and how precious it is. Fortunately I was in my early 20's! I am blessed.

Love,

Sarah

October 21, 2009 Good Afternoon Pretty in Pilsen

Yes, last night was Pretty in Pilsen of course! Great designers Kristen Goede of objects D' Envy that was there with her magnificent jewels. I love being covered in her jewels, they make a woman feel gorgeous! Then of course we had the fabulous Kate Baggiano with her stunning new collection which I got a sneak peak of the rain coat that I am dying to have! Her work speaks for itself! It is hard work owning your own business especially in the clothing industry but she has done very well. Still as wonderful as always! I love buying clothes and Jewelry from good people. It is about good people supporting other good people. I was introduced to another fabulous design team Crescendo Apparel. They do pants skirts and wraps. Let me tell you the wraps are fabulous! It was a great evening I helped Kate close up shop. I just saw Crescendo Apparel recently in Michigan Avenue Magazine, great magazine all with local designers and the social circle around Chicago. Chicago designers have so much to offer. Well you can find Objects D'Envy at www.objectsdenvy.com and Kate Baggiano at www.katebaggiano.com and of course Crescendo Apparel at www.crescendoapparel.com. It is fun to mix it up with wonderful local designers that have so much talent. Beautiful things that are made with good quality. Have a great day! Cheers!

Sarah

October 21, 2009 "relaxing"

Good Morning this will be my first of two today! I will be writing later about the fabulous night at Pretty in Pilsen with the wonderful designers, in which I just caught at the end of the night and almost missed. Good thing I didn't. Now lets go on and let the music heal! These songs make me have butterflies in my stomach and make me want to dance around the room or open the sunroof on that beautiful day.

You're Beautiful On Your Wedding Day With A Pocket Full of Sunshine!

"My life is brilliant, my life is brilliant my love is pure. I saw an angel of that I am sure she smiled at me on the subway she was with another man, but I won't lose any sleep on that because I have a plan. Your beautiful, Your beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place and I don't know what to do because I will never be with you." James Blunt, You're Beautiful

"So much for love I guess I have been wronged but it's alright cause I'm moving on, I've got my car all packed with cassette tapes and sweaters loose change and cheap cigarettes and I'm gonna drive through the hills put my hand out the window and sing until I run out of words. I'm stop by every truck stop and make small talk with every waiters and truck driving men. I'm going to fall asleep in the backseat with no one around but me and my friends! It's going be so great! It's going to be just like my wedding day! Yeah I had enough of love its feel good to give up some good to be good to myself and I am going to get on the highway with no destination in vision in mind I am going to drive to the ocean and go skinny dipping and give kisses to Venus and Mars.....Rosie Thomas Wedding Day

"I've a got a pocket got a pocket full of sunshine I got a love that is mine its all I know,oh oh do what you want but your never gonna break me the sticks and stones you're never gonna shake I know, take me away to me a secret place a sweet escape take me away, take me way to better days, take me away for a holiday. Natasha Bedingfield, Pocketful of Sunshine

These songs I find again as a release and good vibes and rhythm that helps bring out the smile, relaxing part of you to repair and come to terms with who you are and what you stand for. It is all a process. A hard one at that. Well we will meet later on today and I will let you know about last nights events! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 20, 2009 "Good Mourning"

The mourning over the broken heart. Yes it happens to all of us. That is the thing there are many of these breaks ups (usually) and life must go on. So how do we do that? Remember music touches many in different ways, we are working our way up!

You'll be thinking of me, waiting on the world to change after I knock you down.

"I woke up early one morning around 4 am with the moon shining bright as the headlights over the interstate, I pulled the covers over my head trying to catch sleep but thoughts of us just keeping me awake, ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms I been trying my best to get along. That's ok there is nothing left to say, take your records take your freedom, take your memories I don't need them take your space and your reasons, but you'll think of me, take your cat but leave my sweater, but we have nothing left to weather a matter in fact I will feel a whole lot better, but you will think of me." Keith Urban, You'll Think of Me

"Me and all my friends we're all misunderstood, they say we stand for nothing else they say we never could. Now we see everything that is going wrong with the world and all those who lead it we just feel like we don't have the means to rise up and beat it. So we keep waiting, waiting on the world to change we keep on waiting, waiting on the world change. It is hard to beat the system when were at a distance so we keep waiting, waiting on the world to change." John Mayer Waiting on the World to Change

"I never thought I would never be in love like this when I look at you my mind goes on a trip, and you came in knocked me on my face it was like the memories but I already won first place. I never thought I would fall for you as hard as I did how you had me thinking about our life, our house our, kids every morning I look at you and smile, then boy you came around and you knocked me down, knocked me down, sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when knocks you down." Keri Hilson, Kanye West, and Ne-Yo

Well as the music always heals, it brings back memories. Waiting on the world to change was before President Barack Obama's election. Now what are we doing? Losing a lover, is it love or lust? The music brings us to that place, it's always that song. I am working my way up, there is a mission through all of this. We can't let a lost love or lover bring us down, we must rise, because there will be plenty more. When I was in high school I wrote a poem about a boy being a bottle of scotch. You know how many bottles of scotch I have had since then. There are always new days and new people. You will know when it is right, if it's not right, it's just not right. We pick ourselves up and move on. Everyone have a great day!

Love,

Sarh

October 19, 2009 Music Heals "Lust"

Music does heal through all stages of life. I am starting from the bottom and working are way up this week. I wish it could all be wonderful and joyous however, it is just not real anymore.

If your this kind of boy you send us girls to rehab, so take a bow!

"If I were a boy I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl. I swear I would be a better man. I'd listen to her cause I know how it hurts when you loose the one you wanted he has taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed. If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone tell everyone it's broke so they think that I was sleeping alone. I put myself first and make the rules as I go, cause I know that she would be faithful waiting for me to come home. If I were a boy, I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl , I swear I would be a better man. I listen to her cause I know how it hurts, when you lose the one you wanted and he has taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed. It's a little to late for you to come back say its just a mistake think I forgive you like that, if you think I would wait for you, you think wrong, but your just a boy you don't understand..." Beyonce, If I were a boy

"It's gonna to take a miracle to bring me back and your the one to blame, and now I feel like oh your the reason I am thinking I don't want to smoke on those cigarettes no more. I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking I should never let you enter my door next time you wanna go on leave, I should just let you go on and do it, now I'm using like I need. It's time to check into rehab because your my disease, it's like I checked into rehab..." Rihanna, Rehab

"How about a round of applause yeah standing ovation. Yeah, yeah... you look so dumb right now, standing outside my house, trying to apologize your so ugly when you cry, please, just cut it out don't tell me your sorry cause your not, baby when I know your only sorry you got caught, but you put on quite a show really had me going but now it is time to go, curtains finally closing, that was quite a show very entertaining, but it is over now, go on take a bow..." Rihanna, Take A Bow

Perfect examples, #1 hits, girls sing them, live them. This is the new generation. Reach out be a mentor, show children a different way. Show a boy how to be a man, show a girl to be a lady. I was about floored the first time a guy opened the door for me. We need to reach out to the youth, in the meantime let the music heal! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 18, 2009 Time To Make A Statement! Words Are Powerful!

Good Morning! First I want to say I enabled the blog to allow anyone to make comments, not just registered users. I will continue to do this as long as they are respectful comments. As I stayed awake last night thinking with my trusty koosh ball, I wonder how can we, how can I, touch people. I have always thought words were the most powerful. No need for fighting because words will knock you down right on the spot. We are in a crisis situation. Our society as we know it is collapsing. We can turn our heads or face it. There is a documentary called "The Shadow Effect." Now there may be things in there that not all agree with. However, there are very vivid and effective points. I believe this is what America needs. To stop living in the shadow, to step into the light and be who they really are. There have been many stepping stones in my short life. There will be plenty more. As I try to put together my memoir from 2004 on, through my health struggles, the shackles the government put me in. The fight in myself, the awaking I had through random acts of kindness, how loss effected my life, how someone's death affected an entire community and yet I found happiness and success despite heartache and even more struggles. I live to give, share, and try to make a difference in this world. My voice will be heard. I also use to write poetry. Planning on trying songwriting. I am a little jealous that I have a singer/songwriter that is so gifted it makes me look like I am in Kindergarten.

This week I am going to share some of those songs! The ones that show significance in my life. I will do my best with the lyrics. I wish it was all Eric Clapton, wonderfully romantic and perfect music. However, we have come to an age were music, is a symbol of what is happening in life and throughout the world. I say never deprive a child of music. It is true music does heal. It helps you through those tough times. It brings you joy, brings you comfort during those hard times, and is your best friend speaking the words you can't. So this week I will share the music that has led me to heal! I am proud to say I am healing. Totally healed, well that is a life long battle for someone my age that has been thrown many curve balls. I hope you all enjoy. Some may not appeal to all age groups, but remember this is true. This is what is happening in this generation. We should be open minded and wake up and reach out. What can we do to help? I hope everyone is enjoying there weekend, I got a chance to stop by Town Hall Bowl, saw some old faces always great. A place that really changed my life. Enjoy! If the good Lord lets us we will meet again tomorrow morning!

Love,

Sarah

October 16, 2009 Pretty In PIlsen with Kristen Goede and Kate Boggiano!

Good Afternoon! I wanted to let everyone know that there will be another Pretty in Pilsen! Yes, I am very excited! Kristen Goede will be there with all her wonderful Jewels that I so love! Of course my friend and Designer Kate Boggiano will be there as well! She was just featured in Instyle magazine! Their style is wonderful and I encourage everyone to come! I went and it was another life changing event. Two more fabulous people in my life who make me look beautiful. We will be styling and socializing! I am already thinking Christmas! I know that they will be having deals going on. Here are the specifics! It is 6:00-9:00 pm on this Tuesday the 20th, at 2150 S. Canalport Ave. Chicago, IL 60608. Canalport Ave. is between Halsted and Cermak in the Pilsen neighborhood. If you RSVP to 1-866-388-3501 you will receive a free coupon! The event is free! I will be attending with a confirmed couple others! Hope to see you all there! Have a great weekend!

Sarah

October 16, 2009 Stressful Times!

Good Morning! Stressful times are among many of us. This is a time when we need to take a step back and say is this something we have control over. These are also hard times for some and just comes to show people need to pull together. This is the time to be reaching out and helping. I have problems just like everyone else. We can either be part of the problem or part of the solution. We have many opportunities through out the day to make that happen. Everyone knows my love for children. It is who I am. I have great patience and understanding for them. Through my own life experiences and my own childhood dreams, I can try to put it into action for a child. If you don't feel that way about children, reach out to a friend, or volunteer for animal rights. So much help is needed in this world, and we have an opportunity to make it happen and we should. People think that child abuse comes form low income parents with no education. When in fact it comes from parents or caregivers who are under extreme stress. They have no idea what they are doing to that child or how that child is taking it. It's not that this parent is a mean awful person, it is that they are under extreme stress. Not one person can change the world, that is why if we each do a little and give a little, we can work together. Build a team effort.

Times are hard, and I pray everyday. I know the Lord will provide for me. My situation isn't ideal, but then again is the majority of ours? Like my mentor's have told me, we are our own authors. We choose our lives. We choose our happiness. It is up to us to know what it is that makes us happy. I do want to touch on another local charity by me called family focus. If you go to www.family-focus.org you can find more information, or just google it. It is an organization I volunteered in when I took a sociology class. It is a great organization it helps families strengthen their families healthy development for their children. It offers after school programs, parenting education, parent to parent support groups, parent to child activities as well as a number of other things.

I started the good mornings to wish my friends a good day! It was then a motivation for me and my friends to stay positive and then it became a blog. There has been so much talk in the media regarding children and violence. It has always been there, we are just now really noticing it. It is a good thing we are. We have a whole generation we need to be investing in. We need to take care of ourselves as well. If we don't, we can't help those in need either. Well I hope everyone has a great day, and those here in Chicago, I pray too that the sun comes out soon! Make sure to enjoy something today, turn up the music because it does heal! Don't forget to be kind! Try again today to do something random.

Love,

Sarah

"All children wear the sign: 'I want to be important NOW!' Many of our juvenile delinquency problems arise because nobody reads the sign." Dan Pursuit

"A lot of dreams don't come true in life. If you can make somebody's dream come true, you should." Jameer Nelson

October 15, 2009 A New Realization

Good Afternoon! Everyday we wake up not knowing what is going to happen. Yesterday I went to pick up my favorite little person. We were in the store and my blackberry went off and it was Tiger Woods saying "Thanks for the add." Not only that but made a comment on a picture. I am not a golf person. I like to watch golf, because when Robert (my step-father) was sick all he watched was golf. I think it was just peaceful for him. I learned about it. It was the last thing we all watched before he died. Still to this day my mother and I watch golf games when they come on T.V. The other thing I loved especially about Tiger was he married a Nanny! Well to me that is first class. It wasn't a fashion model or a movie star. It was an everyday person. My love for children is deep. I always told myself I would never turn my head to a child in need. The one thing I always dreamed of was being a mother. Then life took it's course and I came to terms that it just wasn't going to happen.

Well I had Ashleigh overnight for her first overnight and it was a success. The joy it brings me, to watch her happy is unexplainable. This morning when we did our flash cards first, over cartoons, her choice by the way. Yes she is 3. Those who don't have facebook won't have a chance to see all the pictures.(Which of course are okayed by her mother my friend Heather) I watched her sleep and I thought, oh my Lord please help me. I am living a lie. I want children, I want to be a wife and a mother. I can't deny it. However, it is impossible for me to do without the right husband. I am lucky and blessed and fortunate to have a friend that lives with me, Blaq Fuego. She loves him and he is SO good with her. I never have to worry about anything. He is a natural. We're a team when I have her. I can't imagine doing it alone. I give my friend all the credit in the world. She is one of my closest friends who I love dearly! I would do anything for her. Everyone one asks how much do I get paid? I said get paid. I beg to take her. I love spending time with her. I love the everyday activities showing them things, teaching them, shopping for them and making them match! Playing games! It is like what I was meant to do! For me it is a privilege to have her for the day. To show her things, take her places. I am even more fortunate to have such a wonderful friend who loves her daughter so much that I know it hurts her to be away from her child and not able to do those things, but is happy that her daughter is happy. She has to provide for her, and it is what it is. She could be jealous and hold her child back but her true love for her daughter shines through. I take pictures, and communicate with her often. I like to think of us as a team. No matter what I do with Ashleigh, what I buy her, were I take her, her mommy is her life! I hope that eases some of your pain Heather. You are not just a great friend, COT, but a great mom as well. Trust me a lot has to do with when we are going to see mommy. A lot of our day revolves around mommy! When we buy a souvenir it's for mommy. When we take pictures it is to show mommy. That's when you know you are doing a great job! For those who don't think that they can't be important in the life of a child, you are sadly mistaken. Nothing brings me such joy.

So I come to everyone today asking for there prayers and guidance. Everyday I wake up and have no clue. Not saying I wouldn't take a job in an instant, but I realize the important things in life. I am 28 and consider myself very fortunate. Thank You Tiger, you made my day. You are a great example. We have people like Barack, Oprah, Tiger, Roscoe Orman, Angelina and Brad, Russell and Rev and Justine of course, Ann, Ryan, people of great influence doing wonderful things and being a great example for the public. I apologize for all those that hack into your personal lives. There are so many I know that could be great mentors, despite age. Reaching out to the youth, becoming involved. I have said it before, a seed was planted when I was young and it grew! That is why I spend so much time with the children and doing things for kids. My mom often says I am like my Aunt Terri and Aunt Beth who did not have children. See you don't realize the effect you may have on a child. Well speaking of which I must get back and attend to the wonderful princess that is in a beautiful outfit eating raisins watching Enchanted. I never knew McDreamy was in that! I should have paid more attention! LOL! Everyone have a great day, enjoy, laugh and be kind! Do something random and something good! Remember we all have a chance of making a difference! ( oh and my mom wanted me to add that I should become a real Nanny, like one that gets paid! Lol) She doesn't usually have much to say so I was impressed she wanted me to add that! LOL! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"morning by morning he dispenses his justice, and every new day he does not fail." Zephaniah 3:5

October 14, 2009 Sex, Love, and Inner Peace

Good Morning! Yes it is early. I am burning the midnight oil. Something that happens on occasion. Yes I said Sex, Love and Inner Peace. All three need balance. I say that to grab your attention. Sex being a main drive in our society, love as being a romantic relationship and peace being united throughout the world. When none are what I mean.

I am single by choice. I choose to be single. To be honest with you I thought I found my soul mate without having sex with him. We are so caught up in this world of illusion verses reality. We don't want to be alone, we have a desire and we will compromise to indulge that. Love doesn't have to be between a romantic relationship. Love can live in our souls for friends, relatives and people we care about. Finally peace. The peace I am referring to is the inner peace you find within yourself. Our biggest problem is finding that peace. Not worrying about how the world is going to react or if it is right or wrong. Living a life on what other people think is living a life of emptiness. Peace is going with your gut instinct. If I went with my gut let me tell you, my inner peace would have come a lot sooner. Once you find that inner peace, you find love for mankind and you are able to recognize true love for what it is and falling so in love with a person your heart pounds for and you can't imagine your life without them, then sex becomes the intimacy that binds you.

We have lost so much of this in our society. We have become selfish and so careless. It is time to love people, find our soul mates and live a happy and fulfilling life. Once we find our inner peace our life can continue and we will benefit society so much better. I am not great at quoting scripture, but I try to live my life the best I can. The way the Lord would want me too. I am reading Scriptures now, but it is how I apply it in every day life. I come to you early because I have to pick up again my favorite little girl. Spending time with her brings so much joy to me. That is what we should be focused on, the joy that comes to us. Who and what brings us that joy. Take it and run with it. Again this is it. Lets not focus our lives on what others think or want, that would be foolish and wasteful. I have learned to meditate and become one. Again I encourage everyone from the East Coast to the West Coast find something that motivates you, something that moves you. Make a difference. I know I want to leave this world knowing I did my best. I hope everyone has a great day! God Bless! Take time to smile and enjoy!

Love,

Sarah

"Beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and best." R. Turnbull

October 13, 2009 Finding Jobs

Good Morning! Sorry it is a little late today, our furnace doesn't work, and the cold hit hard! Even when I pulled out my trusty apple today it was a bit crisp! LOL! While first let me mention, I can't wait to have this day over with. It is my 3rd court day for traffic court. I was ordered to take a class 25 and alive. I am terrified of showing graphic pictures, I have anxiety attacks. I lost 2 people to car accidents this year and I never thought it would affect me this way. So lets all hope and pray the judge understands.

Finding jobs seems to be tough for people. I have yet to grasp that. I tell all my friends fill out an application. Go in speak to the manager, tell them why you want to work there and shake their hand. You have to follow up. You can't just fill out applications online and not follow up. Show them you want the job. For me it is finding out what I want. Doing what I enjoy, helping people, doing things for a good cause. One of my friends who has been very successful and been in the home building industry and is semi-retired, decided to volunteer for habitat for humanity. What a great cause. I think when finding a job you must find the motivation behind it. Why do you want to work.? There are jobs out there along with many other opportunities, you just have to have some direction and seek them out. Try googling habitat for humanity and see if that is a charity worth while for you.

I hope everyone has a great day, enjoy it, the sun is out and make sure to turn the music up! Make a difference in some one's life!

Love,

Sarah

"I have found if you love life, life will love you back." Arthur Rubentien

October 12, 2009 Good Morning! Wise Words!

Good Morning! I start off saying wise words. Yesterday I did lunch with a friend that reminded me to focus on the positive. While my book, which no doubt has the ability to be a New York Times Bestseller, has taken a backseat to other projects. The reason being is I didn't know how to go about a certain situation. I am a truly loving person. I mean no harm. However, my journey to this point has been amazing, jaw dropping, and not in the best light for some. So I go at it with grace and dignity to the best of my ability. It's funny that people can leave you high and dry when your down and out and shake your hand when your on top of the world. Despite that I can't help but truly care for all. I know there is good there. Some people have a wonderful heart and soul, however their head is just messed up. We will see how I approach that situation.

Through out the New Sarah Process along with speaking of charities, I am also exploring different religions. I know this is a hot topic among many. I am one that stands for humanity. I believe that many religions stand for the same thing and that is for humanity and to do good for others. Sometimes you will see me quote a prayer that is Buddhist, Islam, Muslim, Christian or so forth. I have many friends that are very spiritual, and I am not going to single them out. Part of being a peaceful nation is understanding all and coming together. My jaw dropped when I saw a tabloid saying that President Barack Obama met with A Muslim leader. I thought ooooh. Come on people. After 9/11 this country has become so religiously bias. God says to love and accept people. I am finding peace among the Buddhist faith. I believe in Jesus Christ however, the peacefulness for man kind, I believe is what Jesus wants us to live. One thing I want to make clear is that I am not preaching. I am in the same boat as everyone else. Here on Earth exploring trying to find the path to happiness and success just like everyone else. I am no better than anyone else, nor do I think anyone is better than anyone else.

So lets start our week on something positive, something good. I believe things happen for a reason. For all the bad has just made me stronger. I still suffer. I sit here in bed with my swimsuit on ready to hit the water. Each person has there own definition of success. To me making the world a better place and touching lives to me is a success. This is a new week and a new day and like I always say we don't have to be the person we were yesterday. If something doesn't feel right, don't do it. Go with heart. Go with your gut, it has only lead me to were I am today. I wish for more but I am so thankful for all I have. We must remember we are so much better off than many.

That leads me to the charity. D.E.F which is Diamond Empowerment Fund. "It is a non-profit international organization with the mission to raise money to support education initiatives that develop and empower economically disadvantaged people in African Nations were diamonds are a national resource." You can go to http://dimondempowerment.org to find out more details. A wonderful cause and many ways to help. One charity I wish I would have found sooner. Everyone have a great day, smile, laugh, don't forget the music and be kind!

Love,

Sarah

"We're drowning in information and starving for knowledge." Ruthford D Rodgers

October 11, 2009 Good Night

Good Night! Yes the week has come to an end! It has been a crazy one like always. We never know quite what is going to happen from day to day. Going over all the highlights of the week, it was an emotional one, Barack gets the Nobel Peace Prize and it has been a rocky ride for friends and family. We all have choices in life. We have to decide what it is we want and pursue it. We can't wait around hoping that it comes to us. The Economy is tough and holidays are coming. However, no need to stress out. If everyone takes a deep breath relaxes and realizes how blessed we are to have the things we do. Look at how advanced we are compared to third world countries. I know it is hard when this kid and that kid has an ipod. I love my ipod but they are just things. CD players are cheaper than ever and White Elephant gifts are funny and can make great memories. It was a great time at the zoo with my friends daughter, I love my time with her! I hope you all remember that as we go into this week and find some joy in your life. Turn on the music, hang with friends and family. I have to say my mother and I really bonded. I feel good to have both my mother and father's united support behind me. Well off to our next journey, I hope everyone has a good night and if the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

October 9, 2009 A DAY I WILL REMAIN SILENT!

Yes I cannot speak words today! I am so hurt and full of tears! All I ever wanted in life was to be a wife and a mom. To help people, to have the power to make a difference in people's lives. Today I cannot stop the tears from flowing. I do my best to stay as happy and optimistic as possible through all the curve balls that have been thrown at me. I do my best each day. I pray to the the Lord Jesus Christ with Buddhist beads. I keep them in my pocket reminding me he is with me. I believe in peace and love and all I hear is hate and greed. I read Rev Run's words of Wisdom today and it stated "You might as well tell the truth in life and get it over with. The ugly truth is always better than the dolled up lie." That rings so true. How can we be honest if we are not honest with ourselves? Some times things get misinterpreted or there is a miscommunication. Also there is that telephone game, hey someone hears something and says this, and all of a sudden people point fingers not really knowing both sides or the truth. The truth is we all have different interpretations and perspectives on body language and words. I have been so misrepresented and there has been plenty of lies told about me. However, those who know me, know who I truly am. However, we are all human and make mistakes. The Lord says to forgive and I forgive. I am probably one of the most accepting and forgiving people out there.

Honesty, that is so hard these days, look at the media! How honest is that! Tabloids! We live in such a dishonest world. The most sad thing about today is I hear critics downing President Obama for receiving the Nobel Peace Prize! Was it not less than a year ago Americans were in tears! Standing outside cheering him on! Hey do you want that job? Could you be a better president? Despite all politics aside, he is an articulate and wonderful man. He is one that touches people, inspires many. When that immediate gratification is not made people criticize. He is putting his best efforts on uniting people and creating peace. People start talking foreign policy, economics. Well people it's not about foreign policy or economics, it is about PEACE and uniting, and he does a damn good job! Low man on the totem poll wins an election! Well start helping! Do something for the better good of humanity! Not one person can change the circumstance were in. We all need to come together. He is one who is inspirational and motivational! Don't forget who he is as a person! He so deserves this award in my opinion. Everyone has the right to make there own choices in life. I chose to live a life of love and giving. We as a society spend so much time taring people down instead of helping them.

Again I am hurt and speechless to what our society has come to. We allow trivial things to get in our way of true happiness. We look at the outer shell and instead of the inner core. I know so many people that are not happy or couples that are not together do to those trivial things. In the long run it will do nothing but hurt them. I sit here today and I meditated and pray. I pray that I will somehow be able to touch someone's life. Be a part of making this world a better place, a happy place for all people. Honesty, comes from first looking in the mirror. For those that lie and do people wrong it will all come out in the wash. I have found that to be true. It use to eat me alive, scared to be honest and tell the truth. People didn't believe me. Well guess what, it all came out in the wash! Have a great weekend and don't forget to take a look in the mirror, I know I always need to!

October 9, 2009 Friday A Big Loss and A Big Lesson!

Good Morning! Well yesterday I learned that my cousin's grandmother, Grandma Scott passed away last week. I am so sorry for her loss. Also to my friend Jill and her family who loved her Grandmother so much. That is how I got to know her. They are such a close family. I loved her sense of humor, the fact she would always tell you what she thought, and she was so kind. I remember I had my favorite flip flops on, and they are velvet with a tiara that say "I am not the princess, I am the Queen." She said "You spent $40 on some thongs!" LOL! She telling Lois "No worries Lois this beer only has 60 calories!" Ha Ha! LOL! She told me to stop by, I never got the chance and I regret it. I spend so much time on the youth, we must concentrate also on the elderly. My Grandma is the one that told me, poor Grandma. I was balling! I didn't know about it. I was upset. I really wish I could have been there. I called my Grandma back because today is her Birthday, Happy Birthday Grandma, I lost count I think she is 82. Well she felt bad for not calling, and I said no worries. It just taught me to be me to be more mindful. We are going to dinner on Sunday. It makes me appreciate having her here even more.

It is a hard balance especially when we all have a lot going on. I do my best everyday to do what I can and that's all I can do. I again am so sorry Jill that I wasn't there. Time flies by an we lose touch. You were very lucky to have such a wonderful Grandmother, who was so thankful to enjoy your company and to see your children. She was a wonderful woman and will be missed greatly. I will pray for you and the family through these rough times. It comes to show that life is short and we must make the best of it. We can't beat ourselves up about it, but just try to be the best that we can and be a little more mindful and hope that people understand the true meaning of life. I leave you all with that today. There is more to announce, I know Painkiller Hotel is going to be playing at the Bottom Lounge tonight. If you get a chance you should go! Wonderful people with amazing music! Everyone have a great day, try to enjoy something and remember to do something kind and random, it will bring you joy!

Love,

Sarah

"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love.

Where there is injury, pardon.

Where there is doubt, faith.

Where there is darkness, light.

Where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console.

not so much to be understood as to understand.

not so much to be loved as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive.

it is pardoning that we are pardoned.

it is in dying that we awake to eternal life."

St. Francis of Assissi

October 8, 2009 Good Mornnig All the Single Parents Out There!

Good Morning! Sorry yesterday was a hectic day. I enjoy taking my friends daughter from time to time. She is a hard working mom that sometimes doesn't have the opportunity to do things with her daughter, and I love and enjoy being with her. Perfect fit! It was a great day. To the Zoo we went! Oh and that was after Gymboree and the store manager gave me an application and told me she would love to have me work there! LOL! What is so funny is I love that store, I am always there, and I have NO kids! LOL! I have 5 car seats, LOL! That just totally through me off guard.

I love taking kids and my friends kids to places showing them things spending time with them. I could volunteer for the Big Brother and Big Sister organization, which I may do, however, when I have so many kids around me I just reach out my hand. I have to say, I don't know how single parents do it, I know it would be very rough on me. Not having the support of the other person. I give single parents a lot of credit because it is not an easy task. It takes a lot of energy and love. It takes even more of a person for them to rely on others to know that there child is being taken care of well and is happy. So as far as charity or volunteering goes, start within your own circle, then branch out. There are many organizations like Big Brother and Big Sister organization and The Boys and Girls Club. There are so many things we can be doing. Plant seeds within children, because they will never forget, I never did!

Well yesterday was a wonderful day as I watched a child smiled, no one understands how much happiness that brings me. Children teach you things everyday. Everyday is a learning process. We must be open to learning, realizing we are human and make mistakes. All are stepping stones on our way to the next opportunity. Well I hope everyone has a great day, make sure to enjoy something and smile! Do something kind and random! Make a difference in someone's life!

Love,

Sarah

"Imperfect action is better than perfect inaction." Harry Truman

Good Morning Tuesday Octoer 6, 2006 Volunteering 101!

Good Morning! Wow! So much is happening around us, I would much rather be in Tibet living the simple life right now. The pressure, stress and the economy have really taken a toll on our emotion and mental well being. I highly suggest people find a way to relax and find comfort. I have found it through prayer. I by far would never push any religion on anyone. Whether it is listening to music or what ever, just let yourself release and calm down. Figure out what is it that will help you. I again suggest helping others. 6 little souls helped me find my purpose in life and that is what people should really be focusing on. We all have purpose. If you don't know what yours is than find it.

Again sticking to my new dedication to organizations in which people can help, I can first tell you of my own. When I was 14 I started volunteering for Fox Valley Special Recreation Association in North Aurora, which is now located in Aurora, IL. It provides recreational activities for those that have special needs. I then went on to be an Inclusion Aide for them which I was called in to help assist within local Park Districts to "include" them in activities and be there to help them as well. I did a great job. I was hired at age 14 and as well by a special family with a son who suffers from Autism. From there I was then hired by the Park District.

Volunteering can be so rewarding and let you know if there is a field you want to pursue. It opens doors of opportunities for jobs as well. However, it will give you the most rewarding feeling as well. You will come away from that experience having helped someone, and believe me, you will be the one feeling the benefits. There are many local organizations out there that have similar programs. Ask your local Park District and they can guide you. You can also can go to a great cause founded by a wonderful woman in 1963, Eunice Kennedy Shriver, John F. Kennedy's Sister. The Special Olympics! You can go to www.specialolympics.org to volunteer. A great cause! I leave you today as more of a spiritual person. For me to be happy I have found it is believing and being happy. I find that through meditation and prayer. I push no religion on anyone. I leave you all with a prayer that I believe serves all religions and all HUMANITY! Have a great day! Do something kind today and try doing something random. You never know!

Love,

Sarah

A Prayer I found that I believe serves everyone!

May I become at all times, both now and forever

A protector for those without protection

A guide for those who have lost their way

A ship for those with oceans to cross

A bridge for those with rivers to cross

A sanctuary for those in danger

A lamp for those without light

A place of refuge for those who lack shelter

and a servant to all in need.

-Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama

October 5, 2009, The New Good Morning, Manic Monday!

Good Morning! Yes this is the new Good Mornings! First off I must say, Go Knox! Even Packer fans have to give him some credit, it looked like a Don Beebe running out there! Hey Chicago, maybe we can win the Superbowl this year? You never know. It is a Manic Monday because yesterday I was all set on what I was going to do for today and then everything changed last night!So I am now going to encourage and list different organizations, stories and websites that are informative and maybe of interest to those looking to make a difference.

I am a believer that in this society, in America, we never truly figure out who we really are. We are told how we should be instead of figuring that out for ourselves. I believe in God and Jesus Christ. I also know Buddhist prayers bring me joy and purpose. I don't have to go talk about Jesus or God, because I hope I live it everyday. Now I am no Saint, and I make plenty of mistakes. However, I try my best to be kind, selfless and do the best job I can. Tomorrow I will list organizations, today I ask something different.

I ask that everyone, go back through my Good Mornings, or read an inspirational book, and remember to be honest with yourself. Really ask yourself what is it that will make you happy. If you had a vision of yourself happy, what do you picture? Then I say go for it. It is not an easy task, I stumble at times, especially in our society, but I realized that in order to help people or myself I have to be honest with myself. If I am not happy or healthy how can I help others. What then is my purpose here on Earth? I am right along with everyone else still figuring things out, but spending everyday learning what I like. Don't worry if your different. Again like I said before, I am not a Cookie Cutter. The site I saw that really hit home that others saw what I saw was www.agapelive.com from a facebook friend Deborah Deras. I encourage again everyone to take a look at this. I hope you all have a wonderful day, turn up the music and enjoy!

Love,

Sarah

"It's never to late to be what you might have been." George Elliot