October 30, 2009 "Taking a Deeper Look"

Good Morning! Wow what a week! This week I took a deeper look at my life and seeing what direction I am heading. Although we can plan it is up to the Lord where I end up. However, trying to make decisions on certain things at times were difficult I got through it. We had a wonderful motivational video, thanks Beth, that touched everyone. A father's love for his son and a heartwarming story that lead to tears. It was amazing. I had my 'If you could choose a career for me," which I found enlightening.

Yesterday I posted a music video by Martina McBride called God's Will. It is sad no doubt. I cried to that video for years and then I found the true meaning of that video. Children teach us things everyday. The Lord puts people in our lives for a reason. You take the negative or take the positive. She was a woman just like me, been "Wounded, Jaded, Loved and Hated until she found God's Will. He lived selflessly and new God and loved. Something any parent would want. He changed her life. While sad, things happen in life and we learn from them, we can cry or take something away from that experience.

I believe in God and I believe in the power of prayer. It has changed my life. There is no doubt about that. Some understand it and some don't and that's ok. I am still learning everyday like the rest of us, making mistakes like the rest of us, and I am no saint. I try to do my best everyday to help those in need and live selflessly. I just hope that I do leave that mark on the world. I am going to leave with a scripture I found. "...I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power....to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ...." Ephesians 3:17.18 With that being said I hope everyone has a safe weekend, do something kind and of course something random. I just published " Life Is A Cup Of Coffee on Facebook. Very Inspirational! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 29th, 2009 "A Better Day Is Coming"

Good Morning! Yes for those on the west coast it is still night but here in midwest it is almost 1am. It has been a long day. I had my favorite little person today wasn't feeling well and neither was I. So we watched movies slept and went to the store. Not the most productive or what was planned. She is asleep now on her 2nd sleep over and has to get up for preschool in the morning. I realized I am more and more like Kate Gosselin. I sat there and went through what she was going to were, matched everything to a "T" and then pulled out the gallon size hair bows and her black Mary Janes.

I had a couple of things I really needed to do that I didn't get to do so it set me back. I give it up to all the single mothers out there. I am exhausted. I am waiting on the last load of laundry and I knew I wouldn't have time in the morning to write because I have to get up and get Ashleigh ready and off to the gym I go. From there on it is everything I didn't get to today. I can only imagine the stress of working single mothers. So in hope I pray that tomorrow I have the energy to attack all the tasks that need to be done and come home with a smile on my face and a sense of accomplishment. I think that is the main things people really need to feel fulfilled other than having the Lord in there life, is a sense of purpose and accomplishment. With out those we become lost. Well I leave you all to have a great day, remember to take time out for you and enjoy the little things in life and cherish the moments!

Love,

Sarah

Painkiller Hotel Oh Yeah!

Yes another good morning, there is so much going on to write about now, it is hard to put things into one blog! Painkiller Hotel is a group that is a rock/alternative/pop group, at least that is how I would characterize it. They will be playing at Bally Doyal this Friday Night, come in costume 28 W New York St. in Aurora. It starts at 9 pm! If you wear a costume you get entered in a drawing for a free autographed guitar from PKH! 21+ and it's a free event. I am going and want everyone to come and join me. If you are in chicago take the train and I will pick you up! Fun Times to be had. (Oh yeah and it is on the same street as the Casino!)

The other great news as of today you can purchase Painkiller Hotel CD's through out the Chicagoland area at Best buy and at some select Borders! I highly suggest getting one. Great music and great people. Lets all go out and have some fun! Eat, Drink and be Merry! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 27, 2009 "My Confessions"

Good Morning! Happy Birthday Laura!! You think I would let that one pass! A wonderful woman who deserves all God's blessings! Much love to you my friend. Enjoy your day! May I say yesterday was the best day for me on Facebook! Thank You Beth for sharing that wonderfully inspiring video. It made my day. I posted a profile question what occupation would you see me best at. The responses were very eye opening. We are our worst critics. I got mostly Journalist/writer, one CEO, couple Nurses, Event Planner working with senior citizens and children because of my patience and being able to communicate well. Another Event Planner something in fashion (I like that one.) Then came the one from my friend who happens to be my old boss, Heather she said "you have so much to give. I would say your occupation would have to be something with children. You watch Ashleigh for me 1 x a week and you are amazing at it. You have plenty of guidance with her, I couldn't ask for anything more. You are a wonderful person and it shows in everything you do. No matter what occupation or were you end up I know you would bring something to it that opens so many peoples' eyes." Wow thank you Heather I am flattered and I love the fact you trust me with your daughter. Your a great mom as well!

Truth is for those who don't know by now, I had plastic surgery after losing a lot of weight and got sick. With my health still fragile, meaning, I need to stay at a steady pace which is hard for me, because I like the fast pace and I want to do everything, I am now looking at getting back into work. I do what I can for people when I can. I am very generous and giving. I would love to write like this everyday and get paid. I love to inspire people, write, interact with people and I love children.

The one occupation that I hide from and my confession is that I have always wanted to be is a wife and a mother. I took myself off all my medications for two full weeks, it was hard, but having a good supporting husband I could do it. I would love to write and I am writing as well. But, to see that people actually read what I write was wonderful. Actually right now my dream job is to write and work along side of my friend Kate Boggiano. or Aka Kate Coxworth. I love fashion now because of her and Kristen and could write on the side. Yes I love the fashion industry, or I would love to be a part-time Nanny. I love children. It's not being a doctor or a lawyer but it is who I am. I have a good work ethic and I love to build things and watch them be accomplished as well. If you don't have facebook, I urge you to get one. If you don't want your name to be known, go under another name. It is a great networking tool. We share ideas, dovetail things, meet people all over the world. To me that is great. One thing is for sure I want to leave this world knowing I made a difference in someone's life and I left a stamp on the world! I urge everyone who is out of work, or even disabled, volunteer help someone, it gives you such purpose. I have to say by helping people and a wonderful medical team, it has gotten me to were I am today. Do I still have bad days yes, but I really don't mention them. I remember looking at wall paper thinking it was going to be the last thing I was going to see before I die. So in comparison, I am blessed! Have a great day! Enjoy, and do something wonderful and random!

Love,

Sarah

"I CAN do all things through Him that strengthens me." Philippians 4:13 ( for those who watched the video, that is what was said at the end, nothing like being inspired.)

October 26, 2009 "Teamwork"

Good Morning! Teamwork, is foundation of many successful things such as, businesses, households, sport's teams and many other projects. I have a cube that sets next to me that reads "Teamwork is the ability to work together toward a common vision. The ability to direct individual accomplishment toward organizational objectives. It is the fuel that allows common people to attain uncommon results." If we take a second and reflect on that, we realize how true that is.

Foundations I would like to again recognize are D.E.F. (Diamond Empowerment Foundation) which is "a non-profit international organization with the mission to raise money to support education initiatives that develop and empower economically disadvantaged people in African nations where diamonds are a natural resource." Right now they are getting ready for a big event, Dallas on the Rocks, which you can find more about if you go to www.diamondempowerment.org. It will also lead you to the green bracelet which you can purchase which is another way to help as well. I thought at first they were really expensive. They are a $125 plus shipping and handling, but make good gifts and go towards a great cause.

A new foundation that I found which I am quite impressed with is the Tiger Woods foundation.

The foundation is geared towards helping children and being that helping hand. There goal is "achieving goals and reaching dreams in there nationwide character development program." They have a Tiger Woods learning center, they also offer grants and scholarships. It is truly an amazing foundation. If I could put a foundation together honestly, this is the foundation I would put together. I always made a promise in my life not to turn my head to a child in need. That is exactly what he is doing. Excellent job! You can go to www.tigerwoodsfoundation.org for more details, I urge everyone to do so! Very impressive!

Well I hope everyone has a great day! Smile, love and be kind. Again try something random! I have spoke about getting involved in something, whether it is helping a neighbor or an organization or even a friend in need. We are such a selfish society and we really do have so much to give, even if we don't think we do. All those that are unemployed, go volunteer. Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"And so, my fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country." John F. Kennedy (Those words and his legacy still live on today.)

October 23, 2009 "Sorting out your friends"

Good Evening! There comes a time when it is time to sort out your friends. A friendship takes two people meeting both ways. The phone works both ways. We all live busy lives, and some weeks are crazy, but we know who are real and true. I know I am so kind hearted, I have been taken advantage of many times. However it is time to cut the cord. I deserve good friends that appreciate me and who want to be around me. Those who don't , I am not going to bat for. It is a new conclusion I have come to, that I think in turn it will make me a happier person. I encourage everyone to do the same, really evaluate your friends. We all know friends are the family we make along the way! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 22,2009 "Encore"

Yes the encore! Music Does Heal! Some may not quite understand why I chose to put up music lyrics this week but it dawned on me. Music is so powerful. The melody, the words. Everyone likes music! Whether it is instrumental, R & B, Hip-Hop, Jazz, Pop, Country, blue grass, they all have a statement. I saw a friend wearing a shirt that says music heals! It's interesting because people will be like oh that's country I don't listen to that, without even knowing what it is about.

Music does heal! It makes us dance, laugh, and make great memories, the things that really matter. We all have a favorite song, or a song that brings back those memories. It comforts us when were sad, relaxes us when were tense. It is an art. I am eclectic, I enjoy feeling. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in the rhythm or the melody we don't actually listen to the words. Words are powerful. People make assumptions not even knowing. I don't know much about the music industry other than I have a musical genius that is my friend. Blaq Fuego singer/songwriter.

These past 5 years have been quite a journey. The past year even more so. I figured out who I am. What I like, what I want. Who cares what people think of you, or trying to live up to being number one! Because at the end of the day all that matters is that your happy. I believe in love. Lust is a truly powerful thing, but once your grounded within your self you will know when you find love. Love has nothing to do with material objects, money or looks. It's how that person makes you feel. I say I know I am in love when all I care about is a shack food and water and the man that I love.

I watch our society struggle on materialism, seriously just melting down. So busy trying to keep up appearances. I am the first to say I love nice things. However, they are just things, you have to be willing to drop those things at any moment and not base your life around that. Huge problem. We need to come together, reach out to one another, because truly we have so much in common. Be true to yourself. Be honest to yourself. Music is another way of helping cope with that. I did some editing on my profile with my blog. I believe in doing good for others. I believe in good people helping other good people. One day I felt the holy spirit within me, it has never left. I find calmness and understanding when I read the bible or even from reading Buddhist prayers. We fight about religion and race when all that matters is humanity. Stop pointing fingers, and stop being afraid of other religions because most of them add up to the same thing, doing good for others and humanity. Things can happen, we can make them happen, if we try hard enough. Just like it took a couple dollars here and there for Barack's campaign fund, it takes just a couple minutes or an hour to make a difference in our society. It proves by that last passage it can work, it will take time, but it will come!

Well more to chat about tomorrow, I hope everyone had a great day, feel free to leave comments, you no longer have to be a user to leave a comment. Good Night! If the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

October 22, 2009 "The Grand Finally!"

Here is the last set of three music pieces I put together. I did this for a reason. I find them empowering and motivating. I saved the best for last! I will publish an Encore blog explain the deep meaning of why I chose to do this. To some this makes sense, to others they could careless. I hope by reading my encore, people will go back and read the past weeks. We started with Lust and heartbreak and leave with Love and Empowerment !

If your out there, we can take an ordinary day and make it worth while, yes we can!

"If you hear this message wherever you stand. Calling every woman, calling every man, we're the generation that can't afford to wait the future started yesterday, we are already late. We be looking for a song to sing, search for a melody, search for someone to lead. We be looking for the world to change if you feel the same go on and say it, if your out there sing along with me....John Legend, If Your Out There

"If I had one wish I wouldn't ask for Monday, I wouldn't ask for fame. I wouldn't ask for the power to make this world to change. If I could have that one thing that one thing that I would chose, would be one more ordinary day with you...." Nick Lachey, Ordinary Day

" Yes we can, Yes we can, to opportunity to and prosperity, heal this nation and repair this world. Yes we can! Yes we Can, we know the battle ahead will be long always remember that no matter what obstacles are standing in our way nothing could stand in the middle of millions of voices calling for change, we want change, we want change we want change,.........There has never been anything false about hope.... Podcast during President Obama's election, found under Alice Klimkloski, Will I Am rings a bell with me as well! There was a video on utube.

So we started out thinking of ourselves wrapped up in unhealthy relationships, in which a majority of us have this day and age. Instead of waiting on the world to change, we asked if anyone was out there come join us. Lust is a difficult temptation. How do you define love? My friend said today, what is that you look for in a guy, I said personality and intellect. I define love as if you got rid of all material objects and forgot about what other people think and that person makes you so happy you want to laugh and spend everyday with them and look forward to seeing them, then you have found love. It's a little more complex. Then we end it with a podcast I had from U-Tube video advertising for then Barack Obama. Millions of voices can make a difference, however, like he said it is going to be a long journey, don't forget that. Change doesn't happen overnight. Music is an art. Some love the melody, and judge by Genre without knowing what the words are! I hope that got my message across. I will be publishing more about that in my Encore!

October 22, 2009 "The Light comes on"

The light begins to come in as I go through the next three songs that I find extremely inspiring. You most likely will be seeing two more blogs today as I attach this whole crazy process together. It is hard to communicate music without the lyrics, I understand, but there is a reason for my madness.

I had a voice in my head that left my page unwritten until I decided to live like I was dying!

"The war has come to pace and we lost everything we had and don't even understand who I am anymore. But the voice in my head is calling me back, is calling me back....Painkiller Hotel, Voice In My Head

"Staring at the blank page before you, open up the dirty window let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find reaching, for something in the distance so close you can almost taste it, release your inhibitions feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you only you can let no one else, no one else can speak the words on your list put yourself in words unspoken, live your life with with your arms wide open....Natasha Bedingfield, Unwritten

"He said I was in my early 40's with a lot of life before me and a moment came and stopped me on a dime. I spent most of the next days looking at the x-rays talking about the options and talking about sweet time. I asked him when it sank in this may be the real in hows it hit you when you get that kind of news, man, what you do, he said, I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain Climbing, I went 2.7 seconds on a bull and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying and someday I hope you get the chance to live like your dying!" Tim McGraw Live Like your dying

All these songs are songs I love and cherish! I have a very eclectic taste. It wasn't long ago I was so sick I thought I was going to die, confined to a bed and very limited. Imagine being a high functioning person and unable to do things. People that know my story, about the weight loss, the plastic surgery and then the weight gain, and my health struggles often say "I bet you wish you never had that plastic surgery." I say "no, that surgery saved my life." I wouldn't be the person that I am today. I have struggles but I know what life is about and how precious it is. Fortunately I was in my early 20's! I am blessed.

Love,

Sarah

October 21, 2009 Good Afternoon Pretty in Pilsen

Yes, last night was Pretty in Pilsen of course! Great designers Kristen Goede of objects D' Envy that was there with her magnificent jewels. I love being covered in her jewels, they make a woman feel gorgeous! Then of course we had the fabulous Kate Baggiano with her stunning new collection which I got a sneak peak of the rain coat that I am dying to have! Her work speaks for itself! It is hard work owning your own business especially in the clothing industry but she has done very well. Still as wonderful as always! I love buying clothes and Jewelry from good people. It is about good people supporting other good people. I was introduced to another fabulous design team Crescendo Apparel. They do pants skirts and wraps. Let me tell you the wraps are fabulous! It was a great evening I helped Kate close up shop. I just saw Crescendo Apparel recently in Michigan Avenue Magazine, great magazine all with local designers and the social circle around Chicago. Chicago designers have so much to offer. Well you can find Objects D'Envy at www.objectsdenvy.com and Kate Baggiano at www.katebaggiano.com and of course Crescendo Apparel at www.crescendoapparel.com. It is fun to mix it up with wonderful local designers that have so much talent. Beautiful things that are made with good quality. Have a great day! Cheers!

Sarah

October 21, 2009 "relaxing"

Good Morning this will be my first of two today! I will be writing later about the fabulous night at Pretty in Pilsen with the wonderful designers, in which I just caught at the end of the night and almost missed. Good thing I didn't. Now lets go on and let the music heal! These songs make me have butterflies in my stomach and make me want to dance around the room or open the sunroof on that beautiful day.

You're Beautiful On Your Wedding Day With A Pocket Full of Sunshine!

"My life is brilliant, my life is brilliant my love is pure. I saw an angel of that I am sure she smiled at me on the subway she was with another man, but I won't lose any sleep on that because I have a plan. Your beautiful, Your beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place and I don't know what to do because I will never be with you." James Blunt, You're Beautiful

"So much for love I guess I have been wronged but it's alright cause I'm moving on, I've got my car all packed with cassette tapes and sweaters loose change and cheap cigarettes and I'm gonna drive through the hills put my hand out the window and sing until I run out of words. I'm stop by every truck stop and make small talk with every waiters and truck driving men. I'm going to fall asleep in the backseat with no one around but me and my friends! It's going be so great! It's going to be just like my wedding day! Yeah I had enough of love its feel good to give up some good to be good to myself and I am going to get on the highway with no destination in vision in mind I am going to drive to the ocean and go skinny dipping and give kisses to Venus and Mars.....Rosie Thomas Wedding Day

"I've a got a pocket got a pocket full of sunshine I got a love that is mine its all I know,oh oh do what you want but your never gonna break me the sticks and stones you're never gonna shake I know, take me away to me a secret place a sweet escape take me away, take me way to better days, take me away for a holiday. Natasha Bedingfield, Pocketful of Sunshine

These songs I find again as a release and good vibes and rhythm that helps bring out the smile, relaxing part of you to repair and come to terms with who you are and what you stand for. It is all a process. A hard one at that. Well we will meet later on today and I will let you know about last nights events! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 20, 2009 "Good Mourning"

The mourning over the broken heart. Yes it happens to all of us. That is the thing there are many of these breaks ups (usually) and life must go on. So how do we do that? Remember music touches many in different ways, we are working our way up!

You'll be thinking of me, waiting on the world to change after I knock you down.

"I woke up early one morning around 4 am with the moon shining bright as the headlights over the interstate, I pulled the covers over my head trying to catch sleep but thoughts of us just keeping me awake, ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms I been trying my best to get along. That's ok there is nothing left to say, take your records take your freedom, take your memories I don't need them take your space and your reasons, but you'll think of me, take your cat but leave my sweater, but we have nothing left to weather a matter in fact I will feel a whole lot better, but you will think of me." Keith Urban, You'll Think of Me

"Me and all my friends we're all misunderstood, they say we stand for nothing else they say we never could. Now we see everything that is going wrong with the world and all those who lead it we just feel like we don't have the means to rise up and beat it. So we keep waiting, waiting on the world to change we keep on waiting, waiting on the world change. It is hard to beat the system when were at a distance so we keep waiting, waiting on the world to change." John Mayer Waiting on the World to Change

"I never thought I would never be in love like this when I look at you my mind goes on a trip, and you came in knocked me on my face it was like the memories but I already won first place. I never thought I would fall for you as hard as I did how you had me thinking about our life, our house our, kids every morning I look at you and smile, then boy you came around and you knocked me down, knocked me down, sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when knocks you down." Keri Hilson, Kanye West, and Ne-Yo

Well as the music always heals, it brings back memories. Waiting on the world to change was before President Barack Obama's election. Now what are we doing? Losing a lover, is it love or lust? The music brings us to that place, it's always that song. I am working my way up, there is a mission through all of this. We can't let a lost love or lover bring us down, we must rise, because there will be plenty more. When I was in high school I wrote a poem about a boy being a bottle of scotch. You know how many bottles of scotch I have had since then. There are always new days and new people. You will know when it is right, if it's not right, it's just not right. We pick ourselves up and move on. Everyone have a great day!

Love,

Sarh

October 19, 2009 Music Heals "Lust"

Music does heal through all stages of life. I am starting from the bottom and working are way up this week. I wish it could all be wonderful and joyous however, it is just not real anymore.

If your this kind of boy you send us girls to rehab, so take a bow!

"If I were a boy I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl. I swear I would be a better man. I'd listen to her cause I know how it hurts when you loose the one you wanted he has taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed. If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone tell everyone it's broke so they think that I was sleeping alone. I put myself first and make the rules as I go, cause I know that she would be faithful waiting for me to come home. If I were a boy, I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl , I swear I would be a better man. I listen to her cause I know how it hurts, when you lose the one you wanted and he has taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed. It's a little to late for you to come back say its just a mistake think I forgive you like that, if you think I would wait for you, you think wrong, but your just a boy you don't understand..." Beyonce, If I were a boy

"It's gonna to take a miracle to bring me back and your the one to blame, and now I feel like oh your the reason I am thinking I don't want to smoke on those cigarettes no more. I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking I should never let you enter my door next time you wanna go on leave, I should just let you go on and do it, now I'm using like I need. It's time to check into rehab because your my disease, it's like I checked into rehab..." Rihanna, Rehab

"How about a round of applause yeah standing ovation. Yeah, yeah... you look so dumb right now, standing outside my house, trying to apologize your so ugly when you cry, please, just cut it out don't tell me your sorry cause your not, baby when I know your only sorry you got caught, but you put on quite a show really had me going but now it is time to go, curtains finally closing, that was quite a show very entertaining, but it is over now, go on take a bow..." Rihanna, Take A Bow

Perfect examples, #1 hits, girls sing them, live them. This is the new generation. Reach out be a mentor, show children a different way. Show a boy how to be a man, show a girl to be a lady. I was about floored the first time a guy opened the door for me. We need to reach out to the youth, in the meantime let the music heal! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

October 18, 2009 Time To Make A Statement! Words Are Powerful!

Good Morning! First I want to say I enabled the blog to allow anyone to make comments, not just registered users. I will continue to do this as long as they are respectful comments. As I stayed awake last night thinking with my trusty koosh ball, I wonder how can we, how can I, touch people. I have always thought words were the most powerful. No need for fighting because words will knock you down right on the spot. We are in a crisis situation. Our society as we know it is collapsing. We can turn our heads or face it. There is a documentary called "The Shadow Effect." Now there may be things in there that not all agree with. However, there are very vivid and effective points. I believe this is what America needs. To stop living in the shadow, to step into the light and be who they really are. There have been many stepping stones in my short life. There will be plenty more. As I try to put together my memoir from 2004 on, through my health struggles, the shackles the government put me in. The fight in myself, the awaking I had through random acts of kindness, how loss effected my life, how someone's death affected an entire community and yet I found happiness and success despite heartache and even more struggles. I live to give, share, and try to make a difference in this world. My voice will be heard. I also use to write poetry. Planning on trying songwriting. I am a little jealous that I have a singer/songwriter that is so gifted it makes me look like I am in Kindergarten.

This week I am going to share some of those songs! The ones that show significance in my life. I will do my best with the lyrics. I wish it was all Eric Clapton, wonderfully romantic and perfect music. However, we have come to an age were music, is a symbol of what is happening in life and throughout the world. I say never deprive a child of music. It is true music does heal. It helps you through those tough times. It brings you joy, brings you comfort during those hard times, and is your best friend speaking the words you can't. So this week I will share the music that has led me to heal! I am proud to say I am healing. Totally healed, well that is a life long battle for someone my age that has been thrown many curve balls. I hope you all enjoy. Some may not appeal to all age groups, but remember this is true. This is what is happening in this generation. We should be open minded and wake up and reach out. What can we do to help? I hope everyone is enjoying there weekend, I got a chance to stop by Town Hall Bowl, saw some old faces always great. A place that really changed my life. Enjoy! If the good Lord lets us we will meet again tomorrow morning!

Love,

Sarah

October 16, 2009 Pretty In PIlsen with Kristen Goede and Kate Boggiano!

Good Afternoon! I wanted to let everyone know that there will be another Pretty in Pilsen! Yes, I am very excited! Kristen Goede will be there with all her wonderful Jewels that I so love! Of course my friend and Designer Kate Boggiano will be there as well! She was just featured in Instyle magazine! Their style is wonderful and I encourage everyone to come! I went and it was another life changing event. Two more fabulous people in my life who make me look beautiful. We will be styling and socializing! I am already thinking Christmas! I know that they will be having deals going on. Here are the specifics! It is 6:00-9:00 pm on this Tuesday the 20th, at 2150 S. Canalport Ave. Chicago, IL 60608. Canalport Ave. is between Halsted and Cermak in the Pilsen neighborhood. If you RSVP to 1-866-388-3501 you will receive a free coupon! The event is free! I will be attending with a confirmed couple others! Hope to see you all there! Have a great weekend!

Sarah

October 16, 2009 Stressful Times!

Good Morning! Stressful times are among many of us. This is a time when we need to take a step back and say is this something we have control over. These are also hard times for some and just comes to show people need to pull together. This is the time to be reaching out and helping. I have problems just like everyone else. We can either be part of the problem or part of the solution. We have many opportunities through out the day to make that happen. Everyone knows my love for children. It is who I am. I have great patience and understanding for them. Through my own life experiences and my own childhood dreams, I can try to put it into action for a child. If you don't feel that way about children, reach out to a friend, or volunteer for animal rights. So much help is needed in this world, and we have an opportunity to make it happen and we should. People think that child abuse comes form low income parents with no education. When in fact it comes from parents or caregivers who are under extreme stress. They have no idea what they are doing to that child or how that child is taking it. It's not that this parent is a mean awful person, it is that they are under extreme stress. Not one person can change the world, that is why if we each do a little and give a little, we can work together. Build a team effort.

Times are hard, and I pray everyday. I know the Lord will provide for me. My situation isn't ideal, but then again is the majority of ours? Like my mentor's have told me, we are our own authors. We choose our lives. We choose our happiness. It is up to us to know what it is that makes us happy. I do want to touch on another local charity by me called family focus. If you go to www.family-focus.org you can find more information, or just google it. It is an organization I volunteered in when I took a sociology class. It is a great organization it helps families strengthen their families healthy development for their children. It offers after school programs, parenting education, parent to parent support groups, parent to child activities as well as a number of other things.

I started the good mornings to wish my friends a good day! It was then a motivation for me and my friends to stay positive and then it became a blog. There has been so much talk in the media regarding children and violence. It has always been there, we are just now really noticing it. It is a good thing we are. We have a whole generation we need to be investing in. We need to take care of ourselves as well. If we don't, we can't help those in need either. Well I hope everyone has a great day, and those here in Chicago, I pray too that the sun comes out soon! Make sure to enjoy something today, turn up the music because it does heal! Don't forget to be kind! Try again today to do something random.

Love,

Sarah

"All children wear the sign: 'I want to be important NOW!' Many of our juvenile delinquency problems arise because nobody reads the sign." Dan Pursuit

"A lot of dreams don't come true in life. If you can make somebody's dream come true, you should." Jameer Nelson

October 15, 2009 A New Realization

Good Afternoon! Everyday we wake up not knowing what is going to happen. Yesterday I went to pick up my favorite little person. We were in the store and my blackberry went off and it was Tiger Woods saying "Thanks for the add." Not only that but made a comment on a picture. I am not a golf person. I like to watch golf, because when Robert (my step-father) was sick all he watched was golf. I think it was just peaceful for him. I learned about it. It was the last thing we all watched before he died. Still to this day my mother and I watch golf games when they come on T.V. The other thing I loved especially about Tiger was he married a Nanny! Well to me that is first class. It wasn't a fashion model or a movie star. It was an everyday person. My love for children is deep. I always told myself I would never turn my head to a child in need. The one thing I always dreamed of was being a mother. Then life took it's course and I came to terms that it just wasn't going to happen.

Well I had Ashleigh overnight for her first overnight and it was a success. The joy it brings me, to watch her happy is unexplainable. This morning when we did our flash cards first, over cartoons, her choice by the way. Yes she is 3. Those who don't have facebook won't have a chance to see all the pictures.(Which of course are okayed by her mother my friend Heather) I watched her sleep and I thought, oh my Lord please help me. I am living a lie. I want children, I want to be a wife and a mother. I can't deny it. However, it is impossible for me to do without the right husband. I am lucky and blessed and fortunate to have a friend that lives with me, Blaq Fuego. She loves him and he is SO good with her. I never have to worry about anything. He is a natural. We're a team when I have her. I can't imagine doing it alone. I give my friend all the credit in the world. She is one of my closest friends who I love dearly! I would do anything for her. Everyone one asks how much do I get paid? I said get paid. I beg to take her. I love spending time with her. I love the everyday activities showing them things, teaching them, shopping for them and making them match! Playing games! It is like what I was meant to do! For me it is a privilege to have her for the day. To show her things, take her places. I am even more fortunate to have such a wonderful friend who loves her daughter so much that I know it hurts her to be away from her child and not able to do those things, but is happy that her daughter is happy. She has to provide for her, and it is what it is. She could be jealous and hold her child back but her true love for her daughter shines through. I take pictures, and communicate with her often. I like to think of us as a team. No matter what I do with Ashleigh, what I buy her, were I take her, her mommy is her life! I hope that eases some of your pain Heather. You are not just a great friend, COT, but a great mom as well. Trust me a lot has to do with when we are going to see mommy. A lot of our day revolves around mommy! When we buy a souvenir it's for mommy. When we take pictures it is to show mommy. That's when you know you are doing a great job! For those who don't think that they can't be important in the life of a child, you are sadly mistaken. Nothing brings me such joy.

So I come to everyone today asking for there prayers and guidance. Everyday I wake up and have no clue. Not saying I wouldn't take a job in an instant, but I realize the important things in life. I am 28 and consider myself very fortunate. Thank You Tiger, you made my day. You are a great example. We have people like Barack, Oprah, Tiger, Roscoe Orman, Angelina and Brad, Russell and Rev and Justine of course, Ann, Ryan, people of great influence doing wonderful things and being a great example for the public. I apologize for all those that hack into your personal lives. There are so many I know that could be great mentors, despite age. Reaching out to the youth, becoming involved. I have said it before, a seed was planted when I was young and it grew! That is why I spend so much time with the children and doing things for kids. My mom often says I am like my Aunt Terri and Aunt Beth who did not have children. See you don't realize the effect you may have on a child. Well speaking of which I must get back and attend to the wonderful princess that is in a beautiful outfit eating raisins watching Enchanted. I never knew McDreamy was in that! I should have paid more attention! LOL! Everyone have a great day, enjoy, laugh and be kind! Do something random and something good! Remember we all have a chance of making a difference! ( oh and my mom wanted me to add that I should become a real Nanny, like one that gets paid! Lol) She doesn't usually have much to say so I was impressed she wanted me to add that! LOL! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"morning by morning he dispenses his justice, and every new day he does not fail." Zephaniah 3:5

October 14, 2009 Sex, Love, and Inner Peace

Good Morning! Yes it is early. I am burning the midnight oil. Something that happens on occasion. Yes I said Sex, Love and Inner Peace. All three need balance. I say that to grab your attention. Sex being a main drive in our society, love as being a romantic relationship and peace being united throughout the world. When none are what I mean.

I am single by choice. I choose to be single. To be honest with you I thought I found my soul mate without having sex with him. We are so caught up in this world of illusion verses reality. We don't want to be alone, we have a desire and we will compromise to indulge that. Love doesn't have to be between a romantic relationship. Love can live in our souls for friends, relatives and people we care about. Finally peace. The peace I am referring to is the inner peace you find within yourself. Our biggest problem is finding that peace. Not worrying about how the world is going to react or if it is right or wrong. Living a life on what other people think is living a life of emptiness. Peace is going with your gut instinct. If I went with my gut let me tell you, my inner peace would have come a lot sooner. Once you find that inner peace, you find love for mankind and you are able to recognize true love for what it is and falling so in love with a person your heart pounds for and you can't imagine your life without them, then sex becomes the intimacy that binds you.

We have lost so much of this in our society. We have become selfish and so careless. It is time to love people, find our soul mates and live a happy and fulfilling life. Once we find our inner peace our life can continue and we will benefit society so much better. I am not great at quoting scripture, but I try to live my life the best I can. The way the Lord would want me too. I am reading Scriptures now, but it is how I apply it in every day life. I come to you early because I have to pick up again my favorite little girl. Spending time with her brings so much joy to me. That is what we should be focused on, the joy that comes to us. Who and what brings us that joy. Take it and run with it. Again this is it. Lets not focus our lives on what others think or want, that would be foolish and wasteful. I have learned to meditate and become one. Again I encourage everyone from the East Coast to the West Coast find something that motivates you, something that moves you. Make a difference. I know I want to leave this world knowing I did my best. I hope everyone has a great day! God Bless! Take time to smile and enjoy!

Love,

Sarah

"Beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and best." R. Turnbull

October 13, 2009 Finding Jobs

Good Morning! Sorry it is a little late today, our furnace doesn't work, and the cold hit hard! Even when I pulled out my trusty apple today it was a bit crisp! LOL! While first let me mention, I can't wait to have this day over with. It is my 3rd court day for traffic court. I was ordered to take a class 25 and alive. I am terrified of showing graphic pictures, I have anxiety attacks. I lost 2 people to car accidents this year and I never thought it would affect me this way. So lets all hope and pray the judge understands.

Finding jobs seems to be tough for people. I have yet to grasp that. I tell all my friends fill out an application. Go in speak to the manager, tell them why you want to work there and shake their hand. You have to follow up. You can't just fill out applications online and not follow up. Show them you want the job. For me it is finding out what I want. Doing what I enjoy, helping people, doing things for a good cause. One of my friends who has been very successful and been in the home building industry and is semi-retired, decided to volunteer for habitat for humanity. What a great cause. I think when finding a job you must find the motivation behind it. Why do you want to work.? There are jobs out there along with many other opportunities, you just have to have some direction and seek them out. Try googling habitat for humanity and see if that is a charity worth while for you.

I hope everyone has a great day, enjoy it, the sun is out and make sure to turn the music up! Make a difference in some one's life!

Love,

Sarah

"I have found if you love life, life will love you back." Arthur Rubentien

October 12, 2009 Good Morning! Wise Words!

Good Morning! I start off saying wise words. Yesterday I did lunch with a friend that reminded me to focus on the positive. While my book, which no doubt has the ability to be a New York Times Bestseller, has taken a backseat to other projects. The reason being is I didn't know how to go about a certain situation. I am a truly loving person. I mean no harm. However, my journey to this point has been amazing, jaw dropping, and not in the best light for some. So I go at it with grace and dignity to the best of my ability. It's funny that people can leave you high and dry when your down and out and shake your hand when your on top of the world. Despite that I can't help but truly care for all. I know there is good there. Some people have a wonderful heart and soul, however their head is just messed up. We will see how I approach that situation.

Through out the New Sarah Process along with speaking of charities, I am also exploring different religions. I know this is a hot topic among many. I am one that stands for humanity. I believe that many religions stand for the same thing and that is for humanity and to do good for others. Sometimes you will see me quote a prayer that is Buddhist, Islam, Muslim, Christian or so forth. I have many friends that are very spiritual, and I am not going to single them out. Part of being a peaceful nation is understanding all and coming together. My jaw dropped when I saw a tabloid saying that President Barack Obama met with A Muslim leader. I thought ooooh. Come on people. After 9/11 this country has become so religiously bias. God says to love and accept people. I am finding peace among the Buddhist faith. I believe in Jesus Christ however, the peacefulness for man kind, I believe is what Jesus wants us to live. One thing I want to make clear is that I am not preaching. I am in the same boat as everyone else. Here on Earth exploring trying to find the path to happiness and success just like everyone else. I am no better than anyone else, nor do I think anyone is better than anyone else.

So lets start our week on something positive, something good. I believe things happen for a reason. For all the bad has just made me stronger. I still suffer. I sit here in bed with my swimsuit on ready to hit the water. Each person has there own definition of success. To me making the world a better place and touching lives to me is a success. This is a new week and a new day and like I always say we don't have to be the person we were yesterday. If something doesn't feel right, don't do it. Go with heart. Go with your gut, it has only lead me to were I am today. I wish for more but I am so thankful for all I have. We must remember we are so much better off than many.

That leads me to the charity. D.E.F which is Diamond Empowerment Fund. "It is a non-profit international organization with the mission to raise money to support education initiatives that develop and empower economically disadvantaged people in African Nations were diamonds are a national resource." You can go to http://dimondempowerment.org to find out more details. A wonderful cause and many ways to help. One charity I wish I would have found sooner. Everyone have a great day, smile, laugh, don't forget the music and be kind!

Love,

Sarah

"We're drowning in information and starving for knowledge." Ruthford D Rodgers

October 11, 2009 Good Night

Good Night! Yes the week has come to an end! It has been a crazy one like always. We never know quite what is going to happen from day to day. Going over all the highlights of the week, it was an emotional one, Barack gets the Nobel Peace Prize and it has been a rocky ride for friends and family. We all have choices in life. We have to decide what it is we want and pursue it. We can't wait around hoping that it comes to us. The Economy is tough and holidays are coming. However, no need to stress out. If everyone takes a deep breath relaxes and realizes how blessed we are to have the things we do. Look at how advanced we are compared to third world countries. I know it is hard when this kid and that kid has an ipod. I love my ipod but they are just things. CD players are cheaper than ever and White Elephant gifts are funny and can make great memories. It was a great time at the zoo with my friends daughter, I love my time with her! I hope you all remember that as we go into this week and find some joy in your life. Turn on the music, hang with friends and family. I have to say my mother and I really bonded. I feel good to have both my mother and father's united support behind me. Well off to our next journey, I hope everyone has a good night and if the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning.

Love,

Sarah

October 9, 2009 A DAY I WILL REMAIN SILENT!

Yes I cannot speak words today! I am so hurt and full of tears! All I ever wanted in life was to be a wife and a mom. To help people, to have the power to make a difference in people's lives. Today I cannot stop the tears from flowing. I do my best to stay as happy and optimistic as possible through all the curve balls that have been thrown at me. I do my best each day. I pray to the the Lord Jesus Christ with Buddhist beads. I keep them in my pocket reminding me he is with me. I believe in peace and love and all I hear is hate and greed. I read Rev Run's words of Wisdom today and it stated "You might as well tell the truth in life and get it over with. The ugly truth is always better than the dolled up lie." That rings so true. How can we be honest if we are not honest with ourselves? Some times things get misinterpreted or there is a miscommunication. Also there is that telephone game, hey someone hears something and says this, and all of a sudden people point fingers not really knowing both sides or the truth. The truth is we all have different interpretations and perspectives on body language and words. I have been so misrepresented and there has been plenty of lies told about me. However, those who know me, know who I truly am. However, we are all human and make mistakes. The Lord says to forgive and I forgive. I am probably one of the most accepting and forgiving people out there.

Honesty, that is so hard these days, look at the media! How honest is that! Tabloids! We live in such a dishonest world. The most sad thing about today is I hear critics downing President Obama for receiving the Nobel Peace Prize! Was it not less than a year ago Americans were in tears! Standing outside cheering him on! Hey do you want that job? Could you be a better president? Despite all politics aside, he is an articulate and wonderful man. He is one that touches people, inspires many. When that immediate gratification is not made people criticize. He is putting his best efforts on uniting people and creating peace. People start talking foreign policy, economics. Well people it's not about foreign policy or economics, it is about PEACE and uniting, and he does a damn good job! Low man on the totem poll wins an election! Well start helping! Do something for the better good of humanity! Not one person can change the circumstance were in. We all need to come together. He is one who is inspirational and motivational! Don't forget who he is as a person! He so deserves this award in my opinion. Everyone has the right to make there own choices in life. I chose to live a life of love and giving. We as a society spend so much time taring people down instead of helping them.

Again I am hurt and speechless to what our society has come to. We allow trivial things to get in our way of true happiness. We look at the outer shell and instead of the inner core. I know so many people that are not happy or couples that are not together do to those trivial things. In the long run it will do nothing but hurt them. I sit here today and I meditated and pray. I pray that I will somehow be able to touch someone's life. Be a part of making this world a better place, a happy place for all people. Honesty, comes from first looking in the mirror. For those that lie and do people wrong it will all come out in the wash. I have found that to be true. It use to eat me alive, scared to be honest and tell the truth. People didn't believe me. Well guess what, it all came out in the wash! Have a great weekend and don't forget to take a look in the mirror, I know I always need to!

October 9, 2009 Friday A Big Loss and A Big Lesson!

Good Morning! Well yesterday I learned that my cousin's grandmother, Grandma Scott passed away last week. I am so sorry for her loss. Also to my friend Jill and her family who loved her Grandmother so much. That is how I got to know her. They are such a close family. I loved her sense of humor, the fact she would always tell you what she thought, and she was so kind. I remember I had my favorite flip flops on, and they are velvet with a tiara that say "I am not the princess, I am the Queen." She said "You spent $40 on some thongs!" LOL! She telling Lois "No worries Lois this beer only has 60 calories!" Ha Ha! LOL! She told me to stop by, I never got the chance and I regret it. I spend so much time on the youth, we must concentrate also on the elderly. My Grandma is the one that told me, poor Grandma. I was balling! I didn't know about it. I was upset. I really wish I could have been there. I called my Grandma back because today is her Birthday, Happy Birthday Grandma, I lost count I think she is 82. Well she felt bad for not calling, and I said no worries. It just taught me to be me to be more mindful. We are going to dinner on Sunday. It makes me appreciate having her here even more.

It is a hard balance especially when we all have a lot going on. I do my best everyday to do what I can and that's all I can do. I again am so sorry Jill that I wasn't there. Time flies by an we lose touch. You were very lucky to have such a wonderful Grandmother, who was so thankful to enjoy your company and to see your children. She was a wonderful woman and will be missed greatly. I will pray for you and the family through these rough times. It comes to show that life is short and we must make the best of it. We can't beat ourselves up about it, but just try to be the best that we can and be a little more mindful and hope that people understand the true meaning of life. I leave you all with that today. There is more to announce, I know Painkiller Hotel is going to be playing at the Bottom Lounge tonight. If you get a chance you should go! Wonderful people with amazing music! Everyone have a great day, try to enjoy something and remember to do something kind and random, it will bring you joy!

Love,

Sarah

"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love.

Where there is injury, pardon.

Where there is doubt, faith.

Where there is darkness, light.

Where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console.

not so much to be understood as to understand.

not so much to be loved as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive.

it is pardoning that we are pardoned.

it is in dying that we awake to eternal life."

St. Francis of Assissi

October 8, 2009 Good Mornnig All the Single Parents Out There!

Good Morning! Sorry yesterday was a hectic day. I enjoy taking my friends daughter from time to time. She is a hard working mom that sometimes doesn't have the opportunity to do things with her daughter, and I love and enjoy being with her. Perfect fit! It was a great day. To the Zoo we went! Oh and that was after Gymboree and the store manager gave me an application and told me she would love to have me work there! LOL! What is so funny is I love that store, I am always there, and I have NO kids! LOL! I have 5 car seats, LOL! That just totally through me off guard.

I love taking kids and my friends kids to places showing them things spending time with them. I could volunteer for the Big Brother and Big Sister organization, which I may do, however, when I have so many kids around me I just reach out my hand. I have to say, I don't know how single parents do it, I know it would be very rough on me. Not having the support of the other person. I give single parents a lot of credit because it is not an easy task. It takes a lot of energy and love. It takes even more of a person for them to rely on others to know that there child is being taken care of well and is happy. So as far as charity or volunteering goes, start within your own circle, then branch out. There are many organizations like Big Brother and Big Sister organization and The Boys and Girls Club. There are so many things we can be doing. Plant seeds within children, because they will never forget, I never did!

Well yesterday was a wonderful day as I watched a child smiled, no one understands how much happiness that brings me. Children teach you things everyday. Everyday is a learning process. We must be open to learning, realizing we are human and make mistakes. All are stepping stones on our way to the next opportunity. Well I hope everyone has a great day, make sure to enjoy something and smile! Do something kind and random! Make a difference in someone's life!

Love,

Sarah

"Imperfect action is better than perfect inaction." Harry Truman

Good Morning Tuesday Octoer 6, 2006 Volunteering 101!

Good Morning! Wow! So much is happening around us, I would much rather be in Tibet living the simple life right now. The pressure, stress and the economy have really taken a toll on our emotion and mental well being. I highly suggest people find a way to relax and find comfort. I have found it through prayer. I by far would never push any religion on anyone. Whether it is listening to music or what ever, just let yourself release and calm down. Figure out what is it that will help you. I again suggest helping others. 6 little souls helped me find my purpose in life and that is what people should really be focusing on. We all have purpose. If you don't know what yours is than find it.

Again sticking to my new dedication to organizations in which people can help, I can first tell you of my own. When I was 14 I started volunteering for Fox Valley Special Recreation Association in North Aurora, which is now located in Aurora, IL. It provides recreational activities for those that have special needs. I then went on to be an Inclusion Aide for them which I was called in to help assist within local Park Districts to "include" them in activities and be there to help them as well. I did a great job. I was hired at age 14 and as well by a special family with a son who suffers from Autism. From there I was then hired by the Park District.

Volunteering can be so rewarding and let you know if there is a field you want to pursue. It opens doors of opportunities for jobs as well. However, it will give you the most rewarding feeling as well. You will come away from that experience having helped someone, and believe me, you will be the one feeling the benefits. There are many local organizations out there that have similar programs. Ask your local Park District and they can guide you. You can also can go to a great cause founded by a wonderful woman in 1963, Eunice Kennedy Shriver, John F. Kennedy's Sister. The Special Olympics! You can go to www.specialolympics.org to volunteer. A great cause! I leave you today as more of a spiritual person. For me to be happy I have found it is believing and being happy. I find that through meditation and prayer. I push no religion on anyone. I leave you all with a prayer that I believe serves all religions and all HUMANITY! Have a great day! Do something kind today and try doing something random. You never know!

Love,

Sarah

A Prayer I found that I believe serves everyone!

May I become at all times, both now and forever

A protector for those without protection

A guide for those who have lost their way

A ship for those with oceans to cross

A bridge for those with rivers to cross

A sanctuary for those in danger

A lamp for those without light

A place of refuge for those who lack shelter

and a servant to all in need.

-Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama

October 5, 2009, The New Good Morning, Manic Monday!

Good Morning! Yes this is the new Good Mornings! First off I must say, Go Knox! Even Packer fans have to give him some credit, it looked like a Don Beebe running out there! Hey Chicago, maybe we can win the Superbowl this year? You never know. It is a Manic Monday because yesterday I was all set on what I was going to do for today and then everything changed last night!So I am now going to encourage and list different organizations, stories and websites that are informative and maybe of interest to those looking to make a difference.

I am a believer that in this society, in America, we never truly figure out who we really are. We are told how we should be instead of figuring that out for ourselves. I believe in God and Jesus Christ. I also know Buddhist prayers bring me joy and purpose. I don't have to go talk about Jesus or God, because I hope I live it everyday. Now I am no Saint, and I make plenty of mistakes. However, I try my best to be kind, selfless and do the best job I can. Tomorrow I will list organizations, today I ask something different.

I ask that everyone, go back through my Good Mornings, or read an inspirational book, and remember to be honest with yourself. Really ask yourself what is it that will make you happy. If you had a vision of yourself happy, what do you picture? Then I say go for it. It is not an easy task, I stumble at times, especially in our society, but I realized that in order to help people or myself I have to be honest with myself. If I am not happy or healthy how can I help others. What then is my purpose here on Earth? I am right along with everyone else still figuring things out, but spending everyday learning what I like. Don't worry if your different. Again like I said before, I am not a Cookie Cutter. The site I saw that really hit home that others saw what I saw was www.agapelive.com from a facebook friend Deborah Deras. I encourage again everyone to take a look at this. I hope you all have a wonderful day, turn up the music and enjoy!

Love,

Sarah

"It's never to late to be what you might have been." George Elliot

October 4, 2009 A Tribute To Dorothy Dandridge, A True Woman!

Who is Dorothy Dandridge? Yes I asked the same question. Many have no clue. That is why I do the Tribute to Dorothy today! She was a great courageous, and gorgeously talented woman that has slipped through the eyes of the American public. She was huge! A shining star! Why has she slipped? Because she was black, and she died way before her time. She had a heart of gold and was the first African American woman ever to be nominated for an Academy Award for Best Actress staring in the film Carmen Jones. Halle Berry played her in an HBO film introducing Dorothy Dandridge. Let me tell you the pictures are startling. They look so similar. Her legacy continues as she was one who was discriminated against, suffered, and yet still led the way helping and mentoring others.

Dorothy was born in Cleveland, Ohio on November 9, 1922. In the book Dorothy Dandridge, An Intimate Portrait of Hollywood's First Major Black Film Star by Earl Mills. It speaks of Dorothy's courage and talent. She suffered greatly, she was so talented, and discriminated against. I can't help but think if she were white, she would be alive today, and such a legend, that people would be sporting her shirts just like they do Marilyn Monroes'. By the way, her and Marilyn became friends. She also worked with Jacqueline Kennedy to help the mentally retarded. Dorothy had a daughter Harolyn or Lynn, that never got past the intelligence level of age 4. Dorothy loved Harolyn so much and had a fondness for children that just came naturally to her.

In the book and in the Movie which you can order online or order from a book store, you will find her journey compelling, sad, and hopefully awakening. We have come a long way in such ways, but yet have lost so many key values. Mentoring, helping others,and really knowing what it means to be discriminated against. I found out about Dorothy through Ann Dandridge who is Dorothy's Cousin, and is a Publicist in LA. Ann carries those values still today by continuing to encourage mentoring and helping others. She is helping keep Dorothy's legacy alive and I encourage everyone to join us through http://anndandridgepublicrelations.ning.com "Powerful People and Friends (Authentic) Powerful People "Truly" Serve others WELL!" Thank you Ann for making this known, for you are a living example.

One last thing, my friend Blaq said to me last night. "I am afraid to have children in America If I marry a woman of a different race what does my child say? Why can't we all just be American? In every other Country we are all referred to as Americans. Why when you fill out paperwork, or speak, why is there a division of "race" or ethnicity." He being form Africa doesn't understand. Well that is food for thought America, why? It wasn't long ago, that it was so unequal. We are still not equal. Lets HOPE that with President Obama that we can now see people as people. We have a lot of work to do. But if we all do something to help, we can make a huge difference.

Dorothy, may you REST IN PEACE! You will not be forgotten!

Love,

Sarah

October 2,2009 IT IS A GREAT DAY!

It is a great day! I know many people are upset and discouraged about my wonderful and proud City of Chicago not getting the bid for the Olympics. Yes it would have been great and provided jobs, but nothing to lose sleep over. Some may disagree. WE HAVE SO MUCH to be thankful for! We have President Barack Obama and his lovely wife Michelle Obama. We have Oprah, we have wonderful designers and art. There are so many things that have happened to the City of Chicago that we should be thankful for. Sometimes we can't have it all. A local news anchor said that Mayor Daley is just upset. As far as politicians is concerned he is disappointed. He really went outside his comfort zone. He loves Chicago and hasn't gone out of his comfort zone nationally and internationally like he did. Well this should be a great day for him, a great stepping stone in his life. We all fall or don't make it. Just because we didn't win the Olympic bid doesn't mean we can't bring other great things to Chicago. Take it with a grain of salt, move on to the next opportunity.

I have to say all I can do and think of lately is what can I do? I have a heart that is so giving. Who thrives on giving, who if asked if I could have any job in the entire world what would it be? I would answer a Philanthropist. You will hear me from now on share stories of others. Their requests. I don't know what else to do. God has put me here on earth with this amazing gift and I need to put it to work. I have to say, smiling, laughing and doing kind things, will only increase your quality of life. Think about that little contributions we made to make President Obama, President. How good it felt to know we were part of making a difference. It was us, the American people. It is a great feeling. It gives us hope, purpose, and by doing that leads us to happiness. We can all contribute, bake cookies, give a dollar. Hey how much does a coke cost? Many have a dollar to spare to help those in need. I will be posting different organizations, as well as peoples personal requests. Who knows maybe you can make a difference in someones life and no good deed ever goes unforgotten. Today is a great day. If not tomorrow will be. We must find that within ourselves. Find that purpose and put it to use. Well I am signing off here for the evening. Everyone have a great weekend, and if the Good Lord lets us, we will meet again on Monday morning!

Love,

Sarah

October 2, 2009 Good Evening! A New Start!

Good Evening! When I first started doing this blog it was to say good morning to friends. Diandra Asbaty a professional bowler, saw my talent for writing and created this blog for me. I am forever thankful! It was always in the back of my mind but I never thought "I was good enough." She believed in me. Yesterday the Good Lord spoke to me. Today my life has changed. I write with tears in my eyes. I at one time had one wish, and that was for the Simmons family would one day read my blog, go through the past and see the adventure. By Simmons family I mean, Rev Run, Justine Simmons, all there children and of course Russell Simmons. I watch Runs House on MTV and got to know their Character. I began to really admire their "realness." I had a connection and bond. Then God somehow heard my prayers. It got to the point were one night I decided to write about relationships I was going to use for a Good Morning. I didn't. I got Rev's daily word and guess what it was about relationships. Before this there would be times I would just get done talking to someone and then look at my blackberry and there it is something exactly about what I was thinking. Only God could have done that. More and more happened. That's when I started to really feel that connection. I read Russell's book and we connected.

I read Russell Simmons Book and it took the words right out of my mouth. The thoughts out of my head. It took time to realize but we are all in harmony. For they are good and they do such wonderful things. When I asked for that wish, that wish was granted. My voice was heard. I was put on Globalgrind.com and made global coverage. So how does this now effect my life?

Well I decided to switch up my blog more, search for causes and stories. Russell could easily take his money and move to another country. However, he knows that people need him. He knows employees count on him for their paychecks to feed there families. He knows that he can make a difference. I think that in the sense of "Good Heartedness" he is the most under estimated person in the entertainment world. I don't think Run or Justine get the credit they deserve either. However it's ok. They're not looking for credit. None of us are, we are looking at helping people, bring hope, and joining one another.

Yesterday a friend said something to me about how he sent Russell a message. I went to a store near by me and they sell prayer beads, just like Russell carries. I bought some for me and a special friend. He wants his voice to be heard, he sends Russell messages, and I tell him, your not connected to him. I am connected to him, that's why he hasn't answered. Russell doesn't have to say a word directly to me. Honestly we are so alike and on the same wavelength. Those beads brought something else to me. I bought them to help keep me in prayer. As I heard Russell say at one time help him as well. It wasn't until recently the light really started to shine. I bought those beads for my friend. I told him to pray. I told him to read Russell's book keep reading. Start from the credits in the back move forward. Read the laws. Find the light, then things will come into place.

I know this is long, you are going to keep seeing the New and Improved Sarah along with stories I read and find on facebook. I realize those who do give don't always have facebook. I hope everyone has a blessed day! It is a great day and we have the Lord to thank.

Love,

Sarah

October 1, 2009 Good Night! I HAVE HAD IT!!!!!!

Good Night! I have had it!!!! Yes that's right. I am speaking my mind about all the little trivial things that I have to say. Ok yeah I may come off strong, but that is because I have a strong and good heart. I mean NO ONE any harm. I would NEVER use them for anything. One of the things I need to work on is not being so giving. Second what triggered this was none other than Jon Gosselin!!!!!! Would someone please send Kate some Jewelry, clothes, something. Why do people in this country not get help. So what now, you get fired Jon and now you go hang a sign on your fence when your not even there your out on the street hanging out with Girls Gone Wild Guy chilling Club Med!!! Your worried about your paycheck, well take the Millions you get and go invest it and make more millions! Like Kate suggested, Getting a job, going back to school, volunteering. Oh no lets go party!!! I am such a great DAD!!! Wait I am fired? This is bad for my kids. Sure Jon just pop in a DVD of Girls Gone Wild for the kids that would be great!!! I know you had a rough time but you just lost all points from me.

All of America is going through Crisis and frankly I agree with Wanda Sykes! She said it years ago! Shit America we are so damn broke we might as well call up mama at Buckingham Palace and tell her were moving back in! Our Country was founded by Thugs if you really think of it! White men only!!! We are still not equal!! Oh then we have the damn tabloids, Kristy Alley going to a fat farm. Shut up! Your Mama! Really people you don't know. There are health issues! Then they got on Oprah! Everyone better duck and cover for this one! You touch Oprah and you and God will have serious problems. I feel her as she speaks. Listen I lost 135 lbs had plastic surgery, then got really sick, lost huge quality of life gained rapidly 165lbs with no control and still today when asked the question "I bet you regret having plastic surgery." I say no, it saved my life. Although I have lost 75 lbs of it. It is about being healthy. If you don't have your health you have nothing, I mean nothing!!!! I learned the meaning of life. It's not in cars, things or money. It is about being one with yourself, being happy, centered. However you get there. I am a christian, however very spiritual. I knock no religion that brings honesty, love, and hope to a higher being and to better ourselves and to live a life of gratitude and selflessness.

So America rise and shine tomorrow. Stop complaining and lets all work together for the better good. Make a difference. You don't have to build a school, there is so many things you can do that would help and you have no clue! I finally went out and bought some prayer beads to help me reflect during America's meltdown. I understand, we have had quite a month! I have hope that we can make changes. The drive is there we just have to find it. I have worked so hard to get were I am at, no turning back. Someone asked me the other day would you like to be famous? I looked at them and said "HELL NO!!!" The Grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. I beg people please seek help! Seek counseling, from a professional, pastor, priest or spiritual advisor. There is so much stress lately I walk around now with prayer beads. Well Good Night! Lets do this again tomorrow but even better! Good Night and God bless! I am grasping my new prayer beads and off I go!

Love,

Sarah

October 1, 2009 Cheers! To The New and The Old!!!

Good Morning! I remember her walking in and out of class. Wearing the same green sweater and green plaid we all did. For she had blond hair and was highly independent. There was about 77 in our entire freshman class. I went all through school without being formally diagnosed with an ADD/ADHD mix. The poor thing was stuck with me as a lab partner for Biology. I just looked up. She grabbed everything, did everything. She was so independent. It went all the way through to the Navy blue sweater you graduated to Junior year with the nice navy plaid skirt. She gave a whole new meaning to Miss Independent. She was her own person very ambitious. We once spoke about parenting and how are parents were like hey go embrace life, see ya later. Her parents took her on an African Safari one summer. I remember thinking, wow! How awesome, to travel with your children put things in there hands and teach them about the world. I always said if I had a child I would want to raise a kid to be just like her.

I told this story to many and also to my friends from Uganda, which is East Africa. So I met up with this old friend from High School on Facebook. She had grown up and was a fashion designer. I really didn't know much and then I got an invite to Pretty in Pilsen. I about dropped to the floor. Pilsen is in Chicago, that carries a little history for me. I said "Pilsen, are you serious!" I thought of all places, how did she end up in Pilsen! She is Kate Coxworth aka Kate Boggiano. So it was me and my friends Phil and Blaq that attended! It was so wonderful! I met this woman who sells this wonderful jewelry Objects d'envy! Kristen Goede! I caught up with Kate, still Miss Independent, warm hearted! I met up with Kim Carlson, I couldn't believe, in Pilsen! Kate makes these classy wonderful, designer shirts and dresses in ready to wear sizes 2-12, I said ah ya no. She said I also do custom shirts and dresses as well. My eyes got big and said really! She took my measurements and not too long after we were off with my first Kate Boggiano shirt! Let me tell you I love it.

Cake Topper! GoodGlamGala!! Wonderful event, again with Kristen Goede and Kate Boggiano, fashion show, with raffle prizes were I won the James Purcell Suit, Fabulous! The Editor and Chief of Michigan Avenue Magazine Susanna Negovovan was the Emcee! Wonderful Person! If you don't get it Michigan Avenue Magazine, you should! She announced that Kate would be featured in Instyle Magazine in October!!! Everyone was so excited for Kate. Well you can find Kate's clothes, at Macy's on State St. and also at Kateboggiano.com. I thought wait, she is at Macy's, she did a press conference with Tommy Hilfiger, she has won an award among other things. She was in a special issue of Chicago Magazine they just put out, like what is the big deal. So everyone go out and get your copy of Instyle Magazine today! Guess What, I saw! Michelle Obama, sporting one of Kate Coxworth aka Kate Boggiano's Shirts!!! YOU WERE HOLDING OUT ON ME!!!! To the words of "Sarah, who cares if your overweight, your alive." "Sarah, please come, I want you to come." okay and I win a suit by James Purcell! I was excited when you named the special white dress I adore, after my favorite Classy hero Jackie! WELL CHEERS TO YOU KATE! This is Class!!! You deserve all the recognition in the world. Your work speaks for it's self. You are a classy, wonderful woman, who deserves it all. It puts such a smile on my face to see you succeed. To see anyone of my friends succeed. Wow, you really surprised me on that. With that being said everyone go and get your copy of Instyle Magazine today!

I don't know Jealousy or how it is even possible. To me I find it impossible to get along with those that are. I guess it is who I am. I am a believer that as friends and people we should always support and lift up. Not tare down. I really don't have a jealous bone in my body, wait, other than how thin women can down junk food, wear a size 2 and I could eat healthy, work out and gain 2 pounds. That makes me a little jealous. That's just Physiology. Must take care of our bodies and be thankful for health. I took a beating when I thought it was all about being thin and I learned it's all about being healthy. Well Kate keep shining bright, your fan club I am sure is increasing! Everyone have a great day enjoy something and try doing something kind and something random.

Love,

Sarah

"To enjoy the things we ought, and to hate the things we ought, has the greatest bearing on excellence of character." Aristotle

"There are few successful adults who were not first successful children." Alexander Chase

"It takes time to be a success, but time is all it takes." Anon