August 31,2009 Monday Good Morning

Good Morning! While I wake up and go to work in my own office , I feel at peace. I thought that I needed a job in order to give structure, when it just ended up causing me more stress. I have to be healthy in order to succeed. I refuse to settle. I am not the person who just punches a time clock everyday. I am a person who gives my entire heart and energy into what I do. I have to, I have seen what happens if you don't. There are other people that are affected if you don't do your job. However, I prefer a positive environment and those who will embrace what I have to offer. If not why would I put all my energy into it. Right now, I need to focus on me. Getting my book done, my ideas down and all the loose ends I need to tie up. Sometimes I loose my thought, in Russell Simmon's book Do You! He mentioned a tape recorder. That is such a great idea. When I think of my ideas I often don't have pen and paper and it is so quick to record. Nothing like getting your mind, body and spirit in shape at the same time. Well Russell, I'm practicing Do you! For the people who care have said this from the get go.

Sorry Rev and Justine, next week your Tribute is coming! I had a lot of family things going on this weekend! YIIIIII! (That is suppose to be Rev's little saying voice he makes on Run's House!) For God Blessed me again for another weekend! Saturday I spent the day with my Grandmother! We went to lunch and then off to Ravinia to see Tony Bennett! I got her that for Mother's Day! For the Aunts and Grandma's and even the parents you don't know what to get as gifts, give them your time. Go to see something. It was crowded and Grandma I wasn't sure was going to like it at first. However, when his daughter came up on stage it was amazing! She she saw her a little but then on the big screen! Ravinia is so beautiful and had the perfect ambiance. She got to see the screen and she smiled so wide and clapped. That made the whole night worth while for me. Carrying things back and forth. She thanked me so much as we left I realized that is what we will do. Life is so short and Grandma has everything! What do you buy her? Tickets and a special day with her. What felt great but saddened me as well was when people thanked me and said "you are such a great grand-daughter." Or "I wish I had a grand-daughter like you." That just comes to show how selfish we have come as a society as people. Sometimes not as selfish, but also as busy. We get so wrapped up in what we are doing, I know I do. We need to stop and take those moments.

Speaking of spending time, yesterday I had my friend's daughter Ashleigh. We hit the town! We went shopping of course some new clothes for fall! Got some great deals! Then the it was a great day we headed downtown to Pazzono's my favorite little Italian market that has these to die for chicken sandwiches! I get it with vinaigrette, on Cabatta bread! Mike the owner is so personable and then John the main Chef, who is truly amazing, use to work for a 5 star restaurant is going to be helping me through my healthy natural eating process and getting me back in shape! John is amazing! When I make good money he will be my personal cook! If you are ever downtown Chicago they are 1303 S Michigan Avenue! Amazing! Take out Italian food and market! They have to be the most wonderful people as well. It is a home run for me! Ashleigh who is 3 loved the park and said" wow this is like the park by my and mommy's house. We are very far from there. Look at the big castles. Look here, look there! I like it here! There's a dog!" Then she told me she wanted McDonalds and so we ended up at Whole Foods with Pizza! Yes, Score! Got some more shopping done! Off to my niece's wonderful 2nd Birthday filled with a jumpy thing and Cotton candy! It was so wonderful! Then to McDonalds and home! Wow what a day! Then she had Grandma Lynne read books to her and play on the computer! Again spent with those you love. Now it is back to work! At my home office, for me. I work for me. My dream team is being put in place as we speak!

After that long Monday Morning I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a great day! The sky is beautiful and we have a lot to be thankful for! God is Good and God is Great! Everyone make sure to take time out to enjoy something today, laugh and smile!**Congratulations Rev I got your announcement about a street after you guys in Hollis Queens! You were right that is something to be inspired about! I go down roads named after my family and it makes me so proud to be a part of that. This will proceed you in generations to come. I was not born yet when these streets were named, so your family's legacy will be carried on, and your family will always admire that.

Love,

Sarah

"Oh how daily life is." Jules Laforgue

"Life is painting a picture, not doing a sum." Oliver Wendell Holmes Jr.

"The secret of happiness is not in doing what one likes, but in liking what one has to do." James M Barrie

Friday August 28, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! Sorry it has been a crazy morning already. Yes my home office needs a make over! LOL! I working on trying to get things organized and in order. It is going to be a project. Well it is a rainy day here in Chicago, but it we just turn on the lights and up the music! I have enjoyed reading Rev Run and Justine Simmons take back your family. Next week will be Rev's Tribute. I love the Simmons family, so positive, so real. I still refer back and keep reading Russell Simmons book Do You!! You can find it in self help section of book stores. It is just amazing. Again he and Rev are so inspiring. I love that they are so open and sharing there stories. How else are we to learn. Speak, talk, and conversate. Like I always say you can't say I will do that in my next life. I want to take this moment and pray for all those who are going threw a hard time, and give us the wisdom and strength to get through hard times.

Well I have a fun weekend planned here, I am taking my Grandmother who is going to be 87 to Ravina to See Tony Bennett. Were going to do lunch and then just hang out me and her. You have to take time out to do what you can. I feel so bad that I work and I am busy that sometimes I don't get a chance to call or see my family as much. We must take that time. I am excited. Then my niece's 2nd birthday party! She is so sweet and cute, I love her to pieces. I can't wait to see her. Well Today I am in a hurry there is always work to be done. So much to do, I wish we had more hours in a day, don't we all! Well I am thankful for all I have and the people that are in my life! God is Good, God is Great! Well lets get the day started with some quotes and make sure to enjoy something!

Love,

Sarah

"It's never to late to be what you might have been." George Elliot

"To lead the people, walk behind them." Lao-Tzu

"If you won't be better tomorrow than you were today, then what do you need tomorrow for?" Rabbi Nahman of Bratslav

August 27, 2009 Good Night

Good Night! While I have to say sorry for the delay today. It was not a good morning. Those days come for all of us. That is when we need to take time and meditate and pray for guidance and strength. Last night was the first night of bowling. It was great and filled with emotion. This morning ended in disaster. Everyone is still alive, and we pray for Mr. Tyler and his health. I try my very best every day, if I didn't I couldn't sleep at night. Lately I have been living with certain fears and anxiety wondering about certain situations. All that can be solved by communication. Something we as a society lack. I make mistakes everyday, I am not perfect, nor do I expect anyone else to be perfect. Just look at the big picture and the greater good. I mean no harm to anyone. Well as I struggled I fell. I have certain values and ethics. I cannot settle. I just can't. Any one who has ever achieved anything great and wonderful has ever settled.

To me a job is not just clocking in and out. It is a purpose. I must have that structure everyday, working for the common good. Knowing I am making a difference in someone's life, that is what really matters to me. It has nothing to do with money. It is being a part of a team. Being positive and enjoying life. I thrive off of that. When that purpose is gone, then what? Well I move on to my next purpose. I get up brush off my knees and keep going. It has only helped me and help increase my awareness of people around me. Now I must find a little job part-time, somewhere positive, somewhere that I feel content. Money is not the motivation for me. Success has a totally different meaning to me than it has to most. It is being a part of something great and working together towards something good. I believe in respect for all people. I need to be in a place were voices are heard, were positivity is created and rewarded. Where that is, I am not sure, so I keep praying and meditating, because I haven't gotten to were I am today, by coincidence. I thank all that are positive, all that bring me joy. So a day has passed by I refuse to let another. Thank you again Rev and Russell for your support. It was a rough day, but I got back up and I am smiling again. No one will ever take that from me. It comes to show we all have them, now we just get back up and keep moving! The smile now on my face is huge. I am thankful for all that I have. I am truly blessed. God is Good! Now I must go and continue to read, pray and of course allow the music to heal. Good Night to all and if the Good Lord lets us we shall meet again in the morning!

Love,

Sarah

Wednesday August 26,2009 Good Mourning!

Yes Good Mourning! First and foremost we must remember the Kennedy family in our prayers today. As Edward Kennedy passed yesterday, not to long after the wonderful Eunice Shriver. The Kennedy's have experienced tragedy on a whole different level than most. All we can do is pray that the family can come together through these hard times. I know many are having a hard time with this today, but he is at peace now. The Kennedy Legacy and his Legacy will forever live on. For those who are on Facebook see how he was alive one day and gone the next. That rings true for many of us. We must never take our days here for granted. We must be grateful and move along enjoy and embracing life!

On another note, yes Daddy's Girls was on last night. Always great to see people especially Angela and Venessa Succeed. Long way from there bedroom! No worries Rev I am reading Rev Run and Justine Simmons Taking Back Your Family. I also handed a couple out! Tonight is a night for all us girls to come together and have fun! Yes we are back! Wednesday's are back! GO TEAM!! I started bowling after a death cracked the Chicago bowling community, some of that community lives in Pilsen! To me it is to have fun and enjoy! Trust me with my 92 average, I am all about having fun! LOL! So Go TEAM! While I leave you all now to move on with your day, remember to pray, and turn up the music because it does heal! Have a great day!

Love,

Sarah

"I've heard of Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. But I never have heard of Someday." Reverend Ike

"All things that truly matter-beauty, love, creativity, joy, inner peace-arise from beyond the mind." Eckhart Tolle

(I don't care how many times I use it it is my favorite and most true!)

"It takes courage to grow up and turn to be who you really are." E.E. Cummings

Tuesday August 25, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! Tuesday is here, the Monday Craziness has settled down. Some days are harder than other. I am usually a very upbeat person that is very happy and positive! I need that environment. I feel so good about myself that I don't settle. Yesterday was one of those days when I came home from work and went straight to bed. I turned on the computer for a little while and was out like a light.

We all have choices in life. We can choose our own destiny. I refuse to settle for anything less than what I want. I see people settle for things because they have the mindset that they are "unworthy." The only time I have that feeling is regarding weight issues, which I have really no control over other than eat right and do as my doctor says. Stretch, yoga, swim those are good forms of exercise. Mostly just stretching now with me working. I am trying to get into a routine and get my mind fit as Russell would say. Relationships, well I don't settle. I know what I deserve, I know I am a good woman, and I am not going to be with someone just to be with them. I almost avoid them at times because my life is so hectic. I am detached again like Russell says. If a relationship doesn't work out or something doesn't work out off to the next thing. I feel happy inside, I have felt that true happiness deep and down in my gut! No one can take that from me!

Well I am off to read Rev Run and Justine Simmon's book Take back Your Family, however, I am still referring back to Russell Simmon's book DO YOU! I am in the intro laughing already at the different personalities between Rev and Russell. Both wonderful inspiring people, just in different ways. I understand Rev's take because of helping out with 6 kids for 4 years. Well this should be an interesting ride! Run's House is on MTV! I know the first season is on DVD, I own it, it is floating around here somewhere. I hope all of you have a great day. I am listening to Beyonce "If I Were A Boy!" I just love that song. I find it very empowering to young women. I have to say I have been in that situation and will never again. Like I said before; me, him, in a shack on a beach with nothing! That would be all I need! Other's opinions, money, or status, just him and me. That's when you know. We had this conversation the other day. It's that connection, the other puzzle piece. The one you can laugh, talk to, and you come together just like a puzzle. Anything else well is just that. I hope everyone has a great day, don't take the ones you love for granted, and do something that makes you happy.

Love,

Sarah

(By the way all these quotes were taken from Russell Simmon's book DO YOU !

"We are here to awaken from the illusion of our separateness." Thich Nhat Hahn

"Surround yourself only with people when who are going to lift you higher." Oprah Winfrey

"It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are." E.E. Cummings (So True)

Monday August 24,2009 Good Morning!

Yes sorry to all who's blackberrys that are going off right now. Happy Monday! My days and nights are mixed up. Well after our Russell Simmons tribute I am sure you will be hearing more about him randomly. Well I am now reading Rev Run and Justine Simmon's book Take Back Your Family. While I am not a mother, I did spend years helping take care of 6 children. All whom I care very much for. I have plenty of niece and nephews that mean the world to me. We are beginning our work week but lets just grab the ball and run with it. These are hard times for many, but let me remind you all; as long as you have your health and family you are good. Money and things are just that Things!

Well I have seen so many relationships and marriages lately go bad. I am not a settler. I look at a relationship and say, "is all I want is that person and a shack?" If my answer is yes then I believe I have found love. It doesn't matter on how much money he has. If he is a maintenance man or a millionaire. Love is love! I can't wait to read Rev's book, I am sure I will find it interesting. I am so busy now, I missed out on a great day. I have been trying to clean and keep up with things. I have so much to do. Well I all I can do is to continue to climb the mountain, and move forward. Today is a new day, a blank slate. Enjoying a good book, a good swim, what else is there. We put too much stress in our lives, we need to get it together. We need to find enjoyment within ourselves. Well I hope that helps as we begin our week. All I can ask is that the Lord brings us closer together more than further apart. Everyone have a great day, turn up the music and enjoy it!

Love,

Sarah

"A person writing at night may put out the lamp, but the words he has written will remain. It is the same with the destiny we create for ourselves in this world." Shakyamni

"He who knows others is wise; he who knows himself is enlightened." Lao Tzn

"All the things that truly matter-beauty, love creativity, joy, inner peace, arise from beyond the mind." Eckhart Tolle

Sunday august 23, 2009 Sunday a day of happiness and worship

Good Morning! Like I say Sunday is a day of Family and Worship. Today I said happiness and worship. The sun is shining beautifully here. I want to head west towards the farm, for the realness, for the simplicity. Meditate, help bring calmness to my body and mind. My dream is to be able to provide and take care for my family. I just got to see my Step- brother Ron and how he is doing.

Again let me quote Joel Osteen "Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed-not only my presence but now much more in my absence-continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you and to act according to his good purpose." Philippians 2:12-13

"The famous architect Frank Lloyd Wright designed many beautiful buildings, homes and other magnificent structures. Toward the end of his career, a reporter asked him, " of your many beautiful designs , which one is your favorite? Without missing a beat Frank Lloyd Wright answered , "my next one." He understood the principle of stretching , constantly pressing forward, never being satisfied simply with past successes. The entire world is waiting for your next adventure." Joel Osteen Become a better you!

Enjoy your day embrace all that is positive!

Love,

Sarah

The Last Day of Russell Simmon's Tribute, The First day of Peace!

Good Morning! Yes this is the Last day of Russell Simmon's Tribute but it is the first day of peace for me! I wake up everyday with struggles, but by the end of the day, I go to bed knowing I have done my best. I spend my life giving, and sometimes it is so discouraging. We live in a selfish world, not a selfless world. In Russell Simmon's Book Do You! 12 Laws To The Power In You To Achieve Happiness and Success, you will find peace. I have been trying to buy them as I can, I hand them out like candy canes at Christmas. No matter who you are, or were you are in your life Russell Simmons is an Inspiring Individual and has an extraordinary heart and soul. He should receive much more credit than what is given. Both he and I know it is not about the credit given, because we walk away from things knowing what we have done and that is the reward. No money or credit could give you the feeling you get when you do something kind and selfless.

So many people have the power everyday to reach out, do something kind and choose not too. Celebrities, don't even get me started. I hear "well I raised $30,000 for this cause this year." Whoopie, want a cookie! What about the everyday acts of kindness. They have not a clue of the happiness they are missing out on. Here is one, being at Target and seeing a mom or dad with a calculator being in front of them in line and purchasing all there things as well. Or in a store, holding open the door for someone else, saying hello to someone first. Randomly picking someone out of your "fan club" giving them a ticket to your concert and an autograph. Spending $20,000 instead of on purses and buying a car for a mom or dad that struggles with taking children on public transportation everyday. Just stopping by an oncology ward of a hospital with gifts. Just stopping randomly at a house and saying hello. Hey how about writing a book like Russell Simmons and sharing the fact that good people, deserve praise. Not the ones saving up to spend $2,0000 on a purse. They do that because they want to be this great person. Just like those "great people." That is when everyday people have to realize, do you think they are truly happy. Is that $2000.00 purse going to bring you happiness. Now I have an eye for nice things, but they are accessories, they don't define who I am. I am willing to give them up at any time. You know what $2,0000 could do for someone!

Yeah this man help put hip hop on the map and like people have said and he said in his book he has the nickname "The Godfather of Hip Hop." He is so much more than that. Inspirational, caring, and legendary. A philanthropist of a whole new means. I didn't know exactly who he was. I don't see him in Tabloids or on the news. Probably because he keeps his nose clean and does great things. Not that those who do great things don't end up in tabloids, because they do. Our media is way out of control. There does need to be a control with this Paparazzi, and a law needs to be passed. People don't realize these people are people just like you and me. They deserve the right to enjoy life and have privacy. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't go out in public and just enjoy people with them not knowing who I am. The stress I could only imagine. That's why they need God in there life, a good support team and realize that what they have and the money they have is just an accessory in life, not life itself. Like I said I didn't know WHO Russell Simmons was before, I knew of him, but now I feel a sense of peace after reading his book. I would see him on Runs House on MTV. Great Show, about family, a good family with good morals and values. Rev and Justine embrace there family. Justine you don't smother, you love your children. They should be so thankful to have such a wonderful mother who cares. Because I personally know children who have parents that have gone without having a good mother. Their life has been so tough. I helped raise 6 children for 4 years, I always say, when I am a mom and I have a family that's how I am going to Run my house! I see Russell in and out and I die laughing. I see the dynamics and I love it. I wish I was there. I see the similarities between him and Rev, yet there differences. Man when you guys were in Hawaii and Russell was in the office I was rolling. Russell and Rev both teach, they embrace just in different ways. No worries dRev Run and Justine Simmons, Take back your Family is next! I finally found it. I originally was looking for that book and found Russell's. I wanted so much to be a nanny for your family. A family full of love. I was an "unpaid nanny of sorts" for years to children that didn't have the support of there parents present everyday and it tore me to pieces. I want children, but with my past health issues, I don't know if it would be possible. You are so present all the time, that I would have so much time to write and enjoy life as well. If you need me you know how to get a hold of me! LOL!

So Russell Thank You! Thank You for wonderful laughs, words of inspiration and stories that are so close to my heart. I feel again at peace. I feel that even from "The Godfather of Hip Hop" that my journey is that of the right one. I am on the right track. I just keep going, let myself stay open to God and keep praying all day, enjoy meditation, and I can officially go re-join my Yoga class at the gym rather than just at home. It is ok if I can't do it all. Everyday I live life to the fullest, I help, I must stay detached from other's problems, but yet love and give. I fight still everyday. I just woke up after being awake for 36 hours and finally getting some sleep. I must make sure now that my mind is fit that my body gets the nourishment and the things it deserves. I no longer stress about my plus size, I surround myself with a great positive support system, who love and encourage me. I don't know how else to thank you other than make sure I always honor you, dovetail your ideas, pass your book around, and make sure I keep doing what I do. Russell Simmons you are a great man, a leader, a hard worker and master of Philanthropy. I don't know anything more honorable than that. I know you are loved by many, but the love and compassion I have for you is real and you just made a huge difference in my life. I will pass the on the good word. I will live today with happiness and joy. I will do good deeds and continue to do my best to be the best Sarah as possible. So everyone raise your glasses and cheers to Russell for a job well done! I hope the Lord keeps blessing you and allows others to feel the inspiration to do good as well! Have a great day! Many thanks! Hands to Heart!

Love,

Sarah

"The possession of material riches, without inner peace, is like dying of thirst while bathing in a lake." Yogananda

"When we do wrong, we come to suffering. When we do good in the world, we come to happiness." Bhagavad Gita

"Nobody can give you freedom. Nobody can give you equality or justice or anything. If you're a man, you take it." Malcolm X

Thursday August 20th, 2009 Good Afternoon, On my lunch break I am just chiming in!

Well I hope everyone's day is going well! I have yet to get a little shut eye, but that is okay because I am working. Yes even on Lunch! My day job I get to work for a plumbing, HVAC, and Electrical company part-time! I love it! Keeping it real! People don't realize how humbling the trades really are. As I would see work orders come in and notice spelling errors or hear of learning disabilities, but they too have a craft. To be able to be a part of something that helps put food on the table for hard workers, makes my day.

I love to learn each and every day. Each day is a blank slate and we don't have to be the person we were yesterday. I had a passion for medicine after becoming ill, however, I am getting my life and health back and I cannot compromise that by practicing medicine. However, as I was sick I bought medical books, I studied, learned medical terminology and soaked up everything Doc would teach me. I learned how to recognize what was going on with my own body. I was unable to go to school but I self taught myself. I found this part in Russell's book very funny "I know this guy who keeps telling me he's going to be a lawyer every time I see him. It is always '"yo Russell I'm a good arguer, they won't be able to f**k with me in the courtroom. I'm going to be a big time lawyer!" But when I ask him what he is doing about it, all I hear is "well once I have my degree, I'm going to think about Law School." But I don't want to hear about waiting on a degree! That is why I tell him "If you want to be a lawyer so bad then where are your law books? The Libraries are wide the f**k open. Get there and study the law!" Because you should never wait for a school to accept you before you start studying the practice of law. Head down to a library and start studying the practice of law." I laughed so hard and still do! You took the words right out of my mouth. I have Sarah's library at home and everyone better be returning those books if your not studding! LOL! I am at work and we are talking about this, if you don't know something search it out, learn it! That's Russell, he is always searching it out and always learning. A professor once pointed it out, those who go home and do research are the ones that are the difference between just a student and a scholar. Russell is a scholar and he doesn't have a degree from Harvard! Well back to work! Have a great day!

Love,
Sarah

Thursday August 20, 2009 Good Morning, The Russell Simmons Tribute continues

Good Morning! Well It is an all nighter for me. I hit Michigan Avenue today, to run errands and I have to say there is something so wonderful about watching people. Pointing to buildings, looking at the architecture, museums, and moving on to the Magnificent Mile. Of course looking for Russell Simmons Books and Rev Run and Justine Simmons Take back your Family! The irony in this is I was raised in a catholic school went to an All Girls Catholic College Prep institution that was mostly white. One day I was volunteering for a school district in need and a guy I knew left his key pass at a bowling alley in Cicero, IL. I said hey I will go with you know problem. Little did I know that single random act of kindness would make a huge change in my life. From then on he needed a lift. Ok to a Bowling Alley! I hate bowling, alright it's men's league, I walked in and stuck out like a sore thumb. I was the only white person in the room. That was my introduction to "hip hop music, fashion, and culture that I got." I didn't realize how poor some were. Not even having a couple dollars, when I would make chat with them some would say were they lived, I would say oh by Michigan Avenue, I think the guys were rolling on the floor. I was so naive but yet it opened me up to a whole new culture. It was Thursday nights. It was the best time of my life. I learned there was more to life and Chicago than just Michigan Avenue but I am still able to enjoy! Those people are some of my closest friends.

The thing that is so wonderful about Russell is that no matter what race, age, or economical status, you are just as important as anyone else. If anyone asks me who Russell Simmons is I will say go home look him up, go to www.globalgrind.com look up his blog, then give me a call. He not only brought back fashion, hip/hop music, but he also contributes to, The Rush Philanthropic Arts Festival, Rush Communications, The Foundations of Ethic Understanding (I find hugely important), Def Comedy Jam, Run Athletics and his American Simmons clothing line American Classics! Those are just a few. The Book I have been reading Do You is just another stepping stone on his legendary path. I hate to say this but there are so many white people out there with this stereotypical view of hip hop. If they could open there blinders and see, they would see a whole new life. A life full of enjoyment and energy. Those people I met at that bowling alley, my good friends, are from a town Pilsen. Pilsen is were my friend Kate Boggaino has her studio and I saw one day an invite to Pretty in Pilsen. Who would have thought a girl I went to School with at the All Girls Catholic College Prep Institution with a graduating class of about 77, would end up in Pilsen. Then There was the Good Glam Gala, were I won a James Purcell Jr. Suit size 6. Not knowing what to do with it, I chose to give it to the Emcee that night Susanna Negovan, she really wanted the suit. She just happened to be the editor and chief of Michigan Avenue Magazine. Russell Simmons is so open minded, he lives a life of joy and happiness that many cannot find. He has found his inner peace, made successful businesses and chosen not to leave people behind! That is true, that is noble, and that is a legend.

Have a great day, I must try to shut my eyes, remember to turn up the music and enjoy!

Love,

Sarah

Wednesday August 19, 2009 Good Afternoon, Russell Simmons Tribute Continues!

Good Afternoon! I hope you all have had a great morning already! Mine has been that of a hectic one! The schedule never stops! As I heard Russell say one day on Run's House "Working is a privilege." So true. That leads into why my health battle connects so much with Russell's story. He fought for his vision, as everyone downed him. Trust me those that were snapping pictures when I was well, were not at my bedside when I wasn't. I recently looked at the Russell Simmons line and I like it. It is sharp and sleek. Well put together. The other admiration is he never compromised who he is. Some say I come off strong or sometimes maybe I am too sensitive. Well that's me, Sarah. Many love me, some hate me. I can't be something I am not.

I finally found a doctor, a real doctor. Dr. Larry Wilkin. He has a Ph-D in Neuro-Biology and an MD in Neurology. He works in Pain Medicine. He became a doctor in his 40's after being a Neuro-Researcher. He told me that he thought the answers were always in the Research and he found the answers were in the patients you just had to be willing to listen. Russell listens. I have the belief in God. I believe people are put in your life for a reason. I would cry to doc all the time about my weight. Doc said "Sarah, as soon as we get you better the weight will come off. You don't lack the discipline, there is an illness that is causing this. The less stress and worry about what is wrong and the more we concentrate on getting better the more likely it will come off." That has been true. Of course not at the rate I want it. I am 70 lbs down from my highest weight, I am still a plus size, but I am alive and I live for today. My mouth dropped when I read from Russell's Do You book "It seems that whenever we turn on the TV, listen to the radio, or pick up a magazine, we're bombarded by the message that our life will still improve once we get our body in shape. It's a potent message, witnessed by the millions of people who get up every day and trudge off to the gym, hoping to find happiness through getting their chest bigger, or their butt tighter. And while it's fine to get your body in shape, I would suggest that it's more helpful to get your mind toned first. Remember, your mind is your most powerful muscle. A six pack on your stomach won't really make you happy unless your also keeping your mind in shape through prayer, reflection, and self study. How you look on the outside doesn't really matter if you don't have your spiritual self in shape first." Now that is true!!!

If you are one that follows my blog you know my comments. When I am out with my guy friends and they talk to girls, rate us. I think idiots! Then when they marry the these girls! Neither a brain in their head. You think she is going to have that body forever. Remember you still have to talk to them, and wake up everyday next to them, EVERYDAY. I even now struggle but my friend and designer Kate Boggiano says to me Sarah stop, Your Alive! It puts me back in check. It wasn't until I believed truly believed there was a god, became mindful and started praying and meditating that my life has become more complete. I am very lucky and blessed to have had certain experiences at only 28 because some will never know. Russell's Do You book I carry it around, I love it and cherish it. I know I am not a size 6, and I the weight comes off slowly, but I have taken the pressure off myself. First I don't slam cheeseburgers, I am actually very conscious of what I eat. I give myself more of a hard time than anyone. I am on my way downtown to drop off the Suit I won by James Purcell Jr. to give it to Susanna Negovan Editor and Chief of Michigan Ave Magazine. It is a beautiful suit that doesn't deserve to be e-bayed. I thank him and her for helping with the GoodGlamGala, which was a fashion show for my friend Kate Coxworth Boggiano whom, I have always looked up to even in high school and Kristin Goede's Jewels which are extraordinary. The proceeds helped The Boys and Girls Club of Chicago and it was a great success! I was there in support of them. I just happened to be the lucky winner. Good people help good people. I truly believe that. It would be selfish to get monetary gain out of such a kind gesture. I must go now off with the day, everyone enjoy and turn up the music because it does heal! We will meet later to go over more inspirational stories of Russell Simmons!

Love,

Sarah

"Simplify! Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least." Goethe

August 18th, 2009 Russell Simmons Tribute

Russell Simmons Tribute Week! Yes I did my Good Morning, having a panicking looking for his book Do You, because there were some quotes I wanted to use. Russell Simmons is so complex. He built an empire Def Jam Records and then went all in and invested into Phat Farm Clothing, only to become very successful. He works on other projects as well. His brother's show, Runs House, is were I first saw him. His sense of humor and work ethic caught my eye. He came from nothing and now he has everything. When I say everything, I mean everything. He is blessed to know what everything is. I am not just talking about the materialistic things, power and fame. I am speaking of the soul and great mind that rests in his body. He knows the true meaning of life. Many spend there entire lives never being able to figure that out. For that is what I admire him for the most. He could spend his days have drinks sitting on the beach, but no, he is dedicated to his employees, himself and to doing good things for people. I have spent my life searching and I have found it. I struggle a bit, but with God and now, thanks to Russell meditation, my life is becoming even more meaningful.

There is an ethic, a work ethic that very few have and those are the one's that become successful in life. He has that. I have that. Work doesn't mean sitting behind a desk. It means living each day to the fullest. I am 28 and lost my Step-Father at 21. I had to make all funeral arrangements and live with my depressed mother who told me she had nothing to live for. Always being over weight, never feeling good enough, I lost 135 lbs and came to a plateau. I went in and had plastic surgery. I had an advanced tummy tuck, skin removed from my arms, and Liposuction on my legs. My family was proud taking pictures. I then moved on and started getting infections and weird neurological symptoms. I was misdiagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I could barely get out of bed. My Doctors were in Chicago and surrounding suburbs, for I had to drive myself. I gained 165 lbs, but was so exhausted I could barely eat. I lived in severe pain everyday. Doctors told me I ate too much, except for one I worked for, Dr. Brenart. I said one day, " I don't understand, calories in and calories out?" He said yes under normal Physiology but you don't have normal Physiology. Well I ended up having to quit my job I loved so much and do my best to get better. I hunted the best doctors around. I drove to and from Mayo Clinic in Rochester MN 3 times. Only to find they didn't know for sure. All I wanted before was to be thin and by then all I wanted to be was healthy. To work out play with my nephew, enjoy life was then my dream.

What does this have to do with Russell, well as the week progresses I will finish the story, and how I now know what the meaning of life is. By me staring death in the face, taught me the true meaning of life. Everyone says, I bet you wish you didn't have that plastic surgery, I say no, I wouldn't be the person I am today. Russell, whose book I am reading, has helped me even more now and I helped me get back to work along with prioritizing my life. He said in the book that exercising your mind and having a fit mind is much more important than a fit body. I will go into details later. He is a true leader, he does not follow. I try not to follow. I took a risk starting this blog, I am also writing a book, which I thought I would never be able to do. Russell deserves more credit than he gets that's for sure, and his sense of humor makes the ride worth while! Hands to heart!

Sarah

Tuesday August 18th, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Unfortunately I left Russell Simmon's book at work, I was going to read on lunch a little bit. This is his week. Tonight I will do a good evening and we will continue to speak of him. For he inspires me like no other. His success is an amazing piece of work. Well today is a new day. For God is Great and God is Good! I am thankful for all I have. It is so funny, many look at me as wealthy and other's look at me as poor. I look at me and think what next. I am very excited my Step-brother Ron is fling in from Dallas today! Good times to be had. I am thankful for all of my true friends and family who love me unconditionally and try to guide me the best that they can. Friendship and love is all I truly look for. Inspiration and success is what I strive for. Well I hope all have a wonderful day, don't forget to enjoy something, be kind and turn up the music, don't forget music does heal. Tonight we will meet again to go over our tribute to Russell Simmon's and to go through more of his book. A hard working man, who is humble and who has truly touched me.

Love,

Sarah

"When we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but what we are grateful for the abundance that's present....we experience the heaven on earth." Sarah Breathnack

"Imperfect action is better than perfect inaction." Harry Truman

"It is one of the most beautiful compensations in life...we can never help another without helping ourselves." Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday August 17th 2009

Good Morning! Rise and shine! Well the thunder is rumbling here! Well it was a good weekend. I had a Garage Sale and read. I made a big announcement last night so you may want to go back to Good Evening! I am reading Russell Simmons Do You! 12 Laws To Access the Power In You To Achieve Happiness and Success. I have say it by far the best book I have read yet. I just have one question that I can't get over. How come it didn't make Oprah's Book Club??

This book speaks of success personally, spiritually and in business. I love it. It is so funny how much Russell Simmons and I have in common as far as work ethic and personality wise. I have just been laughing so hard. So this week I am dedicating it to Russell Simmons. So many don't know who he is. I say how could you not! Well Then again the reason I know him is from Runs House. I loved his personality and work ethic.

Here we go. "I also knew that I had come to a place where, when reflecting on my life's journey I could see that there were particular laws and principles that guided my professional and personal success and more importantly, I had only been able to learn those principles because of Individuals from a variety of cultures had been willing to share the lessons that they had learned across the lines of global divisions and inspire me. Reflecting on how much knowledge I had gained through the gifts of others is what ultimately committed me to sharing the changes I've made in my own life had preconceived notions about which sort of principles power a "hip hop" Mogul. I wanted to make it clear that my purpose is defined by the power of giving back and sharing." Russell is a very spiritual man and knows the meaning of life is not defined by materialism but by internal happiness. Something I speak of everyday. "I'm someone who who's always tried to connect with as many people as possible. I want to be able to chop it up with folks in the Hamptons, just like I chop it up with folks in Harlem." To me that is real. Russell Simmons was part of a group Run DMC. He then went on and founded Def Jam Records with Rick Rubin. I think his biggest accomplishment is Phat Farm clothing. I know he does have some producing in the hit show Run's House! I always say you see Run's house and I explain something that happened and then I say that's how I'm going to Run my house! Hive five you there Rev!

In his first Chapter He goes by Laws. Above the first Law he states "Degrees are helpful but they won't guarantee you success in the business world. Only faith and dedication to your vision can do that. Law number one: See your vision and stick with it and of course he starts with a quote "I dream my painting and paint my dream." Which was by Vincent Van Gogh. I can't put the book down. Anyone who wants a good read needs to invest in this book. Again Russell Simmons w/Chris Morrow Do YOU! 12 Laws to Access the power in You to Achieve Happiness and Success. This is just the introduction. There are so many great points in this book. I will refer to different situations through out the week. He has to be the most inspirational personal on a business level ever, to me. I must share the good news. I love to share especially good news.

We all have the ability to succeed at our dreams no matter how small or big we think they are. We have to keep moving forward. We each have our days. We have moments when we fall, we pick our selves up brush off our knees and keep going forward. Like I always say today is a blank slate. We all make mistakes, I make at least 12 a day. My biggest problem is I must forgive myself. Ok I'm forgiven moving on to a good day, a rainy day but there will still be a smile. Yes there are always good days and bad days. We all need support systems of good people that are their for us to help us and lift us up when we fall. We may not be able to save the world, but if we have the power to help or support each other than why not. Well I am inspired and I must do some stretching and get ready for my day. I hope everyone has a great day! Make sure to enjoy something and make sure to do something kind for someone, trust me it will help you feel so good.

Love,

Sarah

"A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature." Ralph Waldo Emerson

"It is never to late to be what you might have been." (my favorite) George Elliot

"No act of kindness, no matter how small is ever wasted." Aesop

Sunday August 16, 2009 Good Evening

Good Evening. The Lord is Great and the Lord is good, and I am thankful for all I have. Tonight I want to share something very special with you all. I had the pleasure of attending the Good Glam Gala on August 7th. My friend Kate Coxworth, Aka, Kate Boggiano and Kristin Goede of Objects d'Envy were featuring a fashion show and shop to benefit The Boys and Girls Club of Chicago. Watching Kate shine made my whole evening worth while. She had custom made me a shirt, in which really looks great on me. That means a lot to me that she custom makes clothing for people of a plus size. Kate and I went to high school together and to watch the models come down that runway almost brought tears to my eyes. Kristin Goede is so fabulous, she is so good to me and so down to Earth. She designs Objects d'envy. The host was Kate McLenaghan who does multiple things in the fashion world and wears multiple hats. She is very classy and filled with the Midwestern charm. You can find out more information on her services at www.katemclenaghan.com.

Well as you all know I won the biggest prize of the evening a suit donated by James Purcell Jr., who use to be a designer for Dior. I was going to sell the suit on E-bay and use the money towards helping others in need. However, I couldn't do it. If I was a designer and donated a suit, the last thing I would want is for it to be put on E-bay. So who gets the suit? Who is worthy? Do I draw straws? Well it hit me tonight. The Emcee of the evening was Susanna Negovan the Chief and Editor of Michigan Avenue Magazine. Before the drawing she said she wanted the suit so bad but she couldn't put in for it. She is a writer as well. Of course she has had the formal school for writing , were I have not. (again please excuse any grammatical errors or misuse of words, I do not have an editor. LOL!) As I looked through the magazine I noticed articles regarding politics and Philanthropy. Philanthropy is huge to me. I believe in giving back, I believe truly the holy spirit runs through me. I thought it was all fashion and it's not. It is a very well laid out magazine. I was never expecting what I saw. Please go to www.michiganavemag.com. It is extraordinary!

Well Susanna Stand up for your standing ovation. You are the lucky winner. You get the James Purcell Jr. suit free of charge. Giving isn't always to the unfortunate or needy. What about those who go un-noticed. I feel like that way at times, that people just assume oh she is fine and never give or offer. The last random act of kindness I received was, never. I speak often of random acts of kindness. Just because your successful doesn't mean you don't deserve that suit. You very much so deserve that suit. You have worked very hard and when I met you were very kind to me and very real. That to me is worth more than money or power. The more I thought of it the better the fit. You have built something and you should be very proud. We could all use extra money or extra this, but to make someones day is priceless. They don't have to be poverty stricken. I have found that just ordinary people are just as thankful if not even more. How many ordinary people get random acts of kindness? I have many wishes, but they are not granted. So do many of my average to well off friends. Well Susanna I hope you enjoy your suit, I can't wait to start getting the magazine. Thank You all so much. Thank you Kristin, for your kindness, and for dressing me in your beautiful jewels. You can find her at www.objectsdenvy.com. You are a true person with a great soul. Kate, we go way back, and I am more than proud I am ecstatic! You have achieved so much and you are so good to me. Thank You, if it wasn't for you I would have missed out on a great opportunity. You can find Kate's shirts at www.Kateboggiano.com, no worries on what size she custom makes them as well. Thank you all! Well we have a big week to look forward to a week in tribute to Russell Simmons! Wow, we have such similar souls. If you don't know who he is, you will. Well I hope you all enjoyed your evening, good night to all and if the good Lord lets us we will meet again in the morning!

Love,

Sarah

Sarturday August 15th,2009 Good Afternon

Good Afternoon! I thought I would just chime in today. I am having a garage sale and it is interesting to see people. I have been outside in my chair reading my Russell Simmon's book Do YOU! What a fabulous book you will be hearing quotes from it all week. I have one question, how come it didn't make Oprah's book club? It is outstanding.

Well watching what is going on in the world and tuning in on the T.V. I have to make a comment. The media is there and they will portray what ever image they want. People seem to forget quickly we are all human, we all make mistakes. Movie stars, Singers, Athletes, Teachers, Moms, Dads, kids. We live in such an imperfect world but have such perfect expectations. We are quick to judge, myself at times too. We all need to take a step back and re-evaluate how much we criticize others. We are not perfect, why can't we except people for who they are for their imperfections. There has been so much bad press lately. Example I walked past a magazine and it said that President Obama had a secret meeting with Muslims. "Oh NO could you imagine! Give me a break, there is nothing wrong with Muslims. Again it is the media and the way they portrait things, we should all remember that before making judgements. I just thought of that as I watched people walk by and gave the elderly Hispanic woman this dish for free as she was counting through her change. If we can do it why not. It would go to Good Will anyway. I let the kids pick candy and their eyes pop up. It really is the small things in life. Cherish them, because those are memories and happiness no one can take from you. I hope all is having a great weekend, enjoy those you love and smile!

Love,

Sarah

Friday August 14,2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! It is so beautiful outside today, I feel like I accomplished something yesterday! I did my makeover in my office. Some days I won't make it in the morning, I may not make until the evening just bare with me. I spent a day out of commission and then yesterday was hectic. That is all good though because now I am back working and making things happen. We all need a purpose in life. I feel like I have found mine. Yes I feel like I have multiple and that is such a wonderful feeling. As I fall I stand up brush off my knees and keep going. Some may look at me and think life is so easy, when those who really know me, know it is an uphill battle. I have no complaints, I will continue to climb that hill, because I am happy.

I am a person who is truly unconditional. I hope everyone is able to find a purpose to there life that gives them that joy, that brings them laughter, and helps them become the person they want to be. It is never to late. Today is a new day a blank slate. Well I would love to be at the pool, unfortunately there is way to much to be done. I hope everyone has a great day and enjoys something today! Have a safe and wonderful weekend!

Love,

Sarah

"It is never to late to be what you might have been." George Elliot

"The greatest happiness is to transform one's feelings into actions." Germaine De Stael

"Don't agonize. Organize." Florynce Kennedy

Tuesday August 11, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! Yes it is going to be a good day! I am so thankful for what I have. I am thankful I get to go to work today. I love work. I know that sounds different, but when you work for good people and you love going to work it makes your day. We all work as a team. It isn't a job. It is a day filled with challenges, laughter and hard work. At the end of the day we have accomplished things. That to me is so fulfilling. I would work 100 hrs a week if my body would allow it. That is the hardest part. There are so many things we take for granted. I remember laying in bed fighting a disease, just trying to think how could I even get out of bed to get my medicine. Now I can enjoy life more and now even work part-time and spend time enjoying life a little. To me the Lord has answered my prayers. I can not take the day for granted, I know I am blessed. I am Thankful for all I have. I am thankful to the people I work for and with. They are the ones you spend your days with and make the ride a lot more worth while. Thank You Chad and Ned. For you have always believed in me. I would hear such great things from people. Technicians would come to my house and say "your a legend around that place." You have know idea how much that touched me. Good people again helping good people. I again feel like I have purpose. After the kids it was hard, but the Lord has blessed me. (I use to help take care of my friends 6 children, for 4 years, very complicated situation.) It gave me such purpose. I had and still have such a big place in my heart for those children. Just working part-time has brought in structure and such joy in my life.

I wanted to comment on Russell Simmons Book Do You! 12 Laws to access the Power in you to achieve happiness and success. The Irony is so much. I have always had the same attitude through out High School. I always worked. I started when I was at 14 and by the time I was 18 I was a senior in High School working at Carmax as a Business Office Administer. I was drained. I ended up quiting and going to school. I couldn't do the best. Well I was so fatigued and in pain. I was told I was depressed. Well yeah, I couldn't work. We now know I have Lupus, 10 years later. However I wouldn't take those 10 years back, again, I wouldn't be the person I am today. Now I am a woman on a mission. I know Health is Wealth. I know what matters in life and I don't take life for granted. I worked for a small companies after that. All the people I worked for and the most successful people I worked for never had a college degree. They had a work ethic. I was about 22 and I saw a company nearly be destroyed by getting rid of all of there top people and replacing them with these other "business people" with top degree's. It was then I learned. It doesn't matter if you have a college degree. These people couldn't run this company it was a total joke. They never showed up to work, I had to teach my boss how to work the computers and how to do her job. Are you serious!!! It was pathetic. From then on I wanted small family owned. I met influential people, successful people, entrepreneurs and I learned a college degree was only a punch card. It doesn't matter. It is a work ethic, it is EQ, Emotional Intelligence and desire. I knew this in high school. I wasn't a big fan of formal Education, I loved to learn just not in a formal environment.

So I am reading Russell Simmons' book and I am cracking up. Cause those are the same thoughts that run through my head. I was once at a party and I was in school always learning, but often different things just at the local school by me, and someone goes "Oh are you getting your MBA!" Yeah! Not really, more like Associates, but I just wanted to learn different things. I am going to quote a section out of this book that made me laugh about this. "Being an Entrepreneur can be nerve-wracking largely because there's no by the book way to do it. Some people think they'll get the blueprint at business school, but that degree alone definitely won't guarantee success. In fact, out of all degrees you can get, a business degree might be the least valuable." But an MBA Doesn't mean you'll have the skills to run a business. They probably don't want to hear that up at Warton or Harvard, but it's the truth." LOL!!!!!! "And I am the living example. I might run a multimillion-dollar companies, but I didn't graduate from college, let alone get an MBA. I don't even know how to write a business plan. Truth is, I've never read the one's I pay the people with the MBA's to write for me. Now don't get me wrong-a business degree can open up a lot of doors for you. But it should always be a complement, instead of compensate for, an entrepreneurial spirit that's born in your imagination. That's because in my experience, there's only one thing that will always steer you toward success : That's to have a vision and to stick with it." Well that is very inspirational and insightful. I have the same beliefs. The most wealthy people I know do not have college degree's. It is a work ethic, like me and Doc always say, you either got it or you don't.

Well I will leave today with that. Great insight by a very successful man. I have to get going. I have been up since 3 organizing and heading to the office after doing a light exercise today. Have a great day, enjoy something and make sure to laugh!

Love,

Sarah

"The reality is that changes are coming. They must come. You must share in bringing them. John Hersey

"We create our fate every day.....most of the ills we suffer from are directly traceable to our own behaviour." Henry Miller

"Opportunities multiply as they are seized: they die when neglected. Life is a long line of opportunities." John Wicker

Monday August 10, 2010 Good Morning

Good Morning! Yes it is! Sorry I meant to write a good night, but my to do list was long and then half way through me and a couple friends went around the corner to my Aunt's house and randomly jumped in the pool! It was great! Being sporadic, diverging from the regular schedule makes life worth while! It was fun and fresh! Well my little space at work is getting a make over today! I am so excited!

Speaking of makeover, my style has really changed. I went to Good Glam Gala this past Friday. It was a fashion show and shopping that benefiting The Boys and Girls Club of Chicago. It was Magnificent! From the flower petals lined on the floor to the champagne flowing in glasses. The Hearty Boys catered and it was so wonderful. The show was amazing, I kept seeing things that came out, that I wanted. The designers Kate Baggiano, and Kristen Goede of Objects D' envy, are just amazing, I want it all! There was an announcement that Kate will be featured in In Style Magazine in October! Wow! Not hard to imagine especially because her style is so chic! You can check her out at www.kateboggiano.com where she makes high quality woman's blouses. Then of course there was the beautiful jewels I love so much www.objectsdenvy.com. Amazing, I was really taken back. They are local designers that offer great quality and amazing style.

The Emcee was Susanna Negovan who is the Editor-in-Chief of of Michigan Avenue Magazine which I am now subscribing to. Wow amazing woman, so down to earth. We should be supporting our local designers. She spoke about how Chicago has really been put back on the map for fashion. Look at Michelle Obama, we have Oprah, Chicago is really up and coming. She has that wonderful Midwestern personality and come to find out she use to write "Susanna's Night Out" in the Chicago Sun Times along with "Shopping With Susanna." She also serves on the as a member of the Economic Club of Chicago. It was such a pleasure meeting her, and I can't wait to start receiving Michigan Avenue Magazine.

Then we have our host Kate McLenaghan who has 15 years experience in the fashion and beauty industry. She is from Iowa and has the Midwestern charm as well. She does have a back round in Public Relations, Sales and Celebrity Outreach. Well she was the host of the evening and the evening went down well. There were great prizes donated! I mean wonderful things. Everything came together beautifully!

Great Job to all and standing ovation. It is so good to see people you know and enjoy, succeed. Not only succeed but shine so bright! Thank You Susanna for educating us about other designers out there in Chicago, I can't wait for my magazine. You are a true person and it was a pleasure meeting you. It makes my feel so good when I see good people helping other good people. It gave a whole new meaning to Good Glam Gala! It was probably one of the best experiences yet. Thank you of course to the New York Designer James Purcell who donated a beautiful Woman's silver suit! A space suit of sorts. He is a former designer for Dior. For I had the privilege of winning his suit the highest valued prize at over $4000.00! I hate to let it go, but I will be selling it, I must in order to continue on my road of goodness. To do random acts of kindness and adopt 2 families for Christmas this year. That warms my heart. But It is going back to the Chicago Community doing good. Please every one stand take a bow because you get a standing ovation from me and from my guests as well. Job well done! I thank you all! Everyone have a great day! Enjoy something, listen to the music do a little dance, smile and embrace all that is positive.

Love,

Sarah

"The secret of success in life is for a man, is to be ready for his opportunity when it comes." Earl of Beaconsfield

"If you imagine it you can achieve it, if you can dream it, you can become it." William Arthur Ward

"Happiness is were we find it, but often rarely where we seek it. " J. Petit Senn

Sunday August 9, 2009 Good Morning!

Good Morning! Today is a day of family, fun and worship. I figured I will get a head start because there is so much to talk about. I want to say, you don't need to belong to a church or a religion to believe in a higher power. I believe I can open my bible read, open up other motivating inspiring things similar to the bible and go through out my day doing good deeds. I want to share something with you from Joel Osteen Becoming A Better You. August 8/9 "This is what the LORD says to you: Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. 2 Chronicles 20:15

He then goes on to say " Decide right now that you will trust God wherever you are. When you do that the battle is not yours; the battle is the Lord's. Ask God to give you the strength to endure. And the rest assured He will take care of you even in the midst of life's most vicious storms." I find that very powerful. No matter were we are in our lives we are all struggling with something. It is hard for us to deal with problems and with problems with loved ones. But in recent months, I, myself, have found that through prayer, when truly in need, the Lord will provide. We have to have faith and believe. I believe, because if not, there is no way I could be this blessed. For those of you that know me or follow my blog regularly understand. The people and the love and support in my life has been put there by God. It can't be just because of coincidences. Something to think about. Well like everyone, has had at some point in there lives, this weekend has been a roller coaster. I will meet again with you all this evening! Enjoy your day and God Bless!

Love,

Sarah

August 7th 2009

Good Morning! Sorry yesterday flew by! I am on my out the door to get ready for tonight's wonderful event Good Glam Gala. WWW.goodglamgala.com! I am so excited! Nothing like seeing good people coming together for a great cause.

I want to reflect on Wednesday's good morning. For I got high fives and then I got Rev Run's words of wisdom this morning regarding blame! Listen I do not blame anyone for my situation. I am a very open person. Every negative thing I have experienced has brought me to the place I am at now in my life. It has made me the kind of person I am. I see life for what it truly is. I can laugh from the pit of my stomach and know what true happiness is. So many people go there entire life never knowing what that truly is. I make mistakes at least 12 a day, we all do. It's life. We never stop learning. The one thing I refuse to live by is "what would people think." I disagree with things, but I try not to make people feel badly about them. I would never exclude anyone. I am so unconditional. This is my blog were I get to share any feelings I have. Anything can happen in life, that's why we must live to the fullest. I used my own story in a way to show how people fly and stick to you when things are good, when things get bad or they disagree, they disappear. How true is that. Hey we are who we are. If that is what they want to be than fine. Some of us, myself included, are tired, busy and just can't find the time. Maybe this is a lesson that we should find more time. I don't blame, sometimes I don't understand, but I do know I am thankful to have the life I have and the experiences that I have gone through. I would not be the person I am today. Ironically I was watching Runs House on MTV, great show. His brother Russell Simmons, has caught my eye. His wisdom, work ethic and humor hit so close to home. I encourage you all to go to the library or to the bookstore and buy Russell Simmons Do You! 12 Laws to access the power in you to achieve happiness and success. I have only read the first chapter and I have very much the same thoughts. He is truly a remarkable man. He speaks openly of his success and the crossroads he has encountered. I will quote some wonderful lines that I find to be very true on Monday! Well I hope everyone has a great weekend! Enjoy, turn up the music, because music does heal! Cheers! God Bless

Love,

Sarah

"Anything in life we don't accept will simply make trouble for us until we make peace with it." Shakti Gawain

"Acceptance of what has happened is the first step to overcoming the consequence of any misfortune." William James

"I have accepted all and I am free. The inner chains are broken as well as those outside." C.F. Ramuz

Wednesday August 5,2009

Good Morning! Yes it is early! However these are new days for me. My goals have come quicker and harder. I am done! When I say I am done, I am done! My life comes first. I have spent my life giving and thinking of others and it is a great spirit the Good Lord has blessed me with. I have made many contacts and numerous friends. I am lucky to have those who believe in me. However, I am extremely disappointed in those who haven't believed in me, considering they are my own family. I remember looking at wall paper wondering if that was going to be the last thing I saw before I die. The multiple trips I took to Mayo Clinic alone. The numerous Dr. Appointments, even drives to the emergency room. I remember being hospitalized with Mono so bad it turned into Toxic encephalopathy. Where my liver would no longer digest amino acids and release toxic levels of ammonia in my blood. All I remember was I am going to die. I remember the Meningitis in which I still get. The fevers ranging from 100 to 104 degrees. The pain I suffered, the weddings I missed. Wondering how was I going to get out of bed to get my medicine. The 3 years it took for me to get disability, the misdiagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis, which was Lupus which a potentially Life Threatening disease.

I have Fibromyalgia which is a sleep disorder where my brain never goes into stage IV sleep. My mail piling up and the anger and hostility that surrounded me. Not the loving caring people that were at my bedside. The complications of Pneumonia, chronic infections, allergies, shingles and everything I have suffered. Or the 165 lbs I gained within months of the onset of this disease. I remember people telling me oh well a girl at work has your disease and she works. Or how I needed to go on State Aid. Well in the State of Illinois if you always have health insurance and you exhaust all your Cobra they have to offer you health insurance through ICHIP-Illinois Comprehensive Health Insurance Plan. I remember those who stuck by me in those times. My relatives that didn't have much, like my aunt Maureen, who said no matter what we will figure it out. How my father who was absent through out my life stepped in. He took me to the hospital. He didn't scream at me, make me feel as though it was my fault and I needed to fix it.

The irony is when I lost 135 lbs, had plastic surgery I received cards some with gift cards. People would take pictures. So much support. I felt so proud. Wow I did something right. A life were I never did anything right, I now have done something right. I worked hard and did my best. People, cousins spoke to me in a different manner. People in general spoke to me as though they cared what I said. Well that was long gone. Then when I got sick I can only remember maybe 2 at my bedside. Coming by, or my grandmother from Florida sending Cards and an angel of healing to me. My Aunt Maureen calling me. The rest of my family jumped off the ban wagon.

Why do I say this now. Because it has been hard for me lately. I have chosen to "officially" go back to work part-time. This time I have a mission. I work for great people and I am determined to succeed. I have a love for my mother no one could ever know. I would give my life for her. Right now my plan is to move up and out. Away from all those who don't support me. Yes I know I need to "hold a job" and that I am capable of. I will succeed. Instead of positive support I feel as though I get negative support. My family doesn't agree with me ok. So we disagree. So what, your not going to respond to me, answer my calls, basically disown me. Than fine. You have no clue as to what I have in store and who I network with. I will be damned if anyone will bring me down. I have no meaness or malicious intent. IF I have to end up working 3 jobs I will. Little do they know I also have 4 big exams now. Well guess what, a college degree is just a punch card. In life it's all in who you know. It shows now. I am a hard worker with a heart of Gold. I have 2 very dissevering friends who live with me, who help take care of me and my mother. This is the happiest I have ever seen her. When I move I will not abandon her. I will probably see and talk to her more. Thank you to all who have supported me. For those who haven't well good luck in the future. I have nothing to apologize for. I deserve a good life and not to brought down. I don't need any negative thoughts or words. All I need is encouragement and love. I purge this from my soul so I never need to go back and relive this again. It is forward from here on out. This is me and I will succeed and no one will take that from me. I believe in goodness, I believe in a higher God and he is Great!

With this being said, pick our friends wisely, and live life to the fullest. If we want it bad enough we will get it. Let me say to all those who have sent me e-mails of discouragement, Thank You. You have even more so encouraged me to move on with my life. I hope everyone is able to pursue there dreams without falling victim to fear or abandonment. Right now I am listening to James Blunt You're Beautiful! It gives me solitude and reminds me of a special person that gives me the strength and confidence to move towards my dreams. Everyone have a great day and enjoy something that YOU love! OH YES and one last thing, feel free to register as a follower and make comments. This is a blog, please make comments, I thank those who do! Thats what I like, comments, conversation. I know since it is public you don't need to register to read, but do to make comments. Cheers!

Love,

Sarah

(all quotes come from Open Your Mind. Open your Life!)

"Focus on the positive in your life, for what you focus on increases."

"We can try many ways to get rid of the darkness, but none is as effective as simply increasing the light."

"Wisdom, courage and compassion-three essential elements to a noble life."

Tuesday August 4, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Rise and Shine! Well I survived yesterday. I did more than survive, I really enjoyed my job. I work for good people. Everyone who knows me, knows that I don't settle and I refuse to work with people that are not good people. It was hectic, but hey it made the day go faster. I get an hour lunch, Wooooo hoooooo! Only good/bad news is I am right by a local shopping center! LOL! I had to get in bed by 7 and asleep by 8 to be up at 3:15. I was doing research yesterday, and I sometimes get into something and never made it to the gym. So I have to get to bed really early. I feel really blessed to working for a successful business that is owned by good people. All are so helpful which makes my life so much easier. I have a great boss and the best part was when the other woman whom I work with, Barb, pulled out a Shaw for me, that her sister sent her from Africa! How ironic is that. It's beautiful.

So I didn't get a chance to see any of the regular shows, Jon and Kate plus 8 or Weeds, maybe tonight. What did we do before DVR? I hope everyone had a wonderful day yesterday and had a chance to think about what they have and remember we are blessed. Well my group needs to come together, today is the cut off for the GoodforGalm! If you want more information go to www.goodforglam.com. I still have the 3 extra tickets for my group. Let me know it is at 7:30 in Pilsen! I am so excited, nothing better than to see great fashion and be with good people. I hope everyone has a great day! I hope to be swimming and watching the sunrise today! Everyone have a great day and make sure to enjoy something! Throw in a random act of kindness and you never know what will happen!

Love,

Sarah

"To believe in God for me is to feel that there is a God not a dead one, or a stuffed one , but a living one, with irresistible force urges us toward more loving." Vincent Van Gogh

"You, whose day it is, get out your rainbow colors and make it beautiful." Traditional Nootka Song

"What is life for? It is for you." Abraham Maslow

Monday August 3, 2009 Good Morning

Good Morning! Today is an important day for me. A stepping stone. It is my first day back into the working world. Something I love and enjoy. Because of health issues I haven't worked in years. I needed this in order to survive. I cannot tread water. I must move forward. I have come to a cross road. The most important thing is that handcuffs and shackles that the government has put on me comes off. When I got sick it took years for me to get disability, spending thousands on healthcare, and it was very traumatic. Today is my first day back into the workforce. I had been so scared to step out and really go. I would help, or do this or that, but to really go and jump in, was scary. I lived in fear for many years of the government, despite my fear of my illness. I know it is right, I know that it is time. I am happy to be going to work. Of course I will remain a student as well. People think that I just choose not to work or I didn't want to. It was a lot more complex than that. The time and place wasn't right. I don't care what people have said. They had never seen me really sick. They weren't here seeing me ill or at the hospital with me. I have come a long way and I hope to just keep going. Speed bumps may occur in which you prepare for. Well here we go. I thank everyone who is so supportive of me and encourages me. Who returned those calls and never gave up on me. For all those positive words. Those who help lift me up and not tare me down. Life is way to short for that.

I have been sick like this before and I overcame it, so I hope that this my chance to overcome it again. While my life is always changing I now have structure to move forward and continue on.

Well I hope no one takes life for granted today. Sickness and death surround us everyday. It is up to us to create our own destiny, I will be damned if anyone brings me down. Don't let anyone bring you down. We all have the right to be happy despite any past situations, or even current situations. Today is another day, that blank slate. Everyone have a great day and make sure enjoy the music. Tonight kick the coffee table to the side, dance and enjoy! Cheers!

Love,

Sarah

"A Chief event of life is the day in which we have encountered a mind that startled us." Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Always do what your afraid to do." Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Don't aim for success if you want it; just do what you love and believe in it and it will come naturally." David Frost